I was wandering around my home, Emmett knocked on the door and came sweeping in, my father came in behind him, "Hey sis, guess I blew in like a storm huh?" He smirked.
I sigh and smile, "Can't out do me, I am the original," I wink and walk over to my father, "Morning."
He hugs me, "You seem a little tense." He held me at arms length and stared at me.
"Just this whole Christmas thing."
Fred walks in, "What Christmas thing sweetheart?" He wraps an arm around my waist.
"I'll explain later, I promise." Rolling my eyes I bear hug Emmett.
Hunter smirked, "Still blushing this morning my beautiful wife?" He'd turned on the fire after everyone had left; and laid down a blanket by the fire. Soft instrumental Christmas music played, as we were one.
Hunter kissed my neck, and I squirmed. "Mmm he's asleep still." He whispered in my ear. I blushed biting my lip gently. His hands caressed my back, and I was melting. For the next hour, jazz played, and that's all I can say.
I stepped outside into the crisp morning air, how am I going to explain a stupid thing like what do you do at Christmas? I'm going to look silly, but there again, Christmas is about being silly, can't wait for Emmett to start the teasing, I quietly laugh to myself just as Carlisle walks out.
"Something is troubling you." His tone was concerned but subtle.
"Okay, I don't know what you all do at Christmas, last Christmas I was in Pisa helping the homeless, the prev-" I hear Emmett's booming laugh as he steps out,
"The almighty doesn't know everything."
I knew it, "I'll get you later, Hulk."
He wanders round pretending to smash things I can't help but laugh.
"So?" Carlisle asks.
"The previous Christmas I spent crouching next to a gargoyle in Paris."
"Wait until the others find out." Emmett chortles.
Showered, dressed, and bundled up for a run. "You're really going for a run?"
Hunter asked, and I nodded. He shook his head, "Woman you're crazy."
I winked, "You love it." I picked up Sebastian, all bundled up in his seat.
"He's going also?" Hunter was sipping his coffee.
I nodded, "Yes, and he’s toasty, and I have a cover so he's protected from any wind."
Hunter sighed, "You're making me look lazy."
I winked, "You are."
He laughed, and came over pulling on his Northface. "Lets get this run in, then we have to go shopping."
I smiled, "Alright."
We headed out, and were soon on the move.
"Okay guys, I have to go out, get some things in, all presents got, just need to do a quick run to warm up."
"Want me to join you?" Fred asks.
"Up to you, helps me work up an appetite." I grin wickedly at Fred, who then turns nervous.
"Catch you later all mighty one." Emmett hugs me and waits outside for Carlisle.
"Don't worry, we'll coach you." He kisses my forehead and walks out.
"Ready for a run?" I turn to Fred.
"Honey I was born ready." He lifts me up and spins me round.
"Okay then, time to go." I head out the door and I'm gone.
I'm pushing Sebastian, and stop waiting for the walk light.
Hunter looked at me, "You're doing great."
I smiled, "Trying at least."
Frost hangs on the trees, snow is fast in the air, just waiting to fall, Fred is just ahead of me.
I'm at human pace, I don't mind, I speed up to catch up with Fred, I spin him round, pressing my lips to his lips and my body to his, "Told you it works up an appetite."
I can feel his body tingle, "What did I do to deserve you baby?"
Looking deep into his eyes, "Something special."
We started running again, then I stopped.
Hunter stopped coming back, "You ok?"
I nodded, "Just felt a little shaky."
I look at him catching my breath. "Easy, there's too many people around."
I'm home and getting changed. Fred eyes the contours of my body, "Simply perfect." He walks up to me, his hand caress my hip.
I turn around, "Keep the animal under control," I wink and press myself against him again.
"We started back home, “See how you feel?" Hunter rubbed my back.
I nodded. "Sorry to cut it short."
He smiled, "A mile with a little one is pretty good."
I'm still teasing the poor guy, "I need to get food in, remember, I'm not quite vampire." I laugh as he stares into my eyes.
He softly plays with my hair, "I know hun but you're tempting," kissing my neck, "soon you'll be mine forever." still teasing
Once we got home, we relaxed for a bit, and showered. I decided on jeans, knee high boots, and a long sweater. I wanted to be warm. Sebastian just needed a diaper change, Hunter was in his own. I decided to nurse before we left. Hunter came down wearing jeans, dressier shoes, and a Argyle sweater, with black collared button down underneath it.
"God we look like a clothing magazine family." I remarked.
Hunter laughed, "Except for you nursing, yeah." I laughed.
