I woke the next day with such a bad headache. I looked around me, squinting, realising I was in Beau’s bedroom. But there was no Beau around. It took me a few seconds for my eyes to adjust to the light. When they finally did, I stood up. That’s when I saw the mess of the room alone, Beau’s things were smashed all over the place. I slowly stood up, trying to get my balance. I noticed that I was only in my underwear, and panic started to sink in. What the heck happened last night? I stumbled to get out of Beau’s room and go downstairs, not bothering to put on any clothes. The house was even worse. Plastic cups were thrown everywhere, glass bottles were broken. I had to watch where I was walking, to make sure I didn’t cut my feet. I made my way into the living room, as I heard the TV was on.
All five guys were sat on the couch, watching TV. They didn’t seem to notice me come in. I groaned, they had the TV up so loud. All five heads turned to look at me. Suddenly making me feel really insecure. Beau rushed to my side, standing in front of me, almost as if he was protecting me. Right, I was still in my underwear.
“Don’t you think you should put some clothes on?” Beau had a worried, concerned look upon his face. I groaned again and nodded once. He led me back upstairs and to my room this time. It didn’t look much different, apart from the fact my sheets were tossed on the floor and there was a condom in my bed. Great, someone had sex in my bed. Beau took my sheets off my bed. “I’ll wash these for you” He smiled, slightly. He then went looking threw my draws and pulled out the ‘hangover hoodie’ and a pair of black and white striped leggings. He then handed me a pair of black flats. “You’ll need to wear those. You never know what you might step on.” He told me. I nodded, I had noticed the broken glass. I put the clothes on where I was standing, not bothering to change my underwear. Beau then led me back downstairs, holding my hand, making sure I didn’t fall.
For someone who seemed to be the one who was partying the most he seemed pretty sober. He sat me down on the couch next to Jai, and I instantly curled up next to him and rested my head in his lap. I closed my eyes and wanted to just sleep. I was interrupted when Luke asked me a question. I didn’t know what he asked me, I just heard him say my name. I opened my eyes and stared at him from the other side of the couch.
“I said, how much do you remember?” He asked me again, concern in his eyes. I shrugged, I didn’t want to move or sign and I had no clue where my phone was. He and Beau shared a worried look, which made me sit up.
“What’s going on?” I signed, which wasn’t the best as I felt too tired to fully sign the words. Daniel opened his mouth, and then he closed it tightly shut again. No one seemed to speak. They just shared glances with each other. Jai, who was resting his arm on my shoulder coughed and I turned my head to look at him. “You’re my best friend, you’ll tell me, right?” The way I signed this time was almost me pleading him. He looked at me and still he said nothing. I was getting frustrated now, no one was telling me a damn thing. I was about to get up and just leave when I heard Beau’s voice.
“Paisley” It was only my name, but it was a start. He sighed, why on earth did all these guys looks like they were going to cry? “What’s the last thing you remember?” Beau finally said, and our eyes met. I thought about it for a minute. I wasn’t even sure. What was the last thing I remembered? My eyebrows furrowed together as I tried to think.
“I was dancing with you Beau” I signed, it was the last thing I could really remember. Beau sighed and shook his head. He looked mad. He stood up and left. I watched the door for some time, confused as what had just happened. I turned to the others. “I need an explanation. NOW!” The way I signed, you could tell I was pissed. I looked around the circle of my friends wondering who was going to tell me.
“We’re not too sure” Jai said quietly. I looked at him with a raised eyebrow, wanting him to carry on. “We needed you to remember. Because Beau found you in his room almost naked with some guy” I looked at him. He was joking, right?
“His name’s Charlie” James spoke up. “But Beau’s pretty upset, he thinks you had sex with him” he told me, he looked away from me not wanting to see my reaction. I went mad. I didn’t sign anything to the guys. I just went back upstairs, I needed to think about what happened last night. I know I didn’t have sex with that guy. At least not voluntarily. I wouldn’t have sex with just anyone, I’m not like that. Not even when I’m drunk. I like to keep my dignity way too much.
My mind wondered back to when I was dancing with Beau. He was close to me, he had beer in his hand which he was practically spilling everywhere as he danced. The song we were dancing too ended and Beau left me to go and talk to some of his friends, people I didn’t know. That I could remember. I’m sure I went to get another drink at that point, but I can’t be too sure.
I hit my head as I tried to remember the previous night, there was just a blank that I was struggling to remember. Frustration ran through me and I got up from my bed and went straight to Beau’s room. I opened the door and looked around, taking in my surroundings. Beau’s lamp that was on the bedside table was smashed on the floor, next to the bed. His cologne was lying on the floor, luckily unharmed. I sat at the end of the bed, closing my eyes trying to remember.
My mind thought back to when I was in the kitchen. I was going to get another drink, but before opening the can I put it back down and decided that I was going to head upstairs and try and get some sleep. Not that it would have been easy, with the loud music playing. Once I had gotten upstairs I went to my room, to find a couple having sex. I quickly left the room and went to the next room, Beau’s room. The light was off, so I figured no one was in there. I stripped down to my underwear and jumped into the bed. Only I wasn’t alone in that bed like I thought. And then it hit me, it came back to me as if I hadn’t even forgotten. I tried to run back downstairs, but I tripped a couple of times.
The guys looked at me, and I frantically started signing at them, they just couldn’t understand what I was trying to sign.
“Calm down, Paisley” Daniel told me, and so I did. I started moving my hands slower, so they could understand.
“I spoke to him. Really spoke, with my voice” I signed. Jai just looked at me, confused.
“Why would you speak to him?” He looked hurt, and I could understand why. He was my best friend, if I were to talk to anyone he would want it to be him, not some guy I had only just met.
“More like shouted. Screamed, even” I signed again and they all had their eyes on my hands watching intensely. “I didn’t have sex with him. He tried to force me to, but I struggled, I fought back. Someone came into the room last night” I sighed, it must have been Beau. And that’s when I realised, Beau had seen the mess of the room and assumed we were just really into it. It upset me to think that Beau would think I wanted to have sex with another guy. I thought he knew I wasn’t like that. “Someone call Beau” I signed, he needed to know the truth. James picked his phone up and started calling Beau, but I could tell by James’s face that he wasn’t answering. He called him another 5 times, but still nothing. I started looking around for my phone, not that I had a clue where I put it after last night.
Finally after an hour of searching I found it under a load of rubbish. I didn’t need to scroll through the contacts, as Beau’s name was first on the list. My heart started racing and I pressed the call button and put the phone to my ear. I heard the phone ring once, twice. He answered.
“Beau…” I spoke, before he even had a chance to speak. I felt the eyes of everyone on me, and suddenly I felt really insecure. I cleared my throat, the other end was silent. I could barely just make out Beau’s breathing. “I love you…” I said and paused again. He was answering me and I felt the tears building up in my eyes. I hadn’t spoken to a living soul in months. It felt weird to speak to someone and not have a reply back.
“This is a joke isn’t it? Who is it? Chelsea? Wow, Chelsea you’re good at putting on voices” He laughed. I shook my head, forgetting he couldn’t see me.
“No Beau. It’s me. It’s Paisley” I felt the tears escape. Jai was at my side almost immediately, pulling me into a hug. There was silence on the other end again. I just listened to his breathing as he thought about what I said.
“Paise?” He asked, he sounded like he was trying to believe it.
“Yes?” I whispered back.
“You’re talking?” He sounded confused.
“Only for you Beau. Only you”