Weeks passed and I had no ambition to do anything. I felt so empty and alone. I would get up jump in the shower, get dressed, go to school, come home, do my homework, and stay in my room. The phone rang and my mom answered it.
"Hello?" Emily would ask for me.
"Hi Emily," She listened quietly as Emily spoke. "No she hasn't really come out of her room. She has her routine. She leaves for school, to use the bathroom, and sometimes for dinner." My mom told her. My mom was quiet again, "No she's not really been eating much. She's lost a significant amount of weight. Harry and I are watching her closely." My mom did several; "mmhmm's" Then she spoke "I can see if she'll talk to you." My mom knocked on my door. "Leah, your cousin is on the phone and she would like to talk to you."
I didn't respond. I leaned over and unplugged my phone from the wall. I knew she was calling to tell me about her and Sam. I didn't want to hear her pathetic, guilt fueled apology. It was nothing to me. It was like putting a band aid on a wound that clearly needed stitches. I don't know if she was hoping to save a little of our relationship, but no way in hell would that happen.
"Emily she isn't answering me." I heard my mom walk back out to the living room where Charlie and my dad were.
"Leah still won't come out of her room?" Charlie asked.
My dad shook his head. "No and she's not talking to anyone either. She just shrugs or nods. It's weird."
Charlie was left without words.
"I never thought Leah would be like this. It's so hard to watch her. She's lost weight, Sue's really worried and so am I. What do we do? Force her to eat? Force her into therapy? This is something we're really not sure how to approach. Sue's tried. I don't want to upset her."
Charlie nodded, "Ever since I've known her, she's always been a happy person. Harry I'm really sorry."
My dad smiled faintly, "Thanks Charlie."
It was Christmas time. Emily had moved down from Neah Bay, to be closer to Sam. He had moved in with her. Emily continued to try and mend our relationship. She'd come over often and visit with my mom. I made sure my door was locked, or I would sneak out of the house through my window. Amanda, and Juliette tried to understand why I was so heartbroken, but it was hard from an onlookers view.
"So any plans for winter vacation Leah?" Juliette asked.
I looked up from my book, "Huh; plans? No. Probably will do any homework I have. Maybe do some reading. Not much else to do."
She smiled, "Well maybe your mom will let you come along with me to Seattle for a day?"
I shrugged, "Maybe. I'll ask her."
She smiled, "Oh I hope she says yes."
I faked an enthusiastic smile, "Oh me too." Honestly I didn't have any interest in Seattle. I let the weekend pass, and returned to school on Monday.
Juliette was at my locker, "So what'd she say?" She was clearly excited.
"She said no. She would have let me go, if she could trust me to eat but I'm under strict supervision now."
She pretended to pout, "Well that stinks. I'm sorry. I promise I will bring you back something. Maybe we can hang out during vacation."
I pulled out that fake smile once more, "Alright yeah definitely. I will see you later."
I shut my locker and decided that, school wasn't for me today. I went down to the nurse, and faked an illness.
My dad came down and picked me up and drove me home.
9 months had passed. In those 9 months, Sam had finished school, and graduated. Emily decided to do schooling down here at a satellite campus. Sam was working part time, doing odd jobs. I was in my senior year of high school. I mulled through the first couple months. Amanda and Juliette had slowly backed off on our friendship. It hurt them too much to see me like this. I just didn't want to be around anyone anymore. School was my focus. If I did well, I could graduate with a scholarship, and get the hell out of here. There was nothing here for me anymore. I thought maybe moving to the East Coast might be a good solution to my problem. I could come back and visit when I wanted but I wouldn't be subjected to Sam and Emily. Of course I'd miss my family but I would have a new life. A fresh start I so desperately needed.
It was a Sunday evening; the sun was starting to set. Charlie was over, watching a game with my dad on our television. My mom had just finished her shift at work. I didn't want to face my father, or Charlie; so I carefully and quietly opened my bedroom window and slipped out. Luckily our house was only one story so there was no chance of me getting hurt from a fall. I slipped away to the beach. Nobody would realize I was gone. My door was locked to my room and I didn't make any noise. I arrived at the beach and was greeted by something I wasn't expecting. What a shock I was in for. I chose this spot knowing nobody was going to come looking for me. I'd avoided the beach for the longest time. It brought back too much pain.
Back at the house; they all still thought I was in my room. I sat at my usual spot for a while. I decided to go and take off for the beach.
Once I was down there, in the distance, I saw Sam sitting with Emily. I kept my distance and stayed back watching. He carefully pushed her hair out of her face and slowly leaned over and kissed her. That was the way he had kissed me. He was kissing my cousin, my sister, Emily. She kissed him back with such passion. I was crushed all over again. Then this rage ran through my body and I was furious. I lost my temper. I stormed over to where they were sitting.
"What the hell is going on?" I roared.
