~ Mitzilyn's P.O.V ~
I just sat in the hotel room and thought. Why would Taylor do that? If he thought this wasn't gonna hurt me, then he's crazy. How would this not hurt me? But what he said kinda made me feel feel bad. What if I was in his shoes? Trying to protect someone I love but in a absurd way. I must be over reacting. He wouldn't do that intentionally. He hates Ashley anyway. He told me every reason why he hated her. Maybe I should forgive him. But I'm not ready to continue a relationship after all this. Maybe we could be friends..? Everything is confusing me at this point.
I got up from the squeaky chair and headed for the door. I decided I should explain to Taylor. Explain to him what I've been thinking about. I quietly walked down the hallway where his room was, and gently knocked on his door. A sudden rush of anxiety came over me. I could hear footsteps coming closer. The closer they got, the more anxious I got. Should I run? No, I need to talk to him about this. I argued with myself until he swung the door open. He looked worse than the last time I was here. Which was about an hour ago.
"M-Mitzi?" He stuttered. "I'm sorry for bothering you right now, but I wanted to talk to you. About what I've been thinking."
"Okay, what d you need to tell me?" He said. His eyes were bloodshot.
"Can come in first?" I asked. "Yeah."
He opened the door more for m to walk in. The mess didn't get any worse or better. The bed was sunken down. He must've laid down for a long time. I sat down on the edge of the bed.
I cleared my throat, " I decided I should forgive you. But I came to the conclusion that I'm not ready to continue a relationship. Not like this. I'm not in... the right 'state'. We can still be friends I'm hoping. But I'm sorry, I don't think I'm in the right... the right 'state' to be in a relationship. And I think that's the best decision for me, and you. I hope you can understand. Maybe after this is all blown over, we can start over..?" I asked quietly.
He just looked at me. Like he had no words. He looked down and back up again. And gently nodded his head.
"I understand. Even though I don't want that, I'm gonna go with it cause its what you want. But yes, I'd like to start again. When you feel that you want to." He explained.
I smiled and he smiled back. I thought it was time for me to leave, so I gently got up. I was walking towards the door, but I felt like I needed t do something. So I walked back to Taylor and gave him a hug. I hugged him really tight, knowing that this would be the last one for a long time. He hugged back even tighter. As I pulled away, I walked to the door without looking at him. And left the saddened room.