Merry Christmas everybody!
As promised here is the next chapter, and the last of the current three characters to leave. Like Henry, she will definitely be reappearing later on in the book, but not as often.
Hope you all have a lovely day and I'll be back to updating maybe next week ish.
I stare at the wall, hoping to find some joy in counting the crimson roses for the fiftieth time in my wallpaper. Anything to take my mind off...him.
The rain pounds against my window, creating a somewhat soothing effect. I know it sounds pretty morbid of me to say this, but I always preferred rain to the sun. The cloudy grey sky calms the on going ache in my chest, and my phone vibrates for the twelfth time this afternoon. I don't dare touch it. I'm normally glued to my phone the majority of the time, but I can't bare to look at it.
Suddenly the house phone rings, and I let out a groan. Mum's probably going to answer it, so I have no choice but to answer whoever's ringing me. I swear to God if it's him, I'll throw the phone out of the fucking window.
"Vienna?" Mum quietly knocks on my door, peaking her head round the corner, "It's Megan."
I lift the covers up to my chin and squeeze my eyes shut, shaking my head furiously.
"She's just here, give her a second."
"Are you fucking serious?!" I snap.
Mum reaches over and drops the phone over my ear, "V? Are you there?"
"Mmmmm." I groan, "What do you want?"
"You've not answered any of my texts! I haven't spoken to you since yesterday, what's going on?" Megan frantically questions my abrupt absence.
My hands clasp over the phone and I use every singe muscle in my body to prop myself up in bed. Megan calls my name once again and I have no choice but to tell her the truth. She deserves that.
"Look V whatever's going on, I really need to talk to you. It's important." She interrupts, leaving me no chance to inform her of my news, "Can I come over?"
"Sure...I've kinda got something to tell you too." I sigh, "I hope yours isn't as bad as mine, else we'll both be in tears."
"I'm on my way, give me five minutes."
Megan hangs up the phone and I lay my head back on my pillow. It hasn't even crossed my mind what her 'news' could be, but I pray its not as bad as my news else we really will both be a mess. If she reacts the way I expect her to, Henry could be expecting a visit from a raging Megan Barnes before the day is over.
All I want to do is get back to Sunderland. I can't believe I'm actually saying that, but being around James four or five days out of the week is better than being here. Anything would be better than being here right now.
Sure enough, Megan strolls straight through our front door and greets my Mum half-heartedly, which sets in my mind that something really is up with her. Fuck sake. I can't take much more bad news. I can't.
"Hey." She whispers, peaking her head round my door, "God you look a state."
"Thanks. Much appreciated." I mumble, groaning as I sit up in bed, "You look shit too."
She bounces down onto the bed, and instantly turns to face me, a regretful look on her face. I swear to God if she brings me anymore bad news I will fucking slap her. I can't deal with this anymore.
"What is it? I'm in a shit mood as it is, and the look on your face just says that I'm about to get more bad news." I scoff.
"What bad news have you already got?" Megan questions, "Oh...about Lilly yeah."
Yeah. That's the only bad news I've gotten. Nothing else at all.
"Can you just tell me what the problem is? You're pissing me off."
I can feel a panic attack coming on and I genuinely feel like I'm going to throw up. Megan really couldn't have caught me at a worse time.
She sits cross legged on the bed, her whole body facing me as she drops her face into her hands. As she rakes her fingers through her hair she stares at me, as if she's planning in her head how to make her bad news not so painful.
"Mum and I, we spoke about the incident. With Anna. She's really not happy with me V." Megan begins, "Neither am I to be honest. I don't see that place as my home anymore, and I certainly don't want to see Lloyd or James. I know Anna's gone and all but...that place doesn't feel right anymore."
My hand gently pats the small space on my chest as my breathing rate increases dramatically. I'm pretty sure Megan notices, because she encourages me not to get so stressed, but her words just go straight in one ear and out the other.
"Just stop fucking around and tell me." I choke, tears slowly making there way down my cheeks.
"...I'm not coming back with you V. I'm not coming back to Sunderland."
No. You can't be serious. No. I don't believe this.
"You are fucking with me right now aren't you?" I laugh slightly, "Yeah. Henry didn't cheat on me and you are coming back with me. You've just done this as a practical joke."
"Henry did what?!" She shrieks, "Not with Madison!"
"Yeah. The night of his birthday party, the day before we came home Madison took his fucking virginity. So we're not together anymore. " I weep, yanking the duvet covers up towards my shoulders, "And now you're leaving me too. I've fucking lost everyone!"
"You have not lost me Vienna. That asshole, well he'll lose his balls if I ever see him again." Megan reassures me, "But you will never lose me."
The tears are flowing down my face, and I shake Megan's hand off my shoulder. I don't know whether to be angry or sad, happy, disappointed. Everything's such a blur right now.
"Talk to me V...please."
"Just fuck off." I mumble, wiping tears from my flushed cheeks, "I'm serious."
"Fuck off!" I snap, throwing the duvet covers towards her, "Get the fuck out!"
Megan stares at me, eyes wide in horror. She glances at the floor, letting out a deep sigh before she climbs to her feet. Why she hasn't left already I don't know. I will physically chuck her out.
"Please just hear me out." Megan starts.
"Why?! You don't feel comfortable there anymore, so don't come back. I don't know why though. James never did anything to you. Fucking hell, you and Lloyd even shagged each other!" I practically scream.
"Lads come and go. Anyway, James and I have never gotten on, do you remember what happened in the flat?!"
"Of course I fucking remember! I spent the whole night in hospital! We've moved on from that, I don't see why you can't as well."
Mum's voice can be heard from the foot of the stairs, shouting to see if we're both alright. Her feet can be heard making their way up the first few steps, before Megan informs her that we're 'fine'. Even though we're not. We're far from alright.
"I'm sorry V. That place just doesn't feel right anymore. I've rang work and I quit so there's nothing keeping me there." She quietly says, staring at the floor.
"You're all just fucking disappointments. You know where the door is, see yourself out." I mumble, lying back down in bed.
Megan stays completely silent as she leaves my bedroom and makes her way downstairs. I can hear her and Mum talking to each other downstairs, but as hard as I try I can't make out what they're saying. Mum suddenly lets out a huge gasp, followed by a,
'Well you need to do what's right for you.'
Nice to know I've got the support from her.
The thought of going back to the flat, alone, makes me feel physically sick. I can't bare the thought of being in that quiet flat all by myself. The only thing stopping me from staying here is the fact that I have the job of a lifetime. I have a few decent friends, and I'm sure one of them could move in with me. I don't need Megan, or Henry.
I can do this all by myself.