Well, we only had a few more weeks left here and it would be so sad to head home. It was beautiful here. We would be back though. We had been working on a new song and we would be recording it soon and putting it out into the world. I knew Violet didn’t want to leave. This was the only place she didn’t have to worry about anything else.
“Hey.” I said walking into Daniel and Violets room. They were still cuddled up asleep. I was lonely. My brother was having a baby. My sister was dating my best friend. I needed to get a girlfriend. My issue was that I was afraid that someone would use me for my fame. I knew Vi wasn’t using Skip because they have known each other for all of Violets life. Hayden and Luke had also known each other their whole lives. There weren’t many girls that I knew for that long who I wanted to spend some time with.
“What’s up?” Skip asked as Violet rolled over. She was on the other side of the bed. Near the wall. I knew it was so he could protect her. I would do that too.
“Nothing. What’s up with you?” I asked.
“Laying down.” Violet had the covers up to her face and she was laying on her stomach with one hand on Skip making sure he was still there.
“She’s not naked is she?” I asked.
“Why would she be naked?” He asked. I knew I shouldn’t have let them sleep in the same bed but it was the only option we had. There wasn’t much room and she refused to come if she didn’t get to sleep in the same bed as him.
“I just…” I trailed off. I didn’t want to think of my little sister doing that. I sometimes forgot that she was a sister because me and the boys basically raised her. She is like my child. “I don’t want you to fuck her and then leave her.” His eyes opened wide.
“If I ever did do that you can kill me. I would never put her through that type of pain.” He said. I was glad he would never do that to her because if I was dating his sister I would never do that to her. I knew they were close and I knew they were so deeply in love. She had been for a long time. I always want the best for her. “Why would it matter if she was naked?” He asked. “Sometimes we like to sleep naked.” He commented. I guess we right. She got that from me, the sleeping naked. I got it from my father. My mom said she would always go to his house to wake him up and he was naked.
I would sleep like that also and I guess Violet does too. She was her own person but she was exactly like me. Jai and Luke looked alike and Violet looked like me. We all acted the same. Jai and Luke took after me and she took after all of us. I didn’t mind that she was just like us. She knew how to keep up.
“You’re lonely.” Skip said as he looked up at the ceiling. I sighed. I didn’t have to answer for him to know that he was right. I didn’t want to admit out loud that I was lonely. I didn’t want Vi to worry if she could hear me or not.
“I want a relationship like you and Vi. You guys are so cute and you rarely fight even though it seems like you should. And I want to be someone’s first. Not their first boyfriend but their first real love. Their first kiss, sex. Everything.” I said. These are the only things I told Daniel.
“You need to get out of the house.” He said. I wasn’t sure what he had in mind. He got out of bed slowly and placed the blanket back down to cover Violet. He was the sweetest boyfriend ever. I wanted to do that. He quickly put some clothes on before he left a note for Vi and kissed the side of her head. He grabbed the keys and pulled me out to the car. He drove to where we went shopping the week before. There were plenty of sweet, beautiful girls here, but I wanted one that I could keep. One that wasn’t with me for my looks. He pulled over. He didn’t move, he just looked around trying to find a girl.
“That one.” He said pointing to a girl. She was wearing a white sundress that flowed over her curves perfectly. She had brown curly hair that flowed past her shoulder blades. She was looking around at each shop as she walked. As she got closer to the car Daniel was pushing for me to get out and talk to her.
“What am I suppose to say?” I asked.
“Ask her if she’s alright. She looks upset about something.” She got closer and closer to the car. I opened the car door a few feet in front of her and walked to her. She stopped when she saw me.
“Hi.” She smiled at me with a confused look on her face. I didn’t answer.
“Are you alright? You seem upset.” I said to her.
“Um… I’m fine. Thanks.” Her eyes said something different.
“You’re a liar.” She looked at me shocked.
“How did you know?” She whispered to me. She got closer to me.
