Ruby's point of view
I love being here.
I'm moving on from what happened to Jason, I don't think about it anymore. Whenever I feel a hint of it in the back of my mind, I block it and I feel a lot happier. I miss Chris but I realise that this is how it was meant to happen. I call my mom every night and Jonas. In class, I sit by myself but I feel like that's more accepted here in university. People don't mind if you want to be alone. I just feel like this is what I've been waiting for my whole life, I've been waiting for this stage in my life.
Chris starts to message me every week. It's always asking how I am, whether I need help with anything, how I'm liking England, things like that. I have been here for over a month now and I get home quite late from going out to shop after class, to see he's messaged me:
Hey Rubes. Everything going okay? x
Everything's good, how are you? x
I'm good thanks, school's getting a bit stressful, we've got a week off soon though for Thanksgiving. x
Oh that's good, we just have the weekends haha x
You're coming home for Thanksgiving though, right? x
I put my phone down for a minute. I know if I go back then I'll have to think about Jason so I'm trying to think of excuses to tell my Mom so I don't have to go back. I'm happy here, not there. I'm sure she'll force me but I'm trying to stay here. I reply:
I don't know if I can. It's a bit much to just travel back for the weekend and I have a lot of work to be doing. Plus, the jet lag will be awful x
Don't be silly, you have to come back for Thanksgiving, we haven't seen you in a month! x
I feel terrible as I reply:
Haha, we'll see x
I feel a wave of anger for Jason again. If he hadn't done what he did, this wouldn't be an issue. Things wouldn't be complicated. I push it down again before I can get too angry. I'm not dwelling on that anymore. I'm being happy.