2 months later...
Why does everything bad happen too me?
Why do I always have to be the bad person?
You're probably wondering why I'm thinking this.
Well Here I am, for the third time in my life, sitting on my bathroom floor with tears sliding down my face because I am in fact pregnant.
I, Blake Horan, is pregnant with,not her husbands baby but his best friends.
Trust me it's Zayn's.
Niall is always so distant.
He's been drinking a lot and he's been coming home drunk.
He doesn't look at me or kiss me.
He doesn't talk to the kids.
He hasn't held Cameron since before Zayn and I.
He's just been weird lately.
I got off the bathroom floor and went in my room and got my phone.
It was 10pm and of course niall wasn't home.
I dialed Zayn's Number.
"Hello?" His deep british accent sounded through my phone.
I think I just woke him up.
"Hello?" I said and sniffled afterwards.
"babe? Who's on the phone?" I heard Perrie ask in a tired tone.
"Nobody. Just Niall" He said.
"Oh tell him I said hi" she said.
I heard the sound of Zayn getting off the bed and a faint 'Okay' and the sound of a door opening and closing.
I heard foot steps through the phone then another door opening and closing and then Zayn.
"What do you want Blake? You know I can't talk right now" he said in a mean tone.
Well, you see. Zayn and I aren't on good terms right now. We kinda had a fight.
Flash back to a week ago......
"Blake. We can't go out. Not to the movie's or for dinner or anything. People will see us and think somethings up" Zayn said while rubbing his forehead.
I had just asked if we could go to the movie's since we never do anything except do..It or stay in the house.
"Why can't we go out? Hmmm Zayn? You can always deny what they say" I said. Clearly annoyed.
"We just can't. I can't deny the truth Blake" He growled quietly since the twins were asleep.
"If you can't deny the truth then there can't be an us." I said while folding my arms.
"There never was an us. I was using you. Blake. Perrie wouldn't have sex with me and I knew you would since you are so vulnerable and pathetic. Your sleeping with a married man" He said but once it came out he slapped his hand over his mouth.
Tears brimmed my eyes. He seriously used me.
"For your information. You were sleeping with a married woman" I said then stormed out of his house.
"I don't wanna hook up or anything." I said.
"Then what?" He growled.
"Calm down... Please" I sobbed into the phone. I tried to hold the tears but I just couldn't do it.
"Don't tell me to cal-" He started but I cut him off with the horrible news.
"Zayn I'm pregnant. The baby's yours. I haven't done that with Niall or anybody else for that matter." I said.
"Your lying." He said.
"I'm not lying. You can come see yourself if you want" I said.
"No. I....I believe you." He said.
"So what are we gonna do?" I asked.
"I don't want the baby" He blurted out quickly.
"O-Okay" I whispered. Crushed he said that.
"No...Blake. I didn't mean to say that. It just came out" He said.
"No...No you did mean to say that. Umm. Tell Perrie I said hi" I said
"Blake I-" He started but I hung up.
I started crying.
A few minutes later I heard the front door open.
I walked downstairs and saw a drunk Niall.
he looked more drunk than usual.
He walked past me and up the stairs.
I walked over to the door and closed it.
"BLAKE!!" I heard Niall shout from upstairs.
I ran up the stairs and into our bathroom since that's where he was.
"W-What's this?" He slurred/stuttered.
"A P-P-Pregnancy test" I said. Choking on the word 'Pregnancy'
"So your pregnant?" He asked.
"Yeah." I whispered.
"How? We haven't done......That in a while!!" He yelled in my face.
"I...Just....because" I tried but it was to late.
Niall slapped me.
Like really hard on the side of my face.
My right cheek went numb.
I put my hand up to it but it started to sting.
I would be lying if I said it didn't hurt like a bitch.
"Nia-" I started but he slapped me again.
Then he punched me in the jaw.
I heard a cracking sound but I didn't care.
I started to cry again. How the hell did my life get to this?
"MUMMY" I heard Reese shout from her room.
"Shhhhh. Reese go back to sleep. It was just daddy sleep walking again" I yelled.
I heard a whimper and then silence.
"I knew you'd go sleep with other men while I was out getting money to support us" he said.
Then another punch.
I never knew Niall hit girls.
I grabbed my chin and held it because honestly it felt like if I let go It would fall off.
I started to back away into the room but Niall decided he wasn't finished.
He pushed me against the wall by my shoulders and I ended up hitting my head.
I whimpered in pain. Not trying to scare the kids with a loud scream.
Niall grabbed me by my neck with both hands and started to strangle me.
