Chapter 12 - Time flys when your having fun (Part 2)
We left the bar round about half one and the girls sleep over starts at so two, so us lad went home to freshen up and plan to meet down the street from Gina's at 4 so it give us time to get a shower, dressed, something to eat and play video games in michael a case. After the shower I shoved on my batman boxers, skinny jeans, captain America vest top and black converse. I grabbed my car keys, said goodbye to my mum, Harry and Lauren and set off to meet the lads.
"So how is this going to work??" Mikey asked.
"Um... we go in one at a time... Ashton don't you have a spear key" Calum mentioned.
"Actually I do, I think we should go in all together and creepy round the house as they will probably be watching a horror with the lights off" I explained.
"Okay then"Luke smiled.
We headed down the house and I unlocked the door and opened it slightly. Calum creeped upstairs, I creeped into the kitchen, Michael creeped into the dining room and Luke stayed at the door making scary noises like banging the door which made them scream.
I heard the front door slam shut which made all of us scream as we were watching paranormal activity, then we heard the dining room door creak open and Kia yelled "whoever or whatever you are just fuck off". I felt a cold kill down my spin which did feel good. Kia, Faye and Tina all left the living room to find out what was going on and I was left in the living room on my own. I saw a dark figure enter room and say "Gina, it's luke us guys are playing a trick on you so pretended to scared when I drag you up the stairs".
"Luke is that you??" I asked.
"Yeah now scream" he demanded.
"HELP ME... KIA ... FAYE ... HELP ME" I screamed playing along. Luke dragged me into my bedroom and whispered "I'm sorry about me and Faye I really do wish I could be with you".
"It's okay as long as where friend I'm fine" I replied.
Ashton, Mikey and Calum enter my room and told me the plan. I messed up my hair and screamed while running down the stairs. "Gina are you okay?" Kia asked.
"I... Got dragged into my room... there is something in there"I panted. The girls pulled me up the stairs and into my bedroom, I flipped on the light and the lads jumped out and they screamed the house down. let's put it this way I was on the floor rolling with laughter.
"Gina did you plan this" Faye cried.
"Well no the boys did I was only became in on it about 5 minutes ago" I laughed hard.
"I hate you guys" Tina smiled.
"Guys, we need to leave Tina and Calum to talk" I suggested and we left them two to talk.
OMG when the girls enter the room and we jumped out was so funny, Tina's reaction was the most funniest I've ever seen, I couldn't stop laughing. "Gina did you plan this" Faye yelled.
"No the boys did I was only became in on it about 5 minutes ago" she giggled. Gina has the most adorable laugh I've ever heard.
"I hate you guys" Kia stated.
Gina looked at me and said "Guys, we need to leave Tina and Calum to talk" I glared at Gina as they left the room.
"I'm sorry about that" I apologised.
"It's okay, it was kinda funny after a while" she smiled weakly.
"Look before you say anything I didn't know Gina was going to do that" I explained.
"No it's okay and I think I owe you an apology because I know you like Gina but you've tried to get over her and I know that you love me and tbh I love you too but I can't be with you while your on tour because it's to painful to see you joke and laugh with her, she may be your best friend but know you have feeling for her is too much to handle, I love you and always will." she cried. I wrapped my arm around her.
"I'll always love you and me and Gina are nothing more then just best mates okay don't forget that" I said as my eyes began to tear up.
We walked down stairs and into the living room, we carried on watching paranormal activity and loads more films after that and everything seem fine and nothing was about to mess up for our group.
After they left to room it was just me and Calum. God this couldn't be more awkward could it. "I'm sorry about that" he smiled.
"It's okay , it was kind of funny after a while" I lied it was petrifying.
"Look before you say anything I didn't know Gina was going to do that" he bellowed.
"No it's okay and I think I own you an apology because I know you like Gina but you've tried to get over her and I know that you love me and tbh I love you too but I can't be with you while your on tour because it's to painful to see you joke and laugh with her, she may be your best friend but know you have feeling for her is too much to handle, I love you and always will." I cried. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder.
"I'll always love you and me and Gina are nothing more then just best mates okay don't forget that" he whisper in my ear. We walked down stairs and I went and sat in my seat which was next to Gina and Ashton, Gina looked at me and mouthed the words "you okay", I nodded and turned to watch the film. I absolutely hate myself now.
It's only one week till we leave for the tour and I can't wait, I'm so nervous and let's be honest it's going to shit without Tina there and Calum is going to be upset all the tour probably. I am going shopping with the girls today for some more clothes for the tour and then I'm meeting Calum at Starbucks to talk about everything, we've done a lot of talking lately have me and Calum our friendship has become strong and tbh I trust him more then anyone else in our group well except Ashton. I shove on my 5SOS band crop top, my plaid short with thick black tights underneath so that you can't see my freshly cut thighs, my blink 182 jacket, and my converse and waited for Kia to text me saying she was outside. BEEP BEEP goes my phone I look at the name... unknown number. I read the message.
From unknown number
Keep away from Ashton or you'll have me to deal with and it won't be your legs you'll but cutting it will be your throat, Ashton is mine!!!
I was absolutely scared, I didn't text back I shove my phone in my bag and waited outside for Kia to turn up. it wasn't long till she did and I jumped into the passenger seat. "you okay your drip white" Kia asked.
"Hmm, I'm fine"I lied.
"Are you sure" she questioned, I nodded and looks out the window. This was going to be a very long day.
When we finished shopping Kia dropped me off at Starbucks and went to the counter and the lovely lass from last time smiled and said "Back again, where's Ashton".
