Chapter 13 - Finally out but worse to come
Ashton has been to see me everyday while i've been in this pissing hospital but at least i get to go home and finish what should of happened. "Miss williams are you ready to go" Asked my nurse.
"Awh yes just one more minute please" I replied and she left my room. I applyed my make-up as fast as possible so I didnt look as dead. I've been unable to sleep lately because of that unknown number, i've been getting constant text and calls from them but i dont answer or reply... it's getting to the point that i'm scared to even leave this hopital. "READY" I yelled on the top if my voice. Ashton and my dad enter the room and Ash kisses my cheek.
"You excited" he enquires.
"Yep" I lied.
"You feeling less suicidal?" he questions.
"Yeah Ashton for fuck sake" I lied again.
"Good cause i'll die if you tried to do it again" he smiled weakly. My heart breaks to see him in this way, always worrying about me, scared to leave my side... I'm going to have to end everything with him before he gets more heartbroken when I do die.
"Gina... Ashton is going to live with us untill your totally better" My dad explains.
"WHAT... " I shout.
"your don't seem happy about it" Ashton sighed.
"I'm just shocked my dad is letting you" lied again.
"me too to be honest, it was your dads idea though" Ashton grinned. My dad picked up my bags and we headed to the car.
Home and in bed... god I've missed this well I've missed being able to lie in my own bed. Ashton enters my room with a tray of food. "Here you go princess" he says handing me the tray.
"Thanks but I'm not hungry" I smile while pushing the tray away.
"Gina you have to eat" he soilded me.
"I will when I'm hungry" I snapped.
"Fine.. do what ever you want" Ashton said placing the tray on the bedside table and leaving my room. BEEP BEEP goes my phone... its probably from the unknown number but to my surprise it was from Calum.
From Crazy Calum
I'm soo glad your home... i'm coming to see you later xxx
To Crazy Calum
Good cause I've miss seeing your happy face 😄 and I need to tell you something that you'll have to keep from Ash xxx
Minutes later Calum replied.
From Crazy Calum
I'm on my way xxx
Calum has just arrive and i've just kick Ashton out of my room which I think he didnt like but awh well this is something he can't know. "So whats up chickadee?" He asks.
"I've... Been getting death threats from this unknown number and i'm scared... But please don't tell ashton" I cried.
"NO I won't and show me them now" he demanded and I unlocked my phone and he red all the messagers they had sent to me... I could see Calums facial expression change and I knew he was getting angry. I began to worry because Calum was begining to tense up and turn red like a tomato. "Calum please calm down.." I said calmly.
"When did this start?" He questioned.
"when we met at starbucks four days ago" I weeped.
"Why didnt you tell then"He sighed while wrapping his arms around me. I don't know why I didnt tell him because he's my best friend and with everything thats happened he's the only one who hasnt judged me.
"I don't know... I guess I was too scared to even believe it myself" I smiled weakly. Ashton walks into my room and yells "why didn't you tell me Gina".
"What you heard everything" I wailled.
"I heard enough to understand that your getting death treats from someone... give me your phone" he demanded. I handed him my phone and his face turned bright red like he was going to flip. "It's Kayla my ex... she's been messaging me saying she wan'ts me back and she'll do everything and anything to make it happen" Ashton explained.
"WHAT... YOU'VE BEEN TEXTING YOUR EX" I screamed.
"Gina it's not like that at all... I love you and she means nothing to me" Ashton replied. I looked at Calum who just bowed his head and looked away from me... "You knew and didnt tell me... your meant to be my best friend Calum... both of you just leave ... NOW" I shouted. They left my room and I ran into the bathroom, broke one of my razers and pulled out the blade. I watched as the little drops of blood landed on the floor and I began to feel my pain disapear with every drop.
Oh my god Gina is over reacting, why she would think I had feeling for It (AKA Kayla) is beyond me. I walked Calum to door and appologised for her behavior, he just replied "It's not your fault mate, she is dealing with too much maybe you should give her some space and time".
"I will see you later" I said closing the door. I walked back upstairs and knocked on Gina's bedroom door. "Gina you in there" I asked. No answer... "Gina... princess.. Gina... Let me in" I screamed. still no answer then I heard some cursing coming from her bathroom. "Gina i'm coming in" I demanded.
"I'll be out soon Ash" She replied.
"Gina come out now so i know your not doing something stupid" I ask.
"UM... about that I cant come out" She sighed. I slung open the door, saw the blood on the floor and the blade in her hand. I felt responsible and grabbed the towel and wrapped it around her wrist. My eyes began to tear up and I felt nothing but guilt because she was doing this because of me talking to my ex and because of her being jelous of Gina thats why gina put herself into hospital. "I'm so sorry i never meant for you to get hurt or for you to hurt your self... i love you not her and i'll always love you no mattter what" I cried.
"I love you too but i'm scared that i'm hurting this relationship to much to even think about being alive" She weeped.
"Don't leave me please, I'm madly in love with you and without you i'd be nothing but Ashton the depressed drummer of 5sos" I wailled.
"No you won't because you'll find someone else who will give you everything i couldnt like the chance of a better life and not have to worry about me" she said looking into my eyes.
"Gina please don't do this to me, I need you no matter what you say that will never change" I sighed.
"Ashton give me time to think about what I want... If i meet you on the tour bus next week i want you and i want to live but if i don't that means were over for good" she explained. I looked into her eyes for any chance of her coming but all i could see was confusion and heartbreak.