My eyes slowly fluttered open allowing me to see light. I squinted preventing the brightness to hurt my eyes. I brought my hand up to my neck as a sharp pain ran through it.
I must have slept in a weird position.
I took in my surroundings and noticed I was laying on my living room couch. A wounded Calum was laying next to me with my foot on his lap.
What did I do for him to act that way? I seriously need to talk to him because he needs to clarify the reason he was such an ass yesterday. Though it is kind of weird. Stan hardly ever gets mad at me. In fact, it's really hard for me to get him mad at me. There better be a good reason for his behavior.
Calum grunted breaking me out of my thoughts.
That was hot.
Vanessa it is not acceptable to think those kinds of things about the person who has hurt you the most.
He sat up rubbing his eyes in a cute way. He smiled at me.
"How are you feeling?" We asked in unison.
"You go first" we said at the same time.
"Ok I'll go" there we go again.
"Stop it!" Seriously why can't we stop?!
"I'm fine even though my face hurts a little. How's your foot?" He asked.
"Well it's still a bit swollen. I think I should put some ice on it"
"I'll get it for you"
Calum stood up and made his way to the kitchen.
It is so weird seeing Calum in my house again. We use to spend a lot of time on this couch watching movies and being lazy asses together. Though Calum hurt me a lot, there was a lot of times when he made me happy. I miss that but I'm not going to let him know that.
He came back with an ice pack and gently placed it on my foot. I gave him an appreciative smile. The mood suddenly became awkward.
This is weird. There was never a single awkward moment with Calum. Well until now. He always found things to talk about.
"So about what I told you yesterday, can we talk about it?" He asked.
Suddenly my awkward mood turned into an angry one. Just thinking about what Calum did to me makes me want to rip his testicles and boil them up. Though it's not a topic I would really want to talk about, I am really curious about everything. There is some questions that I want answered.
He took a deep breath before opening his mouth to speak.
"You probably want to know the reason why I cheated" he paused.
That was one of my main questions. I nodded my head confirming his statement.
"Well it was a time that you were really sick and you couldn't accompany me to a party. Well in the party we started playing a game of never have I ever. I don't remember well what happened when the game was finished. I only remember waking up next to Ashly. I felt so guilty the moment I saw her. All I thought about was how I was going to tell you. How you would react to it. I tried to ignore what had happened and tried to do anything to apologize to you without you realizing it. A month later Ashly had come up to me and told me that she was pregnant. At first I thought she was making it up be she reassured me that it was mine. I knew I had to take responsibility, I just didn't know how to handle the situation"
He let out a breath as if a weight had been lifted off his shoulders.
I am having difficulty with the need to hug him and the need to punch the living daylight out of him. I don't know what to think about this kind of confession. I honestly never thought that Calum would be the type to do those kinds of things.
"When I came to the caffe that time, why did you pretend to not know me?" This is a question that had been bothering me for the past years.
He looked down and began to play with his hands. I had to hold myself back from slapping his hands for him to stop.
"I couldn't look you in the eye. I was too ashamed at what I had done to you. It was until you looked at me and left the caffe that I realized I had only made things worse."
I shook my head in disbelief and rubbed my temples. Calum Hood is the stupidest person I have ever met in my life.
"When we got the offer to go on tour with One Direction, I thought it was a good time to clear my head and think of way that I could approach you. What I didn't know was that Ashly would be tagging along. I didn't even have time to breath with her being next to me all the time."
"You said that Ashly was pregnant, what happened to the baby?" I asked.
His facial expression turned into a sad one. His eyes began to water and he let out a shaky breath.
"It was born dead" he whispered.
I might hate the fact that he cheated on me, but the baby was not at fault and the fact that he couldn't have a taste of life tore me up. I placed my hand on his cheeks and rubbed his tears away. I can't even imagine the pain of loosing a child.
"Ashly was the only person who understood my pain, so we comforted each other"
He cracked his knuckles.
"Do you like Ashly?" The question came out of my mouth before I even consulted myself first.
"I love Ashly"
Some years might have passed, but that still hurt like a bitch.
"The thing that she doesn't know is that my love for her is more like a caring one, not a romantic one"
Ok that eased the pain.
"Then why are you still with her?"
I asked sounding harsher than I intended to.
I honestly don't understand why he is with her if he doesn't have any feelings for her romantically.
"I don't know"
Great answer Hood! Note the sarcasm!
I sighed and rubbed my hands together.
"Well even though you confession makes me want to rip your head off, I can see that you really regret what you did. Now I'm not saying that I forgive you, but now I don't dislike you. I am willing to give you a chance as a friend but you are going to have to work to earn my trust. I'm telling you now that it's going to be hard doing that"
He gave me a smile the reached to his ears. well not literally, that would be creepy. The point being, he gave me a big smile letting me know that he was more than pleased with my choice.
"I will take what I can get"
I smiled and wrapped my arms around him. Well being on tour and playing the bass most definitely earned him some muscle. 'Cause let me tell you that Calum is no longer the scrawny boy he was before he left to go on tour. It's like he was harshly slapped by puberty.
"I need to call Stan. He needs to give me an explanation for the way he acted yesterday"
At the mere mention of Stan's name, Calum's calm face turned into a scowl.
I stood up and looked around for my bag. once I spotted it, I dug through it to find my phone. I searched for Stan's contact before pressing the call button.
"What do you want?!" He snapped.
He really needs to get his head out of his ass.
"I want an explanation for yesterday's actions. I waited for you until I received a picture of you kissing another girl. seriously Stan? What the fuck is that all about?" I tried to sound as calm as possible.
"The only person who needs to give an explanation here is you!!"
"What are you talking about?"
"The fact that you were only using me to get Calum jealous. Besides congrats on your getting back together, have fun fucking him and getting your heart broken by him again!!!"
"What kind of bullshit is that?!"
"Please don't try denying it!"
"Who even told you that lie"
"It's not important who told me!!"
"You know Stan? I actually thought you would be smart enough to come up to me and confirm all the bullshit that person has been feeding you!"
I hung up the phone and threw it. I walked back to the living room. Calum looked surprised signaling that he heard my conversation with Stan.
"I take it as it didn't go well?" Calum raised his eyebrow.
I nodded my head and plopped down on the couch next to him. I let out a frustrated grunt.
"Something tells me I should pop a movie in the DVD player and get you some ice cream"
I nodded my head. He stood up and started moving about. It wasn't long before he handed me a bowl of my favorite ice cream. I looked at the screen and focused my attention on pitch perfect.
At least I have someone to comfort me right now.
I looked over at Calum who was laughing at fat Amy's actions.
I hope I don't regret my decision.