"Right I have to go, its going to be murder as it is," I kiss him on the cheek. Quickly I grab some clothes out of the wardrobe - skinny black jeans, ugg boots, leather hoodie and cami top.
"Even dressed like that I could devour you, gorgeous."
I stare at him, he has a check shirt and jeans, "Cheers for the compliment, you look tempting too but need food." I wink and head out the front door.
We were all in the car. Hunter was driving, "Leah you're quiet. You ok?"
I smiled lacing my fingers with his. "Just thinking."
That peaked my husbands curiosity. "About?"
I looked up at him, "How far we should we space the kids out."
He brought my hand up to his lips, and kissed it softly. "I think two years would be good. However we can't control nature." I blushed, and he laughed. Sebastian let out a small giggle sound. His first giggle.
I decided on nosing around Seattle, I would grab food either there or on my way back. Panic station by Muse comes on the radio, I turn it up. Some guy in a car pulls up in the lane next to me, he shouts out of his window, "You're a babe, got a phone number?"
I raise my eyebrows, "I am not a pig and my number is this." I flip him the bird and turn my eyes back to the road.
We got to the mall, Seattle was our destination.
"So are you ok with that time frame?
I nodded, "Sebastian would be two when the next baby is born?"
He nodded, "I think that's sounds good."
He smiled, "Good. Names?"
I laughed, "Julian Christopher."
He smiled, "Sold. So now that's decided huh?" I nodded, resting my head against his shoulder.
Parking on the outskirts, I lock the car and make my way through the madness, I get elbowed by some chump, "Eejit." I shout out. Taking a deep breath I pretend this is like ice hockey, the idiots are the other team. In no time at all I'm ready to enter the mall, rubbing my hands together I head inside.
We're inside and I spot Ara. I run up behind her, wrapping my arms around her waist. "Hi there beautiful. You married?" Hunter laughed pushing the stroller.
I don't even turn around, "Leah the wonderful one," smiling "October 31st next year." I laugh, turn and gently wrap my arms around her.
I hug her, "Can't wait." I kiss her cheek. "So shopping. I hate it also."
"I bet you can't," I touch her cheek softly, "ah Hunter hello," bending, "hello there little man," I kiss his forehead and stand up, "I'm only supposed to be doing some food shopping but the temptation was too much," I chuckle, "oh boy yes, this is my idea of hell." Winking.
I nodded agreeing. "Babe I offered to do it on my own."
I shook my head, "We are a family."
Hunter looked at Ara, "Ask her how many Adivan she took?" He smirked. I bit my lip.
I laugh at their disagreement, "I won't ask her that," I smirk, "she is right though, you are a family unit," sighing, "before Emmett let's the cat out of the bag, I have no clue what you all do at Christmas." Wriggling my fingers.
Hunter smiled, "True. She made us go for a run. She was that anxious."
I nodded, "We've been going for walks."
Hunter nodded, "I was hoping we could get a weekend to get away. Seattle."
"Want me to have Sebastian? I could drop him off later, or I can bring him back Monday?"
Hunter grinned, "Up to you." I tensed up.
I wrap an arm around Leah, "You and Hunter get the shopping done without little man and I'll meet you both when you're finished? Hopefully by then you’ll have decided."
I nod, "Sorry I just get nervous with crowds." Hunter held my hand, "Hun she's great with him, and he loves his auntie."
"I can assure you I am also not keen on crowds," turning to Hunter, "such a sweet vocabulary, there's a kiddy spot not far away, I'll take him there," smiling at Sebastian, "your gonna have fun little one."
I nod, and kiss him. Hunter smiled, kissing him as well, "Call if you need us," Hunter led the way,
"Call me when you are done," saluting, "of course." Pushing the buggy I make my way to kiddy corner.
Alice called Ara quickly. "Come on answer sis."
Reaching my mobile, "Afternoon."
Alice spoke quickly, "Between us baby number two is due in fall
"I thought something was different, now I know what," giggling, "exciting."
Alice spoke, "She's not aware, don't tell her." Alice looked up at Jasper as she spoke.
"My lips are sealed, promise." Smiling.
Alice grinned. "A nursery is in order. I don't know a gender though."
"If I had to guess, I'd guess boy." No idea where that came from.
Alice giggled, "Jasper is thrilled."
"Hey Jasper, I feel all warm and fuzzy." I sigh peacefully.
Alice grinned, "Yep he's learning to project." Jasper chucked, "Hi Ara."
"Focus and determination," picking Sebastian up, "right I'm going to take little Sebastian on a slide." I babble at Sebastian.
Alice, "Bye sweetie." She hung up.