My eyes went wide and I started to gasp for air but it was no use.
I was probably gonna die soon.
Niall grip got tighter and tighter and my eyes started to close Niall then said.
"I want you out of this house or I will kill you"
He let got and passed out.
Like literally passed out onto the ground.
There was blood on his hands.
Once he fell to the ground and let go of my neck I started gasping for air.
I fell onto my knees and tried to breathe. It was hard.
but then I could feel the air going through my body (lol idk)
and I started coughing.
I waited until I got some of my strength back and got off the floor. I walked into the bathroom and looked at the mirror.
I had a black eye forming and there was a hand mark on my right cheek.
My neck started turning purple and I looked like I had just gotten beaten up.
I let out a low sob and looked around me.
There was a little bit blood on the bathroom walls.
Blood was still coming out of my mouth with spit.
My Jaw hurt like a bitch and It was still pretty hard to breathe.
I picked up the pregnancy tests and threw them at the wall.
I walked out the bathroom and over to the bed.
I texted Kyle asking if he could pick up the kids in an hour and he said sure.
I packed a small bag with some clothing and then left the house.
I decided on leaving my phone at the house.
I called a cab before hand though.
It pulled up to the house and I got in.
"Where would you like to go ma'm?" She asked.
I knew the perfect place to just hide away.
"Can you take me to Bedfordshire?" I asked.
"Okay" She said and started to drive.
"You know this is about a 54 minute drive right?" She asked.
"Yeah. I'm willing to pay however much it costs." I said. She nodded and continued driving.
The reason I chose Bedfordshire is because my family would go there for vacation in a small cabin. My mom gave it to me. You know once I moved out and got married she said I could have it since her, the twins and Lola wouldn't be going there anymore.
An hour later....
"We're here. You sure you don't want me to drop you off at a hotel?" She asked.
I had told her to take me to the woods at the beginning of the drive.
"No thank you. I have a cabin out here I'm going to." I said. She nodded.
I handed her the money and said.
"keep the change" and got out the car.
The change was over 100 pounds.
I grabbed my bag and exited the car.
I started to walk down a path until I made it to the cabin.
I got out the key from my pocket and unlocked the door.
I turned on the light switch and to my surprise the lights still worked.
The cabin looked like a regular one floor house.
The living room had a fireplace, couch, and TV. Then there was a hallway and a kitchen.
Then a little further down the hallway there was 3 bed rooms.
I went to the one that was usually mine.
It had one direction all over it, a queen sized bed, and a small crib.
I remember when we came here after I had Joey.
I put up all the one direction posters so Joey could wake up and see his father.
It was actually when Joey was about 1.
I miss those days.
That was the last time anyone came here in my family.
My old laptop was on my desk and my old phone.
I remember how mad I was that I left my phone and Laptop.
I grabbed the phone and turned it on.
It was an iphone 4s
It had 152 messages.
Mostly from old friends.
It was signed into my old facebook and twitter.
I got on twitter and saw the account only had 1,047 followers.
I remember when it had 10,000 followers. I literally freaked.
The one I have now has over 1M from the directioners.
I decided to tweet.
'Bla_Say_what: Omg found my old phone and it's signed into this twitter. It's fully charged probably because it was all the way off. Hope you guys don't think any different of me because I was Niall Horan's wife.'
After tweeting that I went on facebook. Now that had a bunch of notifications.
I just scrolled through and saw things from old friends and old enemy's.
I saw a picture from a girl I hated. It was a picture of her daughter and husband.
Her daughter was apparently 3 months old today.
We stopped communicating because she moved in the middle of middle school (That was the last time I saw her)
I liked the picture and then Commented.
'She's absolutely adorable:* I have quite a few kids now. I had my first when I was 14. By Niall Horan. Hope your life is wonderful. Bye'
I commented and then kept scrolling.
After a while I got bored and went to look in my mom and her husband's old room.
There was a bunch of jewelry and a safe.
The combination was on a piece of paper beside it.
I decided on opening it. When I did I saw a real diamond Tiara. It was the one my mom wore on their marriage day.
There was a bunch of notes and pounds and some pictures.
I wonder why they left this here.
I shrugged and moved it into the closet which had the clothes my mom and her husband left in it.
I got on the bed and turned on the TV.
It was the free cable so I went to the only movie station they had and turned it on. Just my luck. 'This is us' was on.
I got undressed and got changed into some of my old Pajamas.
I got under the covers and rubbed my belly.
I whispered a 'goodnight' to my stomach and fell asleep.
So this is my life?