Here i am sitting on the edge of the sidewalk, watching the cars as they drive past me so smoothly.
watching the sun set and the moon coming out with all of its bright stars trailing behind it.
Watching my shadow dance right in front of my eyes.
Everything was beautiful, amazing, perfect.
I wish i could stay like this forever
but of course i can't because eventually i would have to come back to reality
and reality sucks, not only is it unfair, but its filled with questions. Questions you can answer and some you can't.
But anyways enough with my bickering, let me introduce myself.
My name is Katrina, Kat for short. I'm 17 years and I'm an actress.
Everybody wishes that they can be me since I'm a amazing actress, my life is perfect, and my boyfriend is the most popular guy in our school.
But the truth is they shouldn't wish that they can be me. Yes I am a actress but I wouldn't say I'm a amazing one.
My life isn't perfect since I constantly have stress, my parents are divorced, and they ignore me. Sure my boyfriend is the most popular guy in school, but that doesn't matter to me.
I just wish that people could see how my life really is before they go around and tell people that my life is 'prefect'.
I wish they could see past my fake smile and hold me and tell me that's it's gonna be okay.
But that's never gonna happen, and I just have to live with that.
" katrina are you going to get your ass in here and eat or do you want to starve to death?" a raspy voice said behind me.
i turned around and saw my mother standing there with a cigarette in her mouth.
I stood up and brushed the dirt of my pants.
"Sorry mum i got lost in my own world."
she rolled her eyes and walked back into the house.
i walked inside and saw the food set on the table
of course were having soup again.
" mum....this can't keep happening."
she took deep breaths as a she let one single tear come out.
she nodded and pulled out another cigarette from the carton and lit it.
" i know honey its just, why would he leave me? what have i ever d-done?"
She's now on the counter sobbing her eyes out with the cigarette in her mouth.
I walked up to her and gave her a hug.
" mum, it pains me to say this but you need help. We can't live like this anymore, dad left a year ago, its time to move on-"
" Don't you think I'm trying?" I flinched at her harsh tone.
I sighed and grabbed the soup and headed upstairs.
I shut the door with the heel of my foot and walked to my desk.
I started on my homework and ate my soup in silence.
After I finished I brushed my teeth and got ready for bed.
I flinched as I heard glass shatter from my mums room.
Oh no, please dont tell me she's cutting herself again.
I ran to her room and I didn't see her.
The bathroom, I ran to the bathroom and it was locked.
" mum open this door now."
"mum please open pls."
Tears now streaming down my face as i try to get through.
I heard a click noise, i opened the door fast and i saw a pool of blood.
I looked over at my mum and her wrists were bleeding.
" I'm sorry, i didnt mean to-to"
she started sobbing again and covered her face in her hands, cursing at herself for being stupid.
I sighed and grabbed a cloth and wrapped it around her cuts.
" shh shh its ok mum. Go to sleep ok? ill take you to the doctors tomorrow."
I carried her to the bed and tucked her in.
She needs help, we can't live like this anymore.
I can't live like this anymore.
I make my way downstairs and start making breakfast.
Lets see.. milk, and cereal.
I guess ill just have cereal than.
I finished putting the milk in and as i did my mother came in.
" morning mum."
she didn't say anything. She walked up to me and grabbed the cereal i made and started eating it.
" no that cool i made it for you not for myself."
she stared at the white wall and ate the cereal.
" ok well I'm leaving now to go to school, i love you."
still silence, i sighed and grabbed the car keys and walked out.
I walked in the classroom after the bell rung. Great now I'm going to get yelled at.
I shut the door behind me and all eyes turned to me.
" nice of you to join us 8 minutes after the bell rung Ms. Davis"
"sorry i was busy."
Mr. James nodded and I walked to my seat.
we were in the middle of a lesson when the principle came in the room.
he whispered something to Mr. James and they turned to us.
"class we have a new student join in us. Harry you can come in."
When he said that a boy with tanned skin, brown curls walked in looking down at the floor.
" class this is Harry Styles."
everyone muttered hellos while I just kept quiet.
" umm Harry why don't you take a seat right behind Ms. Davis."
Harry nodded and walked to the seat behind me. not making any contact at all.
I shifted in my seat as he sat down.
" psst, kat."
I turned around and looked behind Harry and saw my best friend Calum.
I smiled and he returned one.
As I was turning around I came eye to eye contact with Harry.
Wow he has really great green eyes.
I looked away and pid attention to what Mr.James was saying.
I felt my phone vibrate so i took it out of my pocket.
The Hump Monster- i think you made the new guy uncomfortable.
me- and why do you say that?
The hump Monster- he's keeps moving and keeps looking at the ground. Great job kat.
i sighed and put my phone away. Great job Kat you made Harry uncomfortable.