"Okay my cutie, time to try the slide." I kiss Sebastian and we slide down the slide, "weeeee." I giggle, Sebastian drools and smiles.
Hunter meandered through a store, and found something for me. He was quick to hide it and smiled.
Sebastian and I are having fun in a little ball pool, "Told you we would have fun." The little man giggles.
Hunter texted Ara, "Here's the gift I got her. It matches her infinity bracelet." It was a ring and necklace set.
I gawp at the photo, I text back, "That is stunning, just in the middle of changing Sebastian, she's gonna love you forever, xxx" I continue changing his nappy.
I was flustered. I didn't know what to get anyone this year. I'm not even sure what to buy Sebastian. I sighed, looking around.
Quickly I text Leah, "Hey, any idea what I could get Hunter for Christmas? He's the only person I haven't got anything for, xxx" Feeding time for Sebastian.
I wrote back, "Same dilemma here. I look at my amazing husband. He's just smiling at me, then he signed the paper, and started towards me. "Maybe a watch?l
"Come to mine, I have a collection of old Rolex watches, I'm ready for chucking them, xxx"
"Ara you choose. I think I know what I want to get him." I smiled admiring a nice messenger bag. Then out of the corner of my eye, an advertisement for The Polar Express caught my attention.
Boys, and Girls young, and old come join us for a magical adventure. Can you hear the bells beautiful sound. It still rings for those who truly believe. Join us on this magical adventure to the North Pole. We'll have coco that's thick as melted chocolate bars. We'll travel through cold dark forests, where lean wolves will roam. Once we arrive you'll meet the elves of the North Pole, along with Santa himself. One lucky person will receive the first gift of Christmas. He'll only choose one of you.
My heart swelled, and I knew what I was getting him. I bought the tickets, for Hunter, Sebastian, Ara, and I.
"I think I have an idea, hope you find the most beautiful gift that gives him memories that last a lifetime, love you xxx"
I sent out a mass text to the family, telling them Hunters gift. I smiled, tucking the tickets, and information in my bag. "Hi baby." He had no idea. "So I saw a bag, but wasn't sure if it might be you." He smiled, "Truthfully for Christmas, I want you healthy. I want you happy."
I'm pushing the pram outside, Sebastian is sleeping soundly, spying the supermarket I head that way. Something makes me turn round, searching with my eyes I can't see anything out of place. Smelling the air, nothing. I could have sworn something was watching me, I feel on edge as I walk into the supermarket, "Must be my imagination." Shrugging my shoulders.
We met back up with Ara, “Alright I need to be going. I will see you soon. Bye handsome.” She kissed Sebastian on the forehead. “Bye loves.” She hugged, and kissed both Hunter and I and was gone.
Sebastian started to whine, and coo a lot. He seemed somewhat distressed. I looked at Hunter, and I started walking, and a tremble rippled through me.
"Cold chill." I smiled at Hunter. He nodded, and we kept walking.
"I don't have a change of clothes. Plus we have Sebastian now." I looked at Hunter.
He grinned, "That's ok." I looked at him, "How can we do Seattle tonight?" Travis smirked walking up behind us, "Well I dropped off your bags, and Merry Christmas from me." He winked.
I looked at Hunter, "Truthfully," I closed my mouth not continuing. Travis looked worrisome. "We should get Sebastian, head home." I spoke softly.
I've parked up not far from home, I sit there thinking, watching the first snowflake come down from a leaden sky.
I'm still sat there, the passenger door opens and I growl, turning it is Fred, "Thanks for that." I elbow him.
He feigns hurt, "Ouch," he grins, "I was worried about you." He plants a kisser on my cheek.
"Still wondering what to do regarding Christmas," touching his chin, "I've arranged to go to Alaska on the 27th," I look at him, "you're coming too, I want to get to know the Denalis more, plus a catch up with Garrett would be amazing."
"How do you know him?" Curiosity crosses his face.
"We were both on the front line back in 1860, despite me being English, we got on like a house on fire."
"Amazing, you are amazing." He looks at me.
The chill is firmly in the frosty air, Fred is leaving shortly to go sort things out at the business, "Sure you're ok with me going?" He locks his arms around my hips and kisses my neck.
"Yes, of course I'll be ok hun, things you need to sort out, especially so near to Christmas." I tickle his neck with my finger.
"I'll be back by the 20th," looking at his watch, "nearly time for me to go."
I can tell he doesn't want to go, out of the frost and snow I see Emmett, "Well I'm here to babysit." He laughs and spins me round.
"Thanks for doing this." Fred pats Emmett on the shoulder, "didn't wanna leave her on her own."
