Chapter 10 - After maths
I woke up with the worlds biggest headache and I some how was in Ashton's room but their was no Ashton by my side... What actually happened last night? Suddenly it comes flooding back like a tsunami. I didn't, I couldn't have done that. Tears began streaming down my face and I could help but feel so guilty because I'm a officialy a cheat, I slam my head into Ashton's pillow and all I could smell is Ashton. The door creeks open but I didn't lift my head, I felt somebodies arm snake around my waist and kiss me lightly on my head. "Morning my hungover princess" said a familiar voice and it belonged to my caring and not a cheater boyfriend.
"Morning" I sigh. Ashton turned my head so that I was looking at him.
"What's up princess" he smiled.
"Nothing it just I think I did something terrible last night" I cry.
"Like what you can tell me, you should know that by now" he scrawled.
"Um did I admit to something about luke??"I lied.
"Haha yeah that you dreamed of him naked but I didnt mind" He laughed. I couldnt bring myself to tell him about this kiss.
"Oh... By the way how did I get up here?"I asked.
"I actually brought you up as you were passed out in the kitchin" He frowned.
"Really ... where is everyone else?" I giggled. Well turns out my boyfriend is the best ever but he'll hate me if he ever found out about what happened yesterday which I hope never happens. Ashton tightens his arms and places a gentle kiss on my lips, I kiss him back. Ashton slowly pushes my back on the bed so he is hovering over, I pull away and pant "Not while our friends are in the house". Ashton laughs while taking my hand and guiding me down the stairs and into a living room full of passed out people on the floor.
"Here they are" He smiled. I couldnt help but let out a little giggle. Ashton whispers something in my ear and head out of the room returning with two pans and two wooden spoons and I soon clicked on with what he meant. I started banging the spoon on the bottom of the pan causing everyone to squirm and moan. "What the fuck man" Michael groaned.
"Really what time is it?" Faye asked.
"Half nine" I replied.
After there early wake up call, we was all up watching morning Tv for the anouncement that was meant to be on about the boys. I laided on Ashtons lap and I could feel a glare coming from Luke's direction. Beep Beep goes my phone, I unlock it and read the text.
Sorry about last night, That never meant to happen and just to let you know I'm seeing faye :( xxx
I felt really hurt that luke said that the kiss last night was a mistake and then start seeing my cousin, I had to reply.
Dont say that and im happy for you and faye... I think :/ xxx
I lock my phone and place it on the floor. The Tv reporter was about to anounce the 5 Second Of Summer when ZAP the tv gets turned off by Ashton mum. Shit. Harry and Lauren (Ashton's younger siblings ) come running up to me and pounce onto my body that was laid across the sofa and Ashton. "Ashton Fletcher Irwin look at the mess of this house" She yelled.
"Hello to you to mum" He snarled pushing my head up off his lap. I began tickling Harry and Lauren which put a huge smiled on Anna Marie's face.
"Hello Miss Irwin" I smiled.
"Hello Gina and it's Anne Marie you know that" She stated. She gave the lads, Tina and Kia hugs and introduced herself to Faye.
Before Ashtons mum got home we cleaned the whole kitchin and shoved all the empty cans and shots into the bin but the only place we didnt clean was the living room plus there was no can in there so we really didn't need to.
I know about Luke and Gina's kiss because Calum told me last night as he saw them but they didnt see him. I havent told Gina I know because I'm going to wait until she tells me but I doubt thats not happening for a long time. Everybody expects me to be propper pissed about it all but I'm not as I know she loves me and thats all I need. My mum comes homes with Harry and Lauren and guess who they run upto ... well not really run more like pounced on... Gina, she just laughed and began tickling them. Thats why i love her she gets along with my siblings, who seem to love her as well as me. "ASHTON" my mother yells after giving me a lecture about the living room.
"Yes" I reply.
"Why is my cans in the bin?" She said harshly.
"Surprise I guess" I joked. Mum just looked at me and gave me a slight smile.
"At least you got drunk inside the house" She sighed.
"Okay well we're going to clean the living room and ... Um go out" I stuttered and left the room. Gina was still playing with Harry and Lauren when I entered and she whispered something in their ear. They got off her and pounced onto me making me collapse onto the floor. "love you too Gina, Harry and Lauren" I panted.
"I know you do" Gina laughed. Harry and Lauren got off me and headed up stairs. Gina gave me a smile and patted the space next to her. I sat down and looked around the room.
"What's up Ash you seem tense" she asked.
"Nothing it's just's... I know about you and Luke" I sighed her face dropped and her eyes began to tear up.
"I'm so fucking sorry Ash I never meant for that to happen" she cried.
"I was going to wait until you told me but I couldn't keep it locked up inside for longer" I said placing my arm around her shoulder.
