The Stories of Leah Clearwater

Leah Clearwater of the Quileute reservation. The daughter of Harry, and Sue Clearwater. Older sister of Seth Clearwater. She has the average life of any other teenage girl. So what happens when her boyfriend Sam Uley, abruptly dumps her, and hides the truth from her. What happens when a new family's arrival town, sparks something inside of her; nobody ever knew possible? Well this is The Twilight Saga, from Leah Clearwaters point of view. This is The Stories of Leah Clearwater.


23. Chapter 23 - Suicide would be less painful than this dinner.

The rest of the day passed. I ignored the repeated knocks on my door. The smell of the food filled the house.

“Dinner in fifteen minutes. I want both of you at this table. Leah no complaining.” My mom called out.

I heard a car pull up outside. The engine went quiet and a door opened and shut. I listened carefully and recognized the footsteps on the gravel - Charlie. The front door opened,

“Hello handsome.” Mom smiled.

Charlie blushed, “Hello beautiful.”

It was so gross and wrong to hear this. I wanted to crawl in a hole and die at this point. My mom walked back into the kitchen with Charlie and they talked softly and engaged that new love smiles and soft laughter. I stayed in my room until I heard another car pull up. It was absolutely noiseless except for the sound that the tires made pulling onto the gravel. I raised an eyebrow listening carefully. Once she was out of the car I got a whiff of leech, and our smell. I growled. I flung my door open and stomped out to the kitchen and looked at my mom. She looked at me and smiled.

She was here for dinner. Love how they slipped her in. It’s like a parent putting the presents under the tree from Santa. Sneaky and so not cool. Seth was about to rip the door off the hinges before she got out. Cullen bought her a car. A sleek black armoured vehicle sat in our driveway. Looked very out of place for the reservation. She timidly climbed out.

Seth was out the door and hugging her. “BELLA. Oh my god. It’s been like forever. How are you? I’m so excited you’re here.”

I stood there rolling my eyes.

“Leah please bring the food over to the table.” My mom asked sweetly.

I quietly snatched the food off the counter and put it on the table with a thud, thud, thud. Making sure they knew how angry I was.

“Hello.” Bella said walking in the door.

My mom went over hugging her, “Hi Bella. How are you?” My mom was rubbing my nerves raw.

We hadn’t even had dinner. 

“DINNERS READY!” I yelled and sat down in my usual spot.

Seth sat down in his spot making sure Bella had room to sit beside him. Maybe she could hold hands with Seth. Had to replace Jacob with another wolf boy. I swear if she hurt my brother, I’d kill her before the Cullen’s could. My mom and Charlie sat how my parent’s used to. One on each end. My mom gave me a look. I knew I was treading on thin ice. I just shrugged and she glared at me. I quietly put some food on my plate. Charlie dug right in along with Seth. After some time Charlie was able to stop for a moment,

“This is delicious Sue.”

My mom smiled.

I rolled my eyes. My mom made small talk so it wasn’t quiet.

Then Seth finally murdered the dinner, “So, August, thirteenth is the big day? You excited?” Seth grinned.

Bella smiled a little turning red, “Yeah. I have no idea what’s going on really. Alice is planning it all, including my dress. I have no idea what anything looks like.”

Seth laughed, “She’s cool.”

I clenched my fork so tight I bent it. Seth noticed it and looked at me, so did Bella.

The small talk started up again. I looked around for a second, Charlie and Bella were gone. It was my dad sitting in his seat again. I could hear his laughter in my head and saw his beautiful smile.

“Leah, you ok?” My mom touched my hand.

“Uh,” I stuttered, “Yeah.” I looked back over and Charlie and Bella sat there.

We finished dinner and before we could digest, desert was already being served. “I hope you don’t mind but fresh hot brownies with vanilla ice cream.” I eyed Bella.

“Hmm the best of both worlds.” She smiled and nodded,

“Yeah.” Charlie smiled, “Coffee as well I hope?” He smiled at my mom, and I mentally gagged. Seth helped clear the dishes as my mom set out the desert. My mom passed out plates with brownies and ice cream on them. “Dig in.”

I smirked and Seth raised an eyebrow. I finally let the real fun begin. I hated Bella. I hated the fact she was in my house. I didn’t even want her on the reservation, let alone the state of Washington. I slowly ate the ice cream off my spoon, “Mmm. So sweet. Love vanilla ice cream. It’s so cold and yummy.”

Charlie nodded, “I prefer my brownie first.”

I nodded, “Well I wait until the cold is gone. Then I have some brownie. So WARM and chewy.”

Charlie nodded, “Wouldn’t have it any other way.”

Bella sat there quietly having her desert. Seth had already inhaled 3 brownies along with 3 scoops of ice cream.