Hunter pulled out his phone and dialed ara.
Sitting on the sofa opposite Emmett, "So tell me again why a 600yr old vampire ish person needs babysitting." I lean over, he is about to answer when my mobile rings, "Hello you have reached the vampire getting babysat." I wink at Emmett.
Hunter spoke, "Yeah so our plan, well she's not going for it." Travis watched me quietly.
"What plan would that be?" she asked.
Hunter continued, "Travis booked the hotel here in Seattle. Leah won't have it."
I tense up, Emmett looks at me I put a finger up, "Wait Emmett," to Hunter, "did Sebastian do anything out of the ordinary?" I scrunch my eyes shut waiting for the answer.
Hunter sighed, "He became whiny. Then Leah trembled."
"Lort and heveldes ild," I'm getting annoyed now, "Hunter he whined for a reason, that whine then alerted Leah." My right hand balls into a fist, Emmett wraps his arm around my shoulder and whispers, "This is why Fred didn't wanna leave you on your own."
He sighed, "I wanted her to have a nice night. I will get a refund on the room, and we'll be home shortly."
"Eyes must have been on her, just as they were on me," putting my hand on my cheek, "I know you did and I'm sorry," Emmett says, "You didn't tell me you felt like that, you didn't tell Fred either."
"Because at the time I thought I had imagined it," to Hunter.
Hunter spoke softly, "Should we come home now?" Travis stayed quiet. I paid for the coffees, and waited for them to be made.
"That might be the best option, given that Leah will only panic more," all this, the events are making me tired and crabby, "want me to meet you at the house? Emmett will be coming, he's my babysitter." Chuckling at my own lame joke.
Travis could hear Ara, "Hey Ara I'm tagging along if that's ok."
I smile, "Travis, the more the merrier," deep breath, "ok, sorry to be moody, me and Leah will curl up and watch a movie and probably fall asleep, I want her to know she's not alone in this ," trying to find the right word, "stuff."
Hunter spoke softly, "Ara we've been together a lot also." His tone of voice was enough. Travis, and Hunter started in my direction.
"I know, I just feel responsible, see you at the house." I hang up and curl up to Emmett, "why is life so unfair?"
Emmett couldn't answer but he knew I put the problems of the world on my shoulders, "You need to breathe and see things for what they are, come on time to go." He carefully picked me up and headed for my dodge.
The guys took their coffees, Hunter kissed my cheek, wrapping his arm around me. "Home bound. We'll get pizzas. Travis smiled, "I will get your bags, and follow behind you guys."
Monday morning rolled around, and Hunter took the day off from work. We were waiting in the exam room. Hunter stood beside the exam table, and rubbed my back.
"It will be ok. I promise that ok?" He kissed the side of my head.
"I know. Just scary. What if it happened as I was holding Sebastian?" I asked.
"I know baby. That's why Lucas is going to see you." He smiled, and we waited.
A few minutes passed, and Dr. Martin walked in after knocking on the door. "Hi there you two. So I received the message. The pain is still occuring. Alright. So how are you feeling overall. Overwhelmed, depressed, suicidal, and self harming thoughts, or harming anyone else?"
"No to all except the pain. Slightly overwhelmed, but being a mom is still new." I smiled.
Dr. Martin washed his hands, then came over and sat down on the stool in front of me.
"Alright let's do a few tests. Can you squeeze both of my hands at the same time." He put his hands out. I took his hands in mine and squeezed.
"Alright, I'm noticing some strength issues in the left hand. Is this the hand with the primary pain?" He asked, looking at my arm, and standing up, moving the gown sleeve. "Any coldness, tingling?"
I nodded, "Strength issues. At times cold, only when the pain is present."
He nodded, and examined my other arm. He listened to my breathing, and then placed his stethescope around his neck. "So, your displaying side affects from Paxil. I know you stopped it immediately. I want to have an EKG, just in case. You complained of some chest pain. We'll keep you on the Adivan. It's a PRN so you know, as needed basis. Let's do the EKG now. Precaution ok." He smiled, and had me lay back. Hunter smiled, holding my hand. I was hooked up, and laid there closing my eyes. "Looking good so far. So no more Paxil. I want you if anything else should come up, call me right away." He smiled, and patted my shoulder. "You're free to go. Have a great Christmas, and New Years." Hunter smiled.
We left the office, and a weight was off of my chest. "So just anxiety. I can handle that." I kissed Hunter, and he wrapped his arm around my waist.
"We're a team, and we'll make it through this." He smiled, and we got in the car, and were on our way.