"I understand if you want to break up with me because I cheated on you and even though I'm really sorry that's not going to change the fact about what happened so I'll get my stuff and leave before I hurt you anymore." she explained. I hung my head as she left the room, I couldn't move, I couldn't think but most of all I couldn't let her go again but my body wouldn't move from the sofa.
Gina returned with her spare clothes and stuff him her begs, gave all the lads a hug and slammed the door behind her when I realised she did mean everything she said and I do love her but her being around Luke and the band is going to make me self conscious about our relationship.
I grabbed my stuff and left the house, I didn't know what to say to him after everything I've put him through and most of all everything I'm putting my self through, He's only been back what a few weeks and I'm already fucking things up. I guess it's better for you to be apart then together. Beep Beep goes my phone I read the texts
I'm so sorry about you and Ashton, just to let you know Ashton is crying his hear out because he loves you so much and I know you love him with all your heart xxx
Thanks for telling me it just proves I'm a terrible girlfriend xxx
I received another one from... Ashton, this one I had to read.
Where are you??? I can't live without you, you are my everything, you are me and I am you we fit together like puzzle pieces so please come back to me! xxxxxxxxxx
I'm on Croft street and how can you forgive me so easily after everything give put you through... I'm a cheater and always will be but I do love you and I do want to be with you but not if I have some feelings for Luke :'( xxxxxxxxxx
About 5 minutes after I sent the text Ashton's van pulls up beside me and I couldn't even turn my head to look at him. "Get in we need to talk" he spoke.
"No because you need to forget about me and us and live you life with your band" I reply. Ashton jumps out the van, grabs my hand and spins me around so I'm looking at him. He gently places his lips on mine and I smiled but I suddenly pull away.
"Ashton please let me go, I'm a cheater and always will be but you can get away from me and move one with your life" I sigh.
"Gina... I love you and that's not going to change either and I know you love me too so can we forget about last night incident and go back to being us... Plus Luke is happy with Faye and you don't want to spoils your cousins happiness" He begged. I looked into his eyes and I knew everything he was saying is true but that doesn't mean I'm not going to stop feeling like a complete dick when I'm around him.
"I'm sorry Ashton but I can't... I do love you but apart of me will always feel like a cheat..." before I could finish Ashton smacked his lips onto mine again and I didn't feel like a cheat no more I felt like someone who has the best boyfriend in the world, who loved and cared for me no matter what happens.
"Okay you've change my mind" I smiled and got into Ashton's van.
"By the way your dads at ours he's got an announcement to make" Ashton said excitedly.
"Really... that's good does he know about last night..." I sigh.
"He does and he was the one who made me follow after you because he know that I'm the best thing for you right now" he giggled. I placed my head onto Ashton shoulder and closed my eyes.
We reached Ashton's house and everybody was crammed into the living room. My uncle, the boys, me, Tina, Faye, Kia, Anne Marie, Harry, Lauren and Michael, Luke's and Calum's family all waiting patiently for my dad's big announcement "well thanks you for all coming, um... the boys will be going on a Perth to record and produce music and after were going on tour" he said calmly.
"Well guess it's good bye again" I sighed.
"Hey... James could the girls come with us as I know Gina has dropped out of school and I believe the others are okay with missing school" Ashton said and all us girls nodded.
"I don't see why not" he replied... Ashton picked my up before I could take count of what's just happened... I'm going on tour with Ashton... OMFG YES... I ran up to my dad and hugged him tightly "thanks you so much dad this means the world to me" I smiled.
"You can only go if you promise to look after yourselves plus I'll be there as well to make sure" He demanded I nodded and head back to Ashton who was trying to comfort his very upset mother and sibling. I got on my knees and looked into Harry's little eyes "you'll be okay Ashton will be before you know it" I said calmly.
"It's not just Ashton leaving it's you as well" Harry cried, I wrapped my arms around his little body and let him cry into my shoulder. Lauren began cry and I let her come into the hug. "I promise the both of you me and Ashton will come back safe and sound" I said shedding a few tears. I pulled away so Ashton could have words with them two and I just looked at Anne Marie who was still in floods of tears, I wrapped my arms around her and promised that I would look after Ashton and the lads no matter what. Anna just smiled and said "you are a very strong girl and I'm so glad Ashton has you with him" by this point I began crying and this wasn't getting no where.
"Ashton" Anne Marie yelled and pointed to me.
"Get here you silly muppet" Ashton said wrapping his long arms around my waist and I couldn't help but wrap my arms around his neck and squeeze tightly.
"When do we leave" I asked.
"Three weeks time" he replied.
"I so glad I'm coming with you but I'm so scared that we might fall apart" I cried again.
Ashton slowly lifted my chin and placed a gently kiss upon them, I guess we will have to wait and see.