9. Little do you know
I woke up early in the morning because of Jordan. I ran downstairs to prepare his bottle and saw justin sitting in the living room.
" I let my self in " his eyes looked straight to my body, I was only wearing a tank top which revealed my pink bra and I was wearing booty shorts so I'm guessing he was attracted to me. " oh um that's fine I just thought you were doing later " I said looking at. Ground rubbing my arms in awkwardness. We just looked at each other and I walked away and started to prepare is bottle. While it was warming up I leaned against the sink scrolling through my instagram feed seeing Justins post of Jordan captioned: get to see my baby boy today 😊. I liked his picture and I saw his head turn my way. I looked up and he walked my way. He came closer to me. " you like my picture ?" His smirk and the tone of his voice was like sex to my ears. " yea it's cute " I said getting nervous. He stepped closer and he was inches away from my face. " I think that nervous look on your face is even cuter" he leaned in and his lips kissed mine. Sparks. They were definitely there. I wrapped my larms around his neck and he lifted me onto the counter top. I snaked my arms to his back and pulled him closer. His hands rubbed my thighs and he took my legs and wrapped them around his waist. At that moment I realized I've been craving his lips and his touch. I was like chocolate on the stove when it came to his touch: I melted. Just then jordan started to cry and I pulled away. I grabbed his bottle and ran upstairs and handed it to jordan and brought him downstairs and put him in the play pen. I walked over to the kitchen where I left Justin and he quickly grabbed my waist and smashed his lips onto mine. I jumped up and his hands held my butt. He walked into the guest room and laid me down on the bed. He hovered over me as we made out, our tongues fighting for dominance. It wasn't sloppy, it was passionate. His hands traveled to the back of my shirt and unclasped my bra and threw it to the other side of the room. I took off his shirt and let my hands travel down his abs and I felt him tremble under the warmth of my touch. I quickly pushed him away as I came back to reality and thought about the things he's done. " what happened " " we can't do this. " " why baby " he looked at me with loving eyes. " because you tore me apart Justin. You completely shattered my heart. You left my life for along time. You cheated on me god nows how many times ! You broke my heart Justin " he grabbed my hand and lifted my chin. " I'm sorry. Little do you know im breaking in side when I see you cry. Little do you know that I lie awake at night trying to forgive myself for what I've done. Little do you know that I am completely Inlove with you. That will never change. " I looked into his eyes and saw passion and pain. I kissed his lips and looked into his eyes. He leaned in further and kissed me harder. I Leaned back on the pillow and he hovered me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him in closer not wanting to feel him pull away. He lifted my shirt and looked at me in admiration. " you are so beautiful " he leaned back down kissing me while i fumbled with the buckle on his belt. In the next few minutes we were completely naked and kissing each other. He was inside of me and we were kissing. We weren't having sex, we were making love and that's what I missed the most. Our moans filled the room. His moans indicated that he was close and so was I. He quickened his pace and I scratched his back. He moaned out loud and I arched my back. We bothe reached our climax and his body fell on mine. " I love you so much baby " " I love you too Justin " he kissed my lips and went to check on JJ. He came back and I loved the sight of his body. He came and laid next to me and wrapped his arms around my waist and we both fell asleep, together, not alone this time.