"Hey sweetie" I head the soft sound of my mothers voice through speaker of my phone.
"Hey mum" I smiled, just knowing that she could hear me made me feel so much better.
"You know it's late here, is everything okay?"
I hesitated for a while. I wasn't sure if I should cover it up or beak down in tears and tell her everything. "Yeah, I just wanted to hear your voice," I said shakily. My eyes became blurry.
"Aww honey, I miss you too. But don't be sad you're in Australia, you should be having fun."
"Yeah, I know."
"How is it there? Been visiting load of places?Oooh met any cute boys?" I laughed a little, my typical mum. Always wanting to talk about boys.
"It's...great here, I went on a small tour the day after I got here...but, I didn't really get to finish it." I remembered Luke was suppose to take me back out and show me the rest of the Sydney sights. It wasn't going to happen happen. I knew that.
"Well you'll get a chance to you have three months over there, that's plenty of time to do everything you wanted."
I needed someone to show me around for that though, and Luke wasn't going to do that. "Yeah, you're right" I lied. Why couldn't I be honest with my mum?
"How's your dad? Is his work doing okay?" She didn't seem very interested but she must have felt like she had to ask.
"Yeah he's fine, I haven't seen him much he's working or out with his boss."
"Hmm that sounds about right."
My mum and my dad split a few years ago because my dad is a workaholic and she wanted a husband that she could see more often. She's now got a new boyfriend but my dad always told me that no woman can ever replace her. But he's never told her that.
"How's Ryan?" I asked. Ryan is my mums boyfriend. He is really nice but he's not grown up enough to be a dad of any sort.
"Oh he's great, he's been working really hard in the garage and he's been getting some excellent business..." She started to ramble on about Ryan and his job but I only half listened to what she was saying. I was thinking about finishing my tour of Sydney.
The phone call lasted about 40 minuets. It was nice to talk to my mum. I really needed her at that moment. But I wanted her there with me. To hold me and tell me everything will be okay.
"Right sweetie this phone call is getting expensive and I have work in the morning"
"Okay I'll let you go"
"Enjoy the rest of your time there and stop missing me! Go have fun and get into hot Aussie boys" I let out a fake laugh. "Love you, sweetie."
"I love you too mum."
We both hung up and I flung my phone down letting out a sigh. I felt alone. There was nobody I could turn to for help or advice. I couldn't tell my dad, that would just be weird and he'd jump to conclusions. He'd be all 'protective father' about if and would give up his job. I couldn't do that to him. My friends back home wouldn't understand. I thought my mum would be the bet person to go to, but I couldn't bring myself to tell her.
While my mum was rambling on about Ryan during the phone call I had an idea. It might have been a silly one, but I decided to go do it.