'Oh my gosh, what have I done?' I thought as laid there on the floor of my suite. My heart pounded in my chest and my face burned with shame. I looked to my right where Ashton was breathing heavily and sweat seeping from every inch of his skin.
"Whoo, that was...that was amazing!" He said breathlessly. He rolled over so his lips were within an inch of my ear. "A nice thrill, can't wait to do it again." he whispered and kissed my cheek. He then proceeded to stand up and get dressed. I just sat up and reached for my bathrobe.
"Ash?" I said wrapping the cotton around me. "What were you gonna ask about Cai?"
Ashton paused before he put his shirt on. He looked at me with a strange smile. "Ahh, it doesn't matter" he laughed throwing his shirt over his head. "It wasn't really important."
I felt a pain in my chest, Cai was my best friend. I betrayed her and I betrayed Luke.
'Youre so stupid Anna!'
I stood up and walked over to Ashton who was putting on his converse. I placed my hand on his shoulder and he turned to face me. "Ash, you can't tell anyone about this! Please I love Cai and I love Luke." I pleaded.
Ashton's face turned frustrated. He let out a small laugh. "You love Luke, do you?" he spoke harshly and started walking closer to me, each step he took forward, I took back. "Anna you don't even know where he is, he's probably out banging some chick with a bunch of STI's, if I wasn't here, you'd think he was being a good boy at a band meeting, at half twelve at night, like he told you. Not only that, he treated you like shit in the past, he cheated on you, he lied to you, and forced you to do whatever he says against your will. Oh yeah, I know about the rules. Let me tell you, your'e not the first girl who's had to live by them, there was many before you and there'll be many after you. It's the same old shit with him. And here you are thinking your'e something special to him, you have a severe case of Stockholm syndrome, and it's time you learned that Luke doesn't love anybody but his mum. The sooner you realise that the better." He spat his words out like poison. My back was up against the wall, and the tears were flooding in my eyes. Ashton ran his fingers through his hair. "Anna, you should be with me. You should have been with me from the start. As soon as I saw you, standing outside Michael's driveway, playing something on your phone, you looked like perfection. And when you said you were with Luke I knew what was gonna happen. I was hoping to get you first, to save you from him. But everyone falls for Luke. Everyone."
His face was so close to mine, our breaths were mingling in the air. We both had tears streaming down our cheeks. "Ash, you love Cai." I said.
"Cai? Cai is the closest thing I have to you."
I scrunched my face up as those words burned into my mind. "I think you should go."
He hesitated for a seconded. "Fine" he spat and left, slamming the door closed behind him.
I went to sit on the couch, then stopped as I remembered the crime I had just committed there. I went to the bedroom and sat on the edge of the king size bed. I replayed everything Ashton said. He had a point. Luke probably was out cheating on me. I only made it even. There is no other excuse for lying to me. It was time I took charge, I still loved Luke, but I no longer wanted to be a pushover in the relationship. I dried my tears and fixed my face in the mirror. Then I sat on the edge of the bed again, and waited.
Luke stumbled through the door and placed some bags down discreetly behind the table. I watched him as he strode up towards me. Sober. That only made me more disgusted. I met him halfway at the entrance to the bedroom. "Didn't think you'd be up babe." he smiled. He took my head in his hands and kissed my lips. But I didn't return it. He stopped and looked at me confused. "You okay?"
"How was the band meeting?" I asked. I focused on my face to make sure no sign of sorrow seeped through, I had to stay serious.
Luke smiled. "Okay I made a cheeky lie, I know you wanted me here with you to finish what we started but..." he backed up and went toward the bags that he tried to hide and brought them over. "Come sit and see this."
Panic struck through me as Luke went to sit on the couch that I betrayed him on. "No!" I shouted. Luke paused and looked at me with shock. "I...I spilled something on there, come...come sit on the bed." I stuttered.
Luke grinned cheekily. "Even better!"
We sat on the bed next to each other and I immediately started to feel the guilt rising in me. "So as soon as the show finished I had my security guard assist me to find the perfect shop for you, he's a bit of a fashion freak..." he spoke softly but with excitement. He reached into the bag and pulled out a long gorgeous red cocktail dress with sparkles spiralling round it. It was body shaped with a low dip. I was speechless. I sat there gob smacked as he held it up in front of me. "And that's not all. He placed the dress down beside us as if it was nothing. Then he took my hand in his. "Anna, I love you so much. You are one magnificent woman. I um...shit I planned this." I laughed as he got flustered with his words. "I can't focus with you. You take my mind somewhere else, and I wanna thank you for changing who I was. You've made me a better person. And I want you to know that I'll do anything for you. I love you and your'e the one I want to spend the rest of my life with." he reached into the bad and pulled out a large square box. He slowly opened it and inside was a necklace with diamonds running all round it. It sparkled before my eyes. "It took me so long to find the right one for you to wear. I think this is the closest thing that can be as beautiful as you." I couldn't take it. The shame and guilt was too much, I broke down and started sobbing. "Hey what's wrong" Luke closed the box and placed his hand on my shoulder, just as Ash did.
"I thought you were out cheating on me." I cried. Luke at first looked shocked but then smiled and giggled.
"Okay, I guess I should have made a different excuse." he laughed and wrapped his arms around me. "I love you too much, you should know that."
"I'm sorry, I'm so, so sorry" I cried looking into his deep blue eyes that were so oblivious to what I had done.
Luke just smiled and shook his head. "It's okay," he said and kissed me. "You want me to tend to your needs now?" he asked smoothly.
"It's...a bit late." I said. I couldn't sleep with him, not after what I had done with his best friend.
"Yeah it is, I understand, we'll try again tomorrow" he chirped and gave me one last kiss then went to get undressed for bed.
I put my head in my hands and pulled on my hair.
'Oh my gosh, what have I done!'