“Then after the brownie, I have to go back to my ice cream. You’ve gotta balance out the cold and warm. But then I take the last of my brownie and savour it. Before you know it, well it’s gone. Then there’s the ice cream to seal the deal.” I looked right at Bella. “Doesn’t that sound so good?”

Seth looked up at me and with a mouth full of brownie. She just looked at me. Had I got under that skin of hers? I sure as hell hoped so. 

So we continued to chat a bit. “So Bella have you been accepted to any colleges?” My mom asked.

She nodded, “Yeah. Quite a few. I’m really looking at the University Of Alaska.”

I had to cover my mouth before I started laughing.

“Wow. That’s interesting. Not much to do up there I suppose.” My mom said taking a sip of her coffee.

“Mom, there’s tons of wildlife up there, bears, deers and other animals. Edward would love that. He loves animals.”

Bella nodded, “Yeah he does. He loves the wilderness.”

I let my head fall back before I laughed again.

Seth piped up after finally eating his brownie, “I had a goldfish once. I walked in my room one day and found it sleeping on it’s back. That was the last of pet’s for me.”

I laughed at that point. My mom, Charlie and Bella all chuckled. 

After we finished desert Bella smiled at my mom, “I hate to do this, but I need to get going. I have to swing by the Cullen’s and talk to Alice. Dinner and desert were delicious. Thank you again fro inviting me Sue.” She stood up and pulled out her car keys, “Dad I will see you probably tomorrow.”

He nodded, “Ok Bells. Be careful.” She smiled and hugged him gently and headed towards the door.

“I will walk you out.” Seth stood up and walked with Bella to her car.

My mom looked at me, “So what are your plans.”

I shrugged and got up and went to my room and shut the door. Once Seth and Bella were safely outside she looked at him, “Why does she hate me so much? I don’t know what I did wrong.”

Seth sighed, “She’s angry at the world. She hates you because, you’ve kept the Cullen’s around. She hate’s them more than any of us. Even more than Jacob does.”

Bella nodded and paled a little, “I never meant for Leah to hate me. I like her. I wish she would just give me a chance.”

Seth nodded, “I’m her brother and there are days, she’s practically ripped off my head.”

Bella nodded, “I need to get going. I will tell Edward you said hello.” She smiled.

“Thanks Bella.”

She quietly slipped in the car and carefully backed out of the driveway and headed down the dark road. Seth turned and walked back in the house and went to his room as well.

I waited a while until I decided to head out for a bit. I wasn’t on patrol tonight. I decided to take advantage of the freedom I had when I was in wolf form. I was able to move faster. I could get lost and not worry about things. I walked into the woods and undressed quietly. I tied my clothes to my leg and phased. I started running through the woods. I was close to the treaty line before I knew it. I was so wrapped up in my thoughts I didn’t notice the others in my head. There was so much going on at the moment I couldn’t handle. I worried about my mom and Charlie getting really serious. I didn’t mind Charlie. He’d never replace my dad. If he and my mom got married that would mean she’d be part of my family. That would mean so would the leech. Seth would love that, not me though. But then again they’d never be around. Then my thoughts wondered to Jacob. What would he do once she was changed? What would happen to him? A low growl came through my thoughts. It was Jacob’s growl. Then the most sickening thought took over my thoughts. I couldn’t believe I would even consider the thought. What if Carlisle had been around when my dad had his heart attack. Could he have saved him? I shook my head horrified. How could I even consider having my father become a monster like them. Then again I’d have him forever. But what would happen when my mom died, unless. I was letting my crazy thoughts get carried away with. Where the hell were these all coming from? They were the reason my dad. I was, grasping at anything. I was desperate. I couldn’t think anymore it was making me physically sick. I could feel my stomach turn, and the nausea slowly crept up on me. My head started to hurt.

I realized I wasn’t alone then. I caught the scent of the Cullen’s near by. It smelled like the leader and his mate. I knew they were going out for dinner. I wondered how weird it must be. Pretending to be a human being. Not eating food. Surviving off strictly blood. Never sleeping. Being frozen in time. Being a piece of stone. Great now I was thinking about them. I heard several snickers run through my thoughts and let out a growl mentally and took off towards the beach. Just before I hit the tree line I phased back and untied the clothes, getting dressed again. I walked out on to the beach and found a piece of drift wood to lean against. I sat there for some time just to gather my thoughts. I felt my eyelids getting heavy. I laid my head against the driftwood and fell asleep.

Back at the house the minutes ticked by. My mom curled up with Charlie on the couch.

“It doesn’t seem real.” He said softly playing with her hair.

“What doesn’t?” My mom asked looking up at him.

“Bella getting married. It seems like she was just born. The next thing I know she’s in high school. She has a boyfriend. Then she’s telling me she’s engaged and now marriage.”

