It was a goddamn silence. We- me and Luke- had to wait for our parents.
“I’m sorry.” I said for a thousand times.
“Baby…it’s okay. I love you. And nothing, whatever happens, is gonna change that.” He leaned over to me and gave me a softly kiss.
“Honey, your principal called me. Aren’t you too young to have…?” My mum said.
“No! I am old enough.” I said and grabbed my jacket. To tease my parents, I gave Luke a long kiss and walked out of the room.
At night I was walking up and down in my room. ‘Oh man, I’m so done’ I thought.
Suddenly I heard the scream of my mother. When I came down my parents sat at the table in the kitchen and looked at me.
My father took a deep breath. “Why didn’t you tell us that you’ve got a boyfriend?”
I didn’t say anything. Now my dad was getting louder, “WHY DIDN’T YOU SAY ANYTHING?”
“Because we’re just since today together. But I’m not sure if he still wants being together with me.”
“Then call him. I have to talk to your mom.”
I went upstairs to my room and grabbed the phone. I dialed Luke’s number. I felt tears coming up.
“Hello?” Luke’s voice came up. My heart beated faster.
“Hey, here’s Meri, uhm…I-I just called t-to ask if you still wanna be my boyfriend…?”
“Yes, of course…why shouldn’t I be?”
I started to cry hardly. I sobbed and said with a shaky voice, “I-I just thought because of that thing today…”
“Wait up; I’m coming over to you.”
He hung up. I cried even harder. After ten minutes he knocked at my window. I stood up and opened it.
When he came in he took me in a tight embrace. I cried out again.
“It’s okay. Let it out.” He stroke through my hair.
We lay in my bed. I lay in his arms. We were making out so bad. His hand was at my cheek and my hand was at his chest.
“I’m sure we’ll make it through.” Luke kissed me softly.
“I am sure as well.” I assumed he was smiling. The light was turned off so I couldn’t see it.
I heard steps on the stairs. I pushed Luke out of the bed. “Crawl under the bed. My parents are coming.”
I turned around to face the window and closed my eyes. And I kept on being right. The door opened a bit. “Honey, are you awake?” I didn’t move.
The door closed again. I heard my parents talk in the hallway.
Mom: “Do you think we did the right thing? I mean she is a grown-up. We can’t change it.”
Dad: “Of course we did. We know what the best is. We have to talk to Luke’s parents tomorrow.”
Mom: “I think we are wrong this time. She knows what she is doing. She is 17!”
Dad: “Let us sleep a night over this.”
I held my breath. Luke crawled back into my bed. “Did you hear that?” I asked.
“Yes, I did. Your mom isn’t that bad.”
I thought about it. ‘She knows what she is doing.’ Maybe yes, maybe I knew what I was doing. I kissed Luke and pulled my panties down. Luke took off his jeans and boxers. Then we were taking off our shirts. Luke kissed my neck and opened my bra. Luke took out a condom. Now it was getting serious. I literally let him in. He laid down on me and got inside. I grabbed his shoulders. It was hurting a bit.
“You okay?” He asked. I nodded. “It’s just…I am a virgin…”
“It’s okay we can stop if you…” “No! I’m fine.”
He started to move. He kissed my lips. After ten minutes I felt an energy running through my veins. I bit my bottom lip hard. Luke didn’t stop. He moved faster. I breathed faster.
“You like it?” He whispered in my ear. I smiled, “Yes, yes…I do.” I tried not to scream.
After an hour he fell down next to me. I was sweating. “It was awesome.” I said.
It was Sunday so my parents wouldn’t come inside. I opened my eyes and stared into the sun. Luke was gone but I found a letter beside me on the pillow.
‘I am at the skate park. You can come if you want to. It was a great night yesterday. I love you, baby.’
I stood up fast, took a shower and brush my teeth. “Okay, calm down. It’s your boyfriend. You’ve seen him every day.”
I didn’t know why, but I was nervous as hell. I went downstairs and grabbed my jacket.
“Where do you wanna go, young lady?” My dad asked.
“John, let her go.” My Mom said angry. “Thank you Mom, I love you, I’ll be at lunch back.”
I went into the garage and took my board. Then I drove to the skate park. When I finally reached it, I saw Luke and Mickey fighting. Luke was lying under Mickey. “What the fuck are you doing?” I yelled. “You are together?” Mickey screamed at me and jumped up.
“YES, we are together. Why are you so interested in that? I thought you hated me after I cut myself.”
“I DON’T hate you. I never FUCKING hated you!” He was so cute when-, oh shut up my mind.
I slapped him. “But I hate you. How could you hurt Luke?! He is one of your best friends.” I said and helped Luke up.
Mickey stared at us. He glanced and screamed, “Not anymore. This dumbass fucked you yesterday, right? I thought you love me not him!”
In that moment I wanted to smack both of them. “You told him? Oh my gosh, I can’t…You FUCKING told him?”
“He just heard it. I told it Colum.” Luke said, but that didn’t make anything better.
“Fuck you…” I said and started to drive back home. Luke followed me on his board.
“Baby, come on! It wasn’t my fault.” We passed an old lady who mumbled something unfriendly. I stopped and turned around. “Excuse me?” I said. The old lady turned around. “Nothing.”
“OH YES! You said something. Tell us…I wanna hear it.” Now I stood in front of the lady. She seemed kind of scared.
Luke pulled me back. “I am sorry, we had a fight.” “NO! We still got a fight. How could you just tell our sex stories? Do you wanna know how my girls and I call that like?”
“I regret it but how?” Luke sighed out loudly. I smacked him and said with an angry and loud voice, “Kiss and Tell…” Then I turned around and kept on driving. I saw my house. I passed some other persons who screamed, “Hey, can’t you watch out?” Or, “Fuck you bitch.” But I kept on. I wanted to be finally home. When I was there, Luke still followed me.
“Merida! Damn….hold on. I am sorry. If you want me to, I stop talking to the boys. I just wanna see that smile in your face. You know that one that goes over your whole face.” I really smiled. But I tried to suppress it. “You see!! That crazy smile. I love this one.” He came up to me. “I love you, Merida. And I don’t want it to end up so fast. Let me be the first and the last one to have sex with you or is allowed to kiss you…or whatever.”
I nodded. “Okay…and I love you too, Luke.” He kissed me. I reached up for his hair. Suddenly my front door opened. “Merida come in!” My dad pulled me up the stairs. “See you tomorrow.” I looked up to my bedroom window.” Luke nodded. “Okay, Love you.” “I love you too.”
At midnight, Luke knocked at my window. “You’re here…I missed you.” I said. He just nodded and kisses me. He grabbed under my shirt. “No, Luke not today. I am not in the mood.” He stopped. “What’s wrong?” I sat down on the bed. “Urgh…I don’t know.” Luke sat down next to me. He grabbed my hand and kissed it. That made me smile. “I love you.” He said and kissed me. “I love you too.” I mumbled. We let ourselves fall and made out harder. Luke pulled his shirt over his head. He sucked at my neck. I grabbed into his blonde hair. I wrapped my legs around his waist while he moved.