"Leah calm down." Sam said quickly standing up.
"Calm down. I come down here for the first time in forever. I find you and her down here. You have no right to be here."
Sam looked at me, "Leah it's a public beach. I'm sorry I didn't know you were coming down."
I growled at him. For the first time since Emily's accident I looked at her, and saw the scar. She looked at me smiling softly like she used to. Now though, where the scar was, her bottom lip had a permanent pull downward. She was still pretty, but she wasn't the same.
Something caught my eye on her left hand. I looked at her, making direct eye contact. "You're engaged!"
She nodded sheepishly. "I tried to call and tell you. I wanted you to be in the wedding. I was hoping you'd be my maid of honor."
I scoffed at her, "Not a cat in hells chance"
Sam looked at me speaking sternly, "You could accept the offer or decline a little kinder you know."
I looked at him, "And the two of you could have been a little more discrete about your relationship. Someone sent me a note in the mail, informing me about the both of you. So I have every damn right to be a bitter bitch. Have fun at your wedding, I sure as hell won't be there." I turned and left them on the beach and slipped back into my room through the window.
I looked around my room and found the picture of Sam and me sitting on my desk. There was also a picture of Emily and me hanging on my wall. I threw the picture of Sam and me across my room and watched the glass shatter and the frame break.
"Sam Uley I hate your guts." I then proceeded to tear up the picture of Emily and me. I rummaged through my closet grabbing a bag and throwing my clothing in it. Seth heard all the banging and quickly found my dad.
"Dad, Leah is in her room and all I know is I heard glass break and she is angry. She is in there saying she hates Sam."
My dad and Charlie become alarmed." Charlie, watch the front door please. Don't let her leave."
Charlie nodded. My dad quickly made his way to my door and knocked. "Leah what's going on? May I come in?" He tried the door handle.
"No stay out." I barked.
"Leah, unlock the door please and let's talk about this calmly."
I snapped back. "There is nothing to talk about. I am leaving, Sam and Emily can drop dead for all I care. I want nothing to do with this place." I grabbed the bag off my bed unlocking the door and swung it open. My dad was standing there.
"Where are you going?" My dad asked spotting the bag in my hand.
"I'm leaving this reservation and this stupid state and starting a new life." I tried to push past him.
He grabbed the bag. "Leah you're not going anywhere. Come and talk to me. Tell me what's going on." I tried to pull away. I got out to the living room and Charlie was standing in front of the door.
"Excuse me Charlie." I tried to get around him.
"Leah I am not letting you leave, sorry." I turned around ready to find another way to leave.
My mom stood in the doorway to the kitchen just getting home, "Sit down and calm down." She spoke sternly but softly. She walked over and guided me to the couch.
My dad came out to the living room and sat down beside me on the couch. "Relax. Now what's going on? You're angry about something."
I took a deep breath. "Sam and Emily were kissing on the beach. He dumped me for her. I hate them both. Did you know they're engaged? What did I do wrong?" I started to cry.
My dad pulled me into a hug. "Hun I don't think he meant to hurt you. Things just happen sometimes and we can't explain it." My dad said in a soft tone.
I mumbled, "We had a plan." Little did I know my dad, and the other council members told Sam that he had imprinted on Emily. He explained to them how he was feeling. They knew what was going on with him. He wasn't allowed to tell anyone. Some time had passed and Charlie and my dad headed out to the kitchen and sat at the table talking. My mom had gone to do some grocery shopping. I sat there not paying any attention. Later in the afternoon my mom had returned. Once the groceries were put away, she came out to me. "Come on, let's talk." She took my hand, walking with me into my room.
Once in my room I sat on my bed, and pulled my knees up to my chest. My mom shut the door, and sat down beside me. "I don't have any magical words, or wisdom to make this less painful for you. I want to take away the pain. Frankly I don't have anything to provide relief. I'm truly sorry. I know how much you love, or I should say, loved Sam. Things happen beyond our control, and understanding." She looked into my eyes.
I knew she could see the pain they showed. "We were together for over three years. We had talked about getting married." I let out a loud sigh feeling tears stream down my cheeks.
"Oh sweetie," My mom pulled me close and wrapped her arms around me.
"Don't tell daddy. We were going to elope a while back. That's when he disappeared. I thought maybe he got cold feet. I should have known something was going on."
My mom rested her chin on top of my head, "I'm glad you told me about your plan to elope. I'm glad you didn't. You're much too young, and you have your whole life ahead of you. I won't tell your dad. Please promise me, don't make rash decisions."
I nodded, "I just want to graduate high school. I plan on going to college. That's it. I don't need a man in my life."
She smiled, "I'm glad you're goal oriented."
I nodded, "Please keep Emily away. I don't want to see, or speak to her."
My mom sighed, "I will see what I can do." I shifted and laid down. My mom left allowing me some time alone.