Everyone in this world has their secret place. You know, their place. A place they got to when they need to escape. A place they feel most comfortable in. It can be a abandoned park, or a bedroom. Its somewhere you go to when the entire world turns their back on you. My secret place isn't that much of a secret, its not a abandoned park, or a bedroom. Its a house. Harrys house. I don't feel so lonely, I feel almost safe.
I've been here for about a week, I skipped school because I just really don't want to deal with everyone. The first 4 days I cried myself to sleep, im pretty sure Harry heard me because when I start to fall asleep he peeks his head through the door to see if im ok. Its the look he gives that gives it away. I tell him im ok and that it was just a bad dream, but im not ok and its not a bad dream. Its a nightmare that happens when im awake.
I cant concentrate on anything anymore. I haven't heard from my mum since that night. I always wonder if she's awake thinking about me, or if she's cutting her self every night, if she's dead, or if she's selling her body again. There's a part of me that wants to go back home, but than there's another part of me that wants to stay in my secret place, because what is home? isn't it somewhere you should feel protected? Why don't I feel like that?
Calum has been trying to reach me, I only answered back once just to tell him that im not home. I feel terrible doing this to him, knowing he's probably really tired with football, and trying to get that scholarship in Germany. Than he has to worry about me, making sure that im not starving or if my mum left me. I just want to have a normal life, why cant I have that? What have I ever done to deserve this?
"Harry and Kat come downstairs, we need to talk." Anne said from downstairs. I felt my heart drop. What if she's going to kick me out? what if my moms dead? I stood up and walked in the hall catching up to Harry who was already on the stairs. Once we got downstairs I saw Anne sitting on a stool sipping her coffee. Harry cleared his voice Basically telling her that we are here. She turned her head and looked at us, She motioned us to come sit next to her, so we did.
it was quiet for a moment, none of us knowing what to say. "Look if this is about me overstaying my welcome, I can pack u everything right now and leave you two alone-" Anne stopped me from talking even more. " No darling stay as long as you want, But this conversation is about you. I've found out that you are not going to school." she said, I lowered my head and scratched the back of my neck. I felt her hand on mine, I looked up and she had a tiny smile. " Look I know that what you are going through right now is hard to cope with, but you still have to go to school. Its your education that's important."
She looked at Harry "Harry, you're father is back." He snapped his head at her. If looks can kill Anne would basically be dead with the glare he's shooting. What's so bad about his dad coming back? He stood up furiously and stormed out the house and slammed the door. I looked back at Anne To see her head in her hands. " I knew he would react like that." she said shaking her head. " Im gonna go after him-" I cut her off and stood up " I can do it, I feel like he's mad at you so ill just go." I said, she sighed and nodded her head. "You're right ok well um Good luck trying to get him to come back home, Make sure you two get something to eat ok?" I nodded my head and left following him.
I ran up to him and walked the same pace he was walking. He looked at me and furrowed his eyebrows. I gave him a quick glance and looked back at the sidewalk. "So where are we going?" I asked breaking the silence between us. He just kept looking at me but suddenly he grabbed my hand and started running, making me run with him. which sort of hurt because I didn't eat anything but it didn't matter, I was here to make him feel better, so if he wants to run and make me run with him than so be it.
After hours of running we finally stopped. The place we stopped surprised me, it wasn't just any place, it was school. I looked at him trying to catch my breath and him doing the same. I looked down at our hands and he quickly let go. He cleared his throat and started running again. "What the hell are you Styles, a robot?" I said running after him again.
We stopped again and we were standing in the center of the football field. I raised my eyebrow up at him and he laid down on the grass. I stood their awkwardly not knowing what to do. He looked at me and pat the spot next to him. I sat down at first but than just laid down. He grabbed a pair of earphone and plugged one into his ear and handed the other one to me. I put it in my ear and soon Fall Out Boy came on.
I smiled singing to along to Alone together. I opened my eyes to see Harry laughing at me. "What are you laughing at Styles?" I asked with a smile on my face. He typed something on his phone, and showed me it. "You're singing sucks ass." I laughed and so did he. We both couldn't stop laughing, were idiots. Once our laughing died down, we both just looked up at the sky, Bright by Echosmith playing. It finally hit me, I realized that this is Harrys secret place.
This is where he goes to escape from the world, I can see why. Its so peaceful here, especially when school is out for the day. He brought me to his secret place. I turned my head to look at him, He looked at me back and we just laid their looking at each other. "and I get lost in your eyes, tonight." The lyrics sang.
'Why did you get so upset that your dad was coming?" I asked ruining the moment. He blew out air and looked back at the sky. He shook his head and skipped the song. This aint a scene, its a arms race by Fall Out Boy came on. We stayed out here till it got dark, him still pissed and me not asking that question again.
When we finally decided to leave, it was at the point where we so hungry that our stomachs wouldn't stop growling. We walked to this diner near by the school. "Im sorry I asked that question." I said to him rubbing my arms trying to keep warm. He shrugged his shoulders and looked at the sidewalk. "God Styles how are you not cold its freezing, you sure your not a robot?" I joked and he laughed a bit. Once we reached the diner we walked in and a the warmness hit me. " Im going to find us a booth ok?" I asked and he nodded. I sat down at the one where it was the warmest.
He came up to me holding two Hot chocolates and two burgers. "Thanks." I said with a smile, he just nodded. "You know my parents used to take me here all the time before my dad left us. Well not so much me just my mum, he still talks to me sort of. He used to buy me Hot chocolate and asked the owner if he can give me a free cookie because i behaved well." I smiled to myself remembering those times. I was actually happy and I felt safe. I knew what family meant, because I had one.
"Those were happy times, my mum wasn't depressed, my dad was still living with us, we were happy. I was happy." He stared at me with pity in his eyes. "Thank you for taking me to your secret place." He nodded his head and ate his burger. I picked mine up and was about to take a bite but than I remembered something. "Hey Styles," He looked up and nodded his head. "My singing does not suck ass." He laughed and so did I,
When we got into the house we were a pair of laughing idiots who couldn't control how loud our laughter was. I wanted to make Harry laugh because I like his laugh, its warm and inviting, that you just want to laugh or smile at it."Harry? Kat is that you?" We stopped laughing when an left.
"Thank you Kat." I looked at Anne and furrowed my eyebrows together. "For going after him and making him smile again. I don't know what you did to make him not mad anymore but thank you," she walked up to me and gave me a tight hug. I hugged her back just as tight. "Oh god you smell like grass and sweat too, go take a shower." I laughed and nodded.
Once i got out the shower I saw harry sitting on my bed in his boxers. I changed in the bathroom so I wasn't in a towel anymore. "Hey," He smiled and patted the spot next to him. I sat down and looked at him. He passed me his phone, I took it and looked at what it said.
"Im going to take you that diner everyday after school so you can keep telling me stories about your family. Look I know your mother isn't the best, but she's still your mum. No matter what you think she is the only person who stayed. sure she's not in the best state right now, but you have to believe in her more. Everyone can get better, they just need more support than they do now." I felt a tear slip, I gave him back his phone and he put it in his pocket.
I grabbed his face and gave him a peck on his cheek, him automatically blushing. "Thanks Styles." He gave me a smile and left.
I laid down on the bed and thought to myself. I know that this is my secret place, and it will always be my secret place.
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