I walk out of the hospital 2 hours later, as a total changed person.I was heading home now.
I knew I had to tell Mary about Niall tomorrow at school....and I was thinking about how to say it.
When I entered my house, I walked up to my room, but stopped and instead of walking into my bedroom I walked into Niall's bedroom. I looked around and noticed a lose board in the floor.
I lifted it, and inside there was a diary.
Niall kept a diary!!??
I opened it...I know that Niall probably doesn't want anyone to read it...but he wasn't here now, and my eyes just scanned the pages.
~ Monday: First Day of 12th Grade ~
"I guess I'll write only about the first week of school. Keeping a diary is girly thing, but I don't really care. There is this girl named Mary-Ann Smith, in my classes this year, and she is so beautiful....I think I'm falling for her. One bad thing, she sits next to Ashton Irwin, and he knows about me...Harry's buddy, school asshole's....I really hope he doesn't tell her much about me or Harry, because then she'll think I'm a real bad person....Harry talked to her today too and asked her to our party, which is AMAZING!!!! I hope I don't blow my chance with her at the party."-Niallerxx
~ Tuesday: Second Day of 12th Grade ~
"She's coming to the parrrrtttttyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She talked with me and Harry today and said she'll be there!!!! WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO!!!" -Niallerxx
~ Wednesday: Third Day of 12th Grade ~
Side note = Remember... I'll be only doing this until Sunday...
"I really have NO idea how to keep a diary....soooooo yeah! Today has been okay I guess....I think I'm in love with Mary!! <3 <3 <3" -Niallerxx
~ Thursday ~
"Not much to say today except....2 more days till the party!!! :D" -Niallerxx
~ Friday ~
"OMG!!!! One more day..........!!!" -Niallerxx
~ Saturday: Party Time....Gone Bad ~
"I was really happy this morning...because of the party. Now it's an hour after it and I blew my chance with Mary. I acted like Harry and thanks to my fucking friends influence....and him getting me drunk, I asked Mary something I shouldn't of had....to have sex with me. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!??? I've been living to long with Harry....I NEED TO CHANGE BEFORE IT'S TO LATE!"-Niall
He didn't call himself Nialler...or put X's at the end of his name....
~ Sunday: I'm Done ~
"I'm going to finish writing this today.....and I ruined my chance with Mary.....I'm done! But I'll always love you Mary-Ann Smith!!"- One last time... Niall
Wow, this is horrible! I can't believe how this week started with him being happy and ended with him being sad......and now the accident......it's my fault.....ALL MY FAULT!!!
~ The next day ~
I was walking down the hallway to my second hour class with Michael and Ashton, when I hear someone screaming my name behind me.
"MARY!! MARY WAIT!!!," it was Harry.
What did he want from me? I turned around to see him making his way through the crowd.
"C'mon Mary, don't wait for him," Michael said grabbing my arm. I turned around to continue walking.
"Mary!," Harry said as he placed a hand on my shoulder, breathless.
"Harry if your here to apologize for Niall plea-," I started saying.
"No Mary, I'm not. Niall he....he....," he said.
"I don't want to hear about Niall, ok?!," I said.
"Mary, we are going to be late for class. C'mon!," Ashton wined. I turned around again.
"Niall's in the....the....hospital," Harry finally blurted out.
"Wh-h-hat??," I said, going pale all over.
"He had an accident yesterday, and now he's in the hospital, in a coma," he said.
The bell rang and Ash and Michael left for class, but I stood there looking at Harry, shocked.
Harry put his hand on my shoulder again.
"Mary?," he asked.
"Wh-hat, happened?," I asked.
"Motorcycle accident," he said.
I thought about yesterday morning.....
"And I also think you should read this. Before Niall wakes up and know's that I've been stalking his room," Harry said, giving me an journal.
"What's this?," I asked.
"His diary," he answered.
"Niall has a diary?," I asked looking at it.
"Yea, I guess so," he said.
"Um, Harry?," I asked.
"Will you take me to see him, today. In the hospital?," I choked at the last word.
"Yes Mary, I will. If that is what you want...," he said.
"Can, um, Michael come along?," I asked.
"Sure," he said, "Well I got to go to class now, see you later," he said and walked off.
Two tears slid down my face. Something deep inside told me to forgive Niall for what he did that night.
I looked at the diary. I would read it during my break in the library.
~ 2 hours later ~
I sat down in one of the many chairs in the library and opened Niall's diary.
As I read tears slid down my face. He was so excited about the party, and he was trying his best not to blow the chance with me.......I thought about that night again.....
It was Harry's influence on Niall, and he was partly drunk....
I thought about Niall....his blond hair, blue eyes, Irish accent, his cuteness, the way he made me feel when I saw him......all the feelings I had on the first day of school came back, and in my heart I already forgave him for that incident. He was trying his best, even if he was living under one roof with an asshole....
But then Harry....he too was changing I could see. Today during lunch he was talking to some girls and they were laughing with him. I wonder if Niall's accident made him different too....
All I know is that I really want to see Niall again and kiss him again and tell him that I love him too. And that I forgive him......but will there ever be a chance???
Harry told me that Niall's in critical condition and the doctors are worried about him.
Will I ever get the chance??