I think there is a time in everyone's life where they are just meh. I know "meh" is isn't the proper word to use, but sometimes that's just how it is. You can't explain it. All you know is that most of the time you say it with the shrugging of your shoulders and with a half smile on your face. And one day, I think we all will just be "meh" with our lives. I think that there is a point of no return where you have left the stage of your life where you actually cared what people thought and have just accepted your life and who you truly are.
I want that "meh" feeling.
I want to know what it's like to just be happy and glad that you are on the face of the earth. I want to know what true happiness is with out having to go through all the in-between's of feeling like crap before the good gets going. I like being happy - I want to be happy.
I just don't know where to start to get to be happy. Sure I love writing and it's my life, but what about those special feelings with your special someone? It's getting harder and harder to find the right person anywhere who can even make you feel remotely happy.
I want to be meh. I want to be happy. I want to be loved.
Am I alone?