"He's at home packing for the tour, I'm meeting Calum to talk about some stuff." I replied.
"So what can I get you?" she asked.
"The usual please Jade" I smiled.
"Okay... I bet you can't wait for the tour" she questioned.
"I'm more nervous then excited, that reminds me we have a spare place on the bus if you want to come as Tina has exams all that we week so she can't come" I answered.
"Are you sure as I don't want to me interrupting" she sighed while handing over my drink.
"No it's okay and how much is it" I replied.
"On the house as you have just changed my life Gina" she grinned.
"When you've finished come over to us for a drink" I commented. she nodded and I walked over to the booth Calum was sat at.
"Hey" I added.
"Hey you okay your really pale" he asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine also don't hate me but I've asked Jade the waitress to join us on the tour, she taking Tina's place" I smiled weakly.
"No it's fine, I know your quite close to her" he sighed.
"So what is it you need to talk about?"I questioned.
"Tina... I can't get her out of my head" he commented.
"Mate, just forget about her she doesn't deserve you" I added.
"But I love her like you love Ashton... and luke" she teased.
"I don't love luke... is it that obvious" I admitted.
"Yeah and I know you love Ashton more and they both know it" he explained.
"I have a idea, I've asked Jade to join us when she's finished why don't you get close to her and see if that could work" I exclaimed, Calum nodded.
I got home after my meet up with Calum and checked my phone, I hand two miss calls from that unknown number and 1 text. I read the text.
From unknown number
You nothing but a little rat, who is using Ashton for sex. I saw you with Calum in Starbucks and I know you have a thing for him. don't deny it you better leave Ashton now our ill end you life before you can. Got it.
I felt the tear fall down my face and I couldn't move from my bed and all that was running through my head was "Do it you know you want to end you life know, you fat, ugly person. you don't deserve him and you don't deserve to live". I ran into my on-suite bathroom and raided it for my blade, "found it" I whispered to my self. I stuck he blade into the inside of my elbow and dragged it down my arm, digging it deeper and deeper. I noticed the pool of blood beneath my feet and tears streamed down my face. "I love you Ashton" I yelled on the top of my voice then I blacked out.
My eyes fluttered open and I was in a very white room. "Am I dead" I said out loud.
"No your not, I'm going to get the doctor if that's okay" the nurse replied.
"Okay" I answer with a cough. my throat is so dry and soar.
"Here drink this" she smiled.
"Thanks" I said between gulps.
She left the room and a very tall man entered. "Aw your a wake Miss Williams" he spoke.
"Why am I here?" I asked.
"You cut terribly deep on your arm and passed out, your father brought you in and thought you was dead." he explained.
"I should be" I said to my self.
"You'll have to come back in 2 weeks for you stitches removed and to keep an eye on your metal health" he stated.
"I can't I'm going on tour with 5 second of summer in one week" I cried.
"Well we could proscribe a doctor to come with you" he suggested, I nodded and he left the room. Not long after Ashton came running and looked at me with his puffy red eyes. I looked away and slowly my eyes filled with tears.
"Gina, why? OMFG do you know how worried I've been" he cried.
"I'm sorry" I weeped.
"You don't understand I thought you was dead" he cried again.
"Ashton, I'm so fucking sorry okay" I yelled.
"Why did you do it, just answer me that" he demanded.
"I had a mental break down and I thought it would get ride of my pain, I never meant to go that deep" I lied.
"You can't ever leave me okay" he sobbed.
"I promise" I lied again. Ashton wrapped his arms around my neck.
"I love you forever and ever" he added.
"Yeah me too" I wailed. I felt so stupid that I was still alive because eventually that person is going to get me and I don't know when.
Everybody had left, I was stuck in this hospital room for the next 2 days then I can go home. I checked my phone and that unknown number hand sent me two texts. I had to read them because I could not know what they had to say now.
Text 1 from unknown number
Congrats on failing to kill yourself, your stupid dad saved you by taking you the hospital... remember I'm still out to get you.
Text 2 from unknown number
Ashton is only with you because he thinks he loves you but have you seen your self your the world most ugliest person on this planet and should be dead. Ashton would never miss you if you wasn't here so take your life while you can, your a perfectic bitch that need to die... I'll be happy to help you!!!
All this time I never knew why Ashton like me and I still don't this person see me the same way I see myself, ugly, fat, stupid, perfectic and the only way to get rid of me is by death but I have to wait until I can say my goodbye and if that means on tour then tour it will happen.
Why the hell did she do something so stupid tbh I thought she had stopped with the self harm well that was what she told me, I wonder what else she is keeping from me... I was heartbroken when her dad told the she might be dead and that she is in the hospital and they are trying to revive her. I sat and cried all night and when I arrive at the hospital I ran to her room, she looked at me then turned away... what's going on inside that fucked up head of hers... Why won't she let me in. "Gina, why? OMFG do you know how worried I've been" I yelled.
"I'm sorry" she cried still looking away.
"You don't understand I thought you was dead" I weeped.
"Ashton, I'm so fucking sorry okay" She scream at me.
"Why did you do it, just answer me that" I demanded.
"I had a mental break down and I thought it would get ride of my pain, I never meant to go that deep" she explained.
"You can't ever leave me okay" I sobbed.
"I promise" She sighed, I wrapped my arms around her neck and kissed the top of her head.
"I love you forever and ever" I comment.
"Yeah me too" she smiled weakly. I love this girl, without her I would be nothing she is my everything and to have almost lost her killed me inside. I'm going to keep a close on her from now on.