2. chapter 37
I started up my car and backed out of Harry's driveway. Zayn confuses me, I mean one minute he's perfect and we are having the best time ever and the next thing I know we are pushing each other's buttons. Harry expects me to go back to him?! After all he's done to me!? Yeah well think again Harry. I finally get home and close my door behind me, I have to clear my mind. I decided to take a bath to clear my thoughts. I grabbed a towel and my pjs and walked into the bathroom to run my bath, when my bath was ready I got in and just closed my eyes, I was lost in my thoughts. Why did I have to get involved with Zayn?
"Don't give up on us" I said as I left Valerie's house. I walked out of Valerie's house and into my car. I slam the door shut and bang my steering wheel, life sucks. I sit there, replaying the events that just happened. We were fine and I had to get that girls number, in my defense she gave it to me. I sigh fucking frustrated, Valerie just broke up with me.. At least I think she did. I finally decide to leave her driveway before she comes out here.
I finally get home and throw my jacket on the floor not bothering to pick it up, what's the point. I go and get a bottle of whiskey out of my cellar, drinking is another way of getting rid of my problems, like that night after I went to Valerie's house and I was jealous. Yes I admit that I was jealous, I really did like Valerie, well love her. YES I LOVE VALERIE DEAL WITH IT!? I say in my head even though no one was listening, what the fuck is wrong with me!? I take about 8 shots of whiskey and I started to feel drunk, why did I have to fall for Valerie? I start to stumble towards my phone, I'm going to call her.
I'm laying on my bed and I can't stop thinking about Zayn. Yes I know it's pathetic of me to say something like that but it's true. I loved Zayn and I still do, he has hurt me in so many ways but I can still say that I love him. I was interrupted by my phone ringing... Zayn?! I don't think I should answer him. I really want to talk to him so I answer. " Hello?" " h-hey babe" Zayn stutters, is he drunk? " Zayn are you drunk?!" " N-no I just drank a little" he says and I roll my eyes. " More like a lot" " chill out babe" Zayn says " Zayn why are you drinking?" " because" Zayn starts to say, " because what Zayn?" I ask sternly, wanting to know. " because I m-miss you" Zayn says slowly and my heart flutters. " oh" is all I could say and I hear him sigh, "do you miss me?" He says hopefully and my heartaches. Does he really mean this? Well he's drunk and you know what people say when they're drunk. But if I tell him he probably won't remember,I mean he is drunk. " maybe" is all I say and I can almost hear a smirk through the phone. " so you do miss me huh?" He says cockily and I roll my eyes, even if he is drunk he is still annoying. " bye Zayn" Is all I say before I hang up and go to bed, I can't believe he said he missed me?! But more importantly why did I say that I miss him!? I know this will come back to bite me.