Chris' point of view
I don't get a chance to see Ruby until a couple of days after Boxing day. I don't really think we're on the kind of terms where I'll spend the night in her room or even go into her room at all but I'm going to anyway. I've decided. I'm not going to do this whole polite thing anymore, I'm going to get back what we had before.
When I knock on her door and go in, she's lying on her bed reading a text book. I laugh, gently.
"So you're the studious type, huh?" I ask quietly.
She laughs a little, putting her book down. "Yeah, you could say that."
I smile and sit on the edge of her bed. I have no idea how to get into this so I just take her hand. She doesn't pull away, but she looks at me, unsure.
"Chris..." she mumbles.
"I'm just gonna be honest." I look at her. "Okay?"
"Look, I'm tired of us drifting away from each other. It's not even like we fought, we're just being all weird with each other and I'm tired of it."
"Well we can't exactly be together, I live in England."
"We could at least try couldn't we?" I ask. "We never even tried it. Please Rubes, I miss you so much."
I notice her eyes are glistening and my heart pangs.
"You think us being together again is going to make it any easier?" she whispers.
"We're going to miss each other either way." I whisper back. "We might as well have a proper reason."
She looks up at me, her eyes watering, her bottom lip is quivering a little and then she shocks me. She laughs. It's a relieved laugh and a happy laugh as she leans forward and kisses me. I smile against her lips, scooting closer and kissing her back. It's been so long since I've kissed her, I wonder how we're ever going to stop, how I'm ever going to be able to let her go back to England again.
"Okay." she whispers, giggling. "Okay, we'll try it."
I smile more than ever. "I love you." I say, without even thinking about it.
She looks at me and there's nothing but happiness in her eyes.
"I love you too."
And she kisses me again. And I don't think about her going back to England and me staying here. I don't think about us not being able to do this for another few months. I just think about right now and how happy I am because of how happy she is.