"sorry" Holly excused herself "its ok" I said "have you heard it?" Holly asked "about Niall?" I replied, my vision got blurry and tears fell down from my eyes "aw come here" Holly said. I walked over to her leaving May Alone in the couch, Holly hugged me tight. "I know you miss him" She said while rubbing my back.
"We both do" Holly continued "Its so hard every time I see him Here in New York, I had to run away scared that I would break down and run after him and tell him about May" I said with an hoarse voice causing more tears to steam down.
Holly looked at me with sad eyes. "mommy?" I sapped my heard back to the coach, May had woken up by my crying "Are you crying?" May asked "no mommy just got something in the eyes" I lied trying to pull my shit together.
"is it because of daddy?"May asked, did she know? Holly and I looked at each other with shock "no" I replied unsure what to say next "but why are you crying?" She asked. "nothing mommy just um...... Its hard to find words" I finished. "where is daddy? everyone at Kinder garden Has a dad, why don't I?, Where is daddy?" She asked, she has been like this for weeks now and I'm worried. "I-I..... I don't know baby" I said with a low voice.
"can you tell me how daddy looked like?" She asked, I looked at Holly She just nodded at me "ok, What do you want to know?" I asked. "how was his hair color, eye color, voice, did he sing you good night? where is he from?" She explained.
"His hair color is blond and brown He has Blue eyes just like you, His voice was..... Irish:) and he is from Irland" I said. "whats his name?" She asked. "should I tell her?" I whispered to Holly, Holly was a bit unsure but nodded. "his name is.... Niall James Horan" I replied soon regretting what I had done "do you have a picture of Daddy?" She asked with a hopeful voice her eyes light up of hope, I could not lie to her.
"yes" I replied. "Can I see It?" She asked, she gave me the puppy eyes, how could i say no to that?. "...........ok" I said with a low voice, May's eyes sparkled like the water when its sunny.
I got into my room and grabbed the picture from my nightstand, I walked back to the living room, I gave it To May Who grabbed it with her tiny hands "Is this daddy?" She asked I nodded "he is pretty" She said with a big smile, I just nodded again.