You know, I really hate that feeling you get when you're are disappointed or sad. It's like your chest is hallow and filled with weight at the same time. It's a really uncomfortable feeling. I hate it.
I feel like every time it happens we just build back the walls we let someone break down. It's almost like someone stole away your confidence. You no longer feel like you. You feel like a you who can never be happy.
In that empty moment, you don't even want to be happy. It's like you're so upset with yourself and others that you don't even want to try. You've given up.
And you feel so stupid! You saw the signs, you felt that feeling of emptiness before so you wonder why you put yourself through it again. You wonder what made you lower your guard. Was it a guy? A chance at happiness? A hope of something more? It always is. Things are never as they seem. Most things are overrated. Everything except the horrible feeling of sadness.
If anything, sadness is underrated. People are always telling you to "just get over it" or to "think positive". But, it's never that simple. It may feel that way to them because they are happy at that moment, but when they feel sad, really sad, they'll understand that you can't simply push those feelings away.
You can distract yourself for a while, but facing your feelings is inevitable. Also, facing the thing that made you feel that inevitable sadness is also inevitable.
I hate this feeling.
Not only does this feeling make you feel bad, it can make others feel bad too. You put other people down when you're down. You don't really mean to put them down with you, it's just like a cold. By being near someone with a cold, you are also prone to get that cold. You are prone to catch sadness. It's a fact no one likes.
See, now, if you're reading this then you are also probably feeling down. I'm making you feel just as I am: sad.
It isn't a feeling we like to feel. But, it's also a feeling that is bound to happen. The more you think about the thing that makes you sad, the sadder you will be. In short, distract, distract, distract, until you can accept.
You have to accept what made you sad. You have to forgive, in a sense. You say, "Okay, I can be myself again. I can put the past behind me,". Think back to when you were sad before. You moved on. You didn't forget it, but you learned from it. You learned how to never feel that deep sadness again. That's what the feeling is all about. Don't feel sadness in vain, make it mean something. Make it worth all of your pain.
At least, that's what I try to do. We all try and try again. We're human, not perfect. So, learn from your sadness and feel good again. So that you can become a better, happier you in the future.
Time will always heal. It just might take a while.