Hi. I'm Lilly Mercia, i'm 17 and live i London with my mom and dad.
I go to school even though I hate it. Everyday is the same, they bully me even when I'm not in school. I fucking hate my life! It's a living hell.
I have no friends, or well yes one, but it's my cousin, she's sweet and all, but I just feel like she's filling me with lies....
So now you know a little about me. I don't have that much to tell other than this is my story.......
*Beep beep* *Beep beep* Ugh not that again, I don't wanna wake up. I just wanna sleep all day and pretend that people care, but they don't so, why should I? No one would actually care if I stayed home, well accept one, my mo..... "Lilly, get your fucking lazy ass up. NOW!" Speak of the devil.. I hate my mom, she's drunk all the time, but trying to hide it whenever my dad's around. And she's pretty good at hiding it, cuz he hasn't found out yet. And where is he right now you might ask?. Well he's at work, he works at night and get's home when I go to school.
"Are you deaf? I said get up you lazy piece of shit!" I rolled my eyes at her. Why can't I just die? NO! Lilly don't think like that..
I walked over to my closet and picked some clothes, a faint pink-black t-shirt, black leggings, black converse and a big hoodie to cover up all the scars on my arms. And yes I'm a cutter, if you were wondering. I brushed my long natural dark brown hair so it's straight and pull it to one side. I added some mascara and eyeliner and looked in the mirror... The mirror, one of my worst enemies. I look terrible, but it's worse without the make-up.
I grabbed my phone, my bag and put my books in it and walked out of my room and out in the kitchen, where of course my mom is.. "Damn you look like shit." "Trust me, I know." Thanks for putting it out there 'mom' I said whislt rolling my eyes at her. "Now eat your breakfast and get the fucking hell out of my house, or I will make you leave!" geez woman relax a little.. " Okay." Again I rolled my eyes at her, isn't she pathetic? I began eating my toast, when i finished I went to the bathroom, just to throw it all up in case she poisoned the toast, you never know what that bitch could do. When I come to think about it, I do it after every meal 'cause who knows they could try to kill you.
I started to walk to school, I was maybe 500 meters away when I suddenly hit the ground hard. I was dragged a little, away from the road, I looked up to see some of the popular kids from school, I didn't even know anyone had followed me. They started to kick me in the stomach, I felt a bruise starting to bleed a little from my stomach. When they stopped I tried to stand on my feet and walked slowly back to the road.
Finally there. As if that's a comfort... Everyone at this damn school hated me. I don't even know what I've ever done to them, they just hate me.
I walk over to my classroom and find my spot in the back of the room. I pull out my headphones from my pocket and put them in my ears, I turn the music down a bit so the others can't hear it, and I can't hear them as much.
The teacher walk's in. Mrs. Savage, she's nice but she never see what's actually happening in class. You would think that in the back of the room you would be looking at everyone's backs, but not in this case, they're ALL looking at me, and I know my music's not the problem. It's me.. They all hate me even the teachers don't like me, because I don't talk in school.
"Look everybody the freak is starring at us." Lucas one of the popular kids said. I got a little tear in my eye, but quickly removed it from my cheek."Ewwww I think it's drooling, no wait it's tears, HAHAHAHA" That was Katherin, the most popular and stupidest girl on the whole school. Seriously if they don't shut up I'm gonna leave this fucking school and go home..
" Yo Lucas you think we can get the whale to talk?" Adrian said. "I don't kno-." I couldn't bear anymore of their bullshit. I stormed out the class with the teacher yelling after me. I soon found myself in the girls bathroom, locked the door and started crying. Why me? Why not Katherin? Or anyone else?
It just apparently have to be me....
*A/N so how's the story so far? I know it's a bit boring but it will get better i promise.