I contemplated what to do. I wanted to walk down fairs and act like nothing happened, but I also wanted to stay in my room shut away.
I got up and went to my closet. I pulled on a gray and black stripped sweater and got into my black yoga pants. I threw my hair up in a messy bun. I looked in the mirror and finally realized how horrible I really did look. My eyes had dark circles under them and they were sunken in. My cheeks had sunken in more, my lips had lost their vibrant pink color and were dry and cracking. I look like a zombie, and I felt that way too. I felt like I was already dead, but I was being forced to stay alive. For what? I don't know. But I had a good idea.... Them. The boys.
I grabbed my phone and slowly made my way down the stairs. I saw the boys in the living room watching a tv show. It was spongebob of course. I walked in and plopped down on Calum's lap. They all looked shocked at first. They all smiled at me and turned back to the tv. Calum started to slowly rub circles in my back.
"I'm glad you came back." Calum whispered in my ear. I turned to him and saw the love and happiness in his eyes.
"I am glad I came back too." I whispered in his ear kissing his cheek.
"I'm going to go make some quesadillas, who wants one?" Luke asked standing up.
"All of us!" I yelled with a big smile. Luke gave me a smile that I couldn't explain it was like the most amazing thing had happened to him. He left to go the kitchen and I moved to lay down. I laid my head on Calum's lap and my legs were over Ashton. Calum played with my hair and Ashton was rubbing my legs. We all laid there watching spongebob laughing.
It was the way it was before, but not completely. I wanted to be fixed as fast as possible. And I would do that. We all need each other. But what they don't realize is that I need them more then they need me. And that was the truth.
"Skylar, I love you." Mikey said out of nowhere. I got up and sat on his lap embracing him in a huge tight hug.
"Mikey I love you too! I love you all and I promise, no more of this. I'm so sorry I put you all through this I love you all so much!" I said as the tears started to stream down my face.
Then Ashton and Calum joined in a group hug with tears streaming down their face. Luke came running into the living room crying, he had been secretly listening. We all started to laugh and wiped the tears away. Luke returned to the kitchen and we all got comfy again finishing spongebob.
Luke finally came in with the quesadillas and handed them to all of us.
"Thank you sweet cheeks!" I said smiling as I grabbed my food.
"You're welcome princess!" Luke giggled like a little girl making us all crack up.
We sat there in silence as we scarfed down our food. It was amazing. I think Luke is a secret chef. He has to be!
Mikey put in "TMNT" and I slowly fell asleep to the sound of the movie and the boys laughing.