My mom smiled, “Charlie they grow up.”

He nodded, “I had her call Renee to tell her. I was hoping she’d convince Bella on what a mistake she was making. No luck there. She was so excited.” Charlie quietly laced his fingers with my moms.

“Charlie, if it’s what she wants, let her be happy.” That was the end of the conversation. 

The night slowly past. I woke up feeling a bit sticky from the sand. I looked up at the cloudy sky. From what I could tell where the moon sat behind the clouds it must have been about three o’clock in morning. I was rather shocked a search party wasn’t sent out for me. I decided to head home and get some more sleep. As I walked home a warm breeze came along, and gently kissed my cheek. Then in the distant I heard wind chimes and smiled, “Hi dad. I miss you.” As soon as the last word left my lips, the breeze was gone. I quietly crept back in my room through the window and laid down on my bed. I looked over at the picture of my dad that sat on my desk, I sighed and fell asleep.

The next morning came and Charlie was in the kitchen with my mom. I heard them laughing and talking. I came around and felt something touch my hand.

“Hey sleepy. Mom wants you to come have breakfast.” Seth said quietly heading out of my room.

My heart ached a little. I so wished it was my dad sitting out there.

“Is your sister up?”

Seth nodded sitting down to his plate of food, “Yeah. She’s a bit groggy though.”

I could smell the food and slowly pulled my self out of bed. I grabbed my towels and took a shower and went back to my room to get dressed.

“Leah breakfast. Come on hun.” My mom called out sitting down to her breakfast. 

I walked into the kitchen and gently hugged her, “Thanks.” I sat down and quietly ate. Charlie read the paper. Seth was done before I had even had a bite of my pancake. “Thanks mom.” He said quickly putting his plate in the sink and ran out the front door.

“He’s off early.” Charlie said looking at the door, then back at my mom.

“He’s going to hang out with his friends.”

Charlie nodded, “I see.” He went back to reading the paper.

My mom looked at me as I ate, “Are you ok? You look very tired?”

I nodded, “Yeah just tired.” I finished my breakfast and escaped to my room.I stayed quiet and didn’t do much. I spent most of the day quietly reading. I couldn’t explain how I was feeling. It’s like I was a shell. It seemed like my soul had escaped at some point. I quietly wrote in my journal, 

Don't judge me for who I am. Until you've walked in my shoes, keep your thoughts to yourself. Until you've seen the pain my soul has endured, keep your assumptions to yourself. You should never judge a book by the cover. There may be a very deep story to it, but you never took the time to learn it.

I felt like I had more insight recently. On what level or subject I wasn’t quite sure. I felt like there was a muse around me. I decided to give up for now and just stay quiet. Communicating with others was just a lot of work and seemed quite pointless. I took a nap before I had to patrol tonight. I was running with Seth, Embry and Quil tonight. It was easier running with them. They weren’t as judgemental as the others. The hardest would be, Jacobs thoughts. Most of the time it was just blurs of colors, until something reminded him of her. I hated the girl more than anything, more than Sam, possibly. The pain he felt was enough to make you want to claw out your brain. The telepathy was such a prison sometimes. The patrol went quietly without any issues. We made our way home as dawn was starting to break. I detoured to the beach. I spent some quiet time alone. After some time it was time to head home. I could feel the heaviness taking over my eyelids.

I walked in the front door quietly.

My mom was already up cooking, “How did things go last night?” She asked from the dining room table.

“It was quiet, on all aspects.”

She nodded, “So no word on anything from him.”

I just nodded, “Seth already home?” I asked.

“Yeah he’s already asleep.” I could hear the snoring coming from his room.

“Wow he got home faster than I did.”

She nodded, “Why is that?”

I shrugged, “ I took my time and stopped by the ocean for a bit.”

She smiled, “Did you have a nice talk with your dad?”

She knew what I was doing down there. I shrugged, “I guess if that’s what you call it. I’m going to go crash.” I went to my room and just barely made it to my bed before I feel asleep. 

Two weeks passed without much action leading up until, fourth of July. There was a huge cookout at Emily’s house. We all went. Charlie tagged along with my mom. Bella wasn’t around anymore thank god. There were fire works, food, laughter, music, howling boys and fun. I stayed quiet. I tucked away on a log most of the time. I hated to be here. I hated just seeing everyone so happy.

Embry sat down beside me, “Do you mind me sitting here? I will leave if you want me to.”

I shook my head, “No your fine.”

Embry looked at me, “I’m sorry about a few nights ago. I wasn’t laughing at your thoughts. I know it’s not easy, not having your dad around.”

I was shocked to have Embry talk to me. He gave a faint smile, “I’m going to grab some food. See you later.” He got up and left me alone.