“I have a younger sister who is going through a hard time but she hides it.” I answered her. “Life isn’t easy.” I commented. I knew she knew exactly what I was talking about.
“You understand girls.” She said. It wasn’t a question, it was a statement. I just nodded my head. “Why did you wanna know?” She asked as she kept walking and I walked next to her. As we walked past the car I waved Skip off and he started the car to head back to the house. Probably to be there before Violet wakes up.
“Because I hate when people are upset.” I said. It was the truth. I wasn’t lying. I always hated seeing Violet hurt like that.
“So you talk to random strangers in the street?” She asked.
“That’s how my… Mother met my father.” I said. She nodded her head in understanding. My mom met my dad when she was walking down the street and she wasn’t paying attention and she walked right into him. She said it was love at first sight.
“Love at first sight?” She asked. “Do you believe in that?” She asked.
“No. But I do believe everyone has already met the person they are going to marry.” I said. I realized I was talking to this girl and I didn’t even know her name. “What’s your name?” I asked.
“Hazel.” She answered. “Yours?”
“Beau.” I simply said. “Wanna get a coffee?” I asked. She giggled.
“Sure. But you seem more of a tea guy.” She was wrong. I didn’t either.
I heard Daniel and Beau leave the room. I tried to fall back asleep but it wasn’t working. I rolled over and found a note on the bed.
‘Took Beau to get laid. Be back soon! XOXO Love you. -Your lover’ I laughed to myself before I put on a bikini and one of his shirts. I walked out and into the kitchen where Jai was.
“Morning.” I announced to him as he was standing in the fridge. He looked over his shoulder and said it back.
“Where’s Beau and Daniel?” He asked.
“They went to find Beau a girl. He’s lonely.” I said as I walked to the fridge to look with him. “Nothing good.” I said. Usually people would come and fill the fridge when they realized we had no food but I guess they were running late. A few days late. We ran out of food and have been ordering out.
“Wanna go to the food store?” He asked. I nodded before putting on shorts and heading to the car where he already was. “What were you and Daniel doing last night. I heard you laughing.” He said.
“He was being stupid. As always.” I was actually just so tired that whatever he said I would crack up for no reason. Nothing was really funny.
“It was like four in the morning.” I think he was lying. It wasn’t that late. I loved spending time with Jai. He was always the sweetest guy and he always talked about what I wanted to talk about. He was just a simple guy and he was the best brother. All of my brother’s were the best. They watched out for me. I sometimes hated the fact that they were always up my butt and that they only let me do certain things with Daniel but then I realized they didn’t want me to end up like my mother or my father. They didn’t want me to be 17 and have a baby. (I couldn’t be 16 and have a baby because my birthday is in less than three months.) They wanted was best for not only me but for Daniel too.
They wanted us to be treated our age but also like adults. I always hated when they treated me like a child but to them I am a child. Having five boys around all of the time you get used to them bossing you around and acting like they are the boss of you. Some were nicer bosses than others but some knew exactly what they were talking about.
My brother’s did everything in their power to be the parent that I never had. They did everything they could to make me happy. They were doing a pretty great job at it too. I looked over at Jai.
“Thank you.” I said. He looked me confused but smiled.
“For what?” He asked back to me.
“For being the best brother and parent you possibly could be. For doing your best at keeping me alive when times were tough. For being there when I needed you. For being the parent I never had. You never gave up on me even when I gave up on myself.” I said to him.
“You may have given up, but I wasn’t letting you go down without a fight. You are not going to leave this Earth without me. I would allow that to happen.” He said.
“I would never put that type of pain on any of you. I would never put you through that.” Those boys did nothing to have to bury their sister, they did nothing to me so why would I ever put them through that? I know suicide is what everyone thinks is right, but its not. I know it will get rid of your pain, but it hands it to other people. I know you’re a having a tough time, I’ve been there. Life isn’t easy. As a great man once said ‘You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who hurts you.’