At lunch, I wasn't very hungry, not that I ever really had a lunch. I'm a vegetarian, which my parents fail to understand, so sometimes I just steal a bite from Emma, my fellow vegetarian. Skyler would totally be one, too, he claims, if not for football demanding he eat so much protein or whatever.
The whole table was pretty quiet today. I tried to avoid making eye contact, feeling concerning looks thrown my way, but I was stuck staring at Daymien. I knew I was, and that I shouldn't, because it was so obvious that I was, but I just didn't care. I found myself watching him sit there so uncomfortably and just stare down at his own lap. I wanted to say something, to anybody. It seemed like everyone had something on their mind, and here I was, wallowing in my own crap. I open my mouth to say something, when I felt the tap on my shoulder. I turned.
"Terrance, what could you possibly want now? I don't think I've ever had the displeasure of seeing you so much in one day."
"Awe babe, don't be like that." He bends down, getting really close to me. I stand up, giving myself space from him. I stand up straight and cross my arms, glaring at him.
"What the hell is your problem today?"
"You're the one who said this was all a game, so why won't you play?"
"You know the answer to that, so why don't you back off an leave me be, like it's always been. You have a real girlfriend, so why don't you go be with her. Besides, there's someone else I'd really like to be with."
"There is?! Who?"
I couldn't reply, or think as I stood frozen and shocked at what I had just admitted. My friends speak up for me. Skyler says "Damien" at the same time Emma says, "Skyler," leaving me even more shocked.
What just happened and what have I gotten myself into?
I run from the cafeteria, turning into the nearest bathroom and stare at my own reflection in the mirror. I lean over the sink, splashing water on my face, trying to calm down. Nothing was helping, and in the end, I had to return to my daily class schedule. I planned on sitting away from my usual spot, but when I got to class, the whole group had already shifted themselves to the back, leaving me to sit in my usual seat in the front, being surrounded by others I usually wasn't around. i was by the wall, the seat on my left empty. Out of the corner of my eye, I see stragglers come in, and give a thankful nod to the person who darted to sit next to me.
"No problem" Carla smiled back.
I never thought I would have such a hard time in class as I did today. I'm usually very great in school, but everyone has their weaknesses. Mine would be algebra. Usually, Skyler would help me. He's been tutoring me for years. Without him, I'm helpless.
"Wish I could help you, but I'm not very good at this stuff."
"What are you talking about? You have one of the highest grades in the class."
"That's all thanks to Terrance. He does all the work for me." She replies, like it's no big deal, and pops her gum. Gross. I hate it when people chew gum, but it's their own decision. I just wish they would keep it to themselves. "You know, he would without a doubt help you out, if you asked him too. Believe it or not, he's actually pretty smart."
"Yeah, he used to tutor me, before I met Sky." I needed the help, and it would appear normal to our parents if we studied together. To them, we were great friends, then later on, the perfect couple. When our parents thought we were together, he was really with Carla and it was Skyler tutoring me.
I really need to figure out something that'll help fix this mess.