Emily looked over at me and gave a faint smile. She made her way to the table of food and was making a plate for me. By the time she turned around to give it to me, I was gone. She saw me walking off down the road.

“Let her go. It’s for the best.” Sam spoke softly.

I was so angry. Everyone was having a good time. I just felt out of place. I knew I didn’t belong there. Everyone had someone or something to occupy them. Even Jacob was occupying himself. He’d run off to Canada and was living out his wolf life. He could occupy his time. I had nothing. I had no girlfriends to go hang out with. I was a wolf. I didn’t wear dresses, makeup, nail polish or do my hair. I was plain old Leah Clearwater. I was struggling with something. I wasn’t sure what it was. I hated myself more than anyone ever could. I felt like a monster. Nobody would ever want a girl who turned into a wolf when triggered. I went home and turned laid on my bed and started crying. Music softly played on the radio. I couldn’t care anymore. I heard Charlie’s cruiser pull up outside.

My mom was in the house, “Leah? Honey where are you?” She was in my room. “Leah.” She sighed and pulled me into her arms. “It’s ok. Let it out.” She rubbed my back when the song came on Keep Holding on.

You're not alone

Together we stand

I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand

When it gets cold

And it feels like the end

There's no place to go

You know I won't give in

No I won't give in

Keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Just stay strong

'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you

There's nothing you could say

Nothing you could do

There's no other way when it comes to the truth

So keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away

I wish you were here

Before it's too late, this could all disappear

Before the doors close

And it comes to an end

With you by my side I will fight and defend

I'll fight and defend

Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Just stay strong

'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you

There's nothing you could say

Nothing you could do

There's no other way when it comes to the truth

So keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe

Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny

Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da

La da da da

La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Just stay strong

'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you

There's nothing you could say

Nothing you could do

There's no other way when it comes to the truth

So keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on

Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say

Nothing you could do

There's no other way when it comes to the truth

So keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Charlie poked his head around the doorway and looked at my mom. She gently rested her chin on top of my head.

Charlie mouthed, “Everything ok?”

My mom shrugged slightly. Charlie went and sat down in the living room. “Leah I’m here to listen. You know that. If you want to talk that’s fine. If not that’s ok as well.”

I finally stopped blubbing, “There’s so much going on in my head. I’m not ready to talk.”

She nodded and hugged me again, “I will let you rest.” She slowly let go and kissed the top of my head and walked shutting the door behind her.

I was so tired of running, fighting, hiding and crying. I just let myself fall asleep.

A couple of weeks passed. I tried dodging patrols. There weren’t any threats at the moment. Sam just wanted to make sure there were no unwanted guests on our land.

Our house was becoming a hang out. On my mom’s night’s off from work Charlie was over.

During the day Billy came over, “Sue it’s so nice to get out of the house. Thank you for having me over.”

She smiled, “It’s nice having you over. It can get lonely sometimes when Charlie’s at work. Seth is off with his friends. Leah, well she shuts us out. Well today she’s not come out of her room.”

Billy nodded, “It’s already been four months today. How are you holding up?”

My mom smiled and sighed softly, “It’s hard. I miss him. I’m doing ok for now. How did the kids do when you lost Sarah?”

Billy’s face showed the pain, “The girls just shut down like Leah did. It was horrible. I could hear them crying, I couldn’t do anything about it. Jacob was just stunned. He took it like Seth did. He cried at first then just moved on with it. I do miss her. I have to tell myself she’s in a better place.”

My mom smiled.

I sat at my desk and looked up at the calendar hanging on my wall, July 16th. In small writing it said 4 Months with a drawing of a broken heart. For the past four months, entries made on the sixteenth were hard. I opened my journal and grabbed a pen and started reading.

April 16th

My legs have this jelly feeling in them right now. I’m sitting down luckily. I wish this was all a dream. I miss him so much. I lost my best friend. I caught myself a few days ago. I went to walk out to the living room. I expected to see my dad sitting there. I had something to tell him. When I finally got there, the room was empty. That’s when my heart sank. I slowly feel my dreams fading away. I feel like I’m losing hope. I wish I convinced my dad to eat healthier. He loved to eat. I wish he went out for walks more often. I wish I never phased. I’d be normal. He’d be alive. It wouldn’t have been such a shock in Seth phased. He is a male after all. All I remember is how cold he felt. God please just give him back

May 16th

Two months. It still feels like the day after it all happened. I feel so confused. My head feel’s like a race track with thoughts. My heart aches. I swear I can slowly feel feel it cracking. When something cracks, eventually it shatters. One thing about death, it ages you quickly. I don’t want anyone’s pity. I don’t want someone feeling bad for me. I just remembered my dads laugh. It was so warm and enthusiastic. His stomach shook when he laughed hard. It came from the soul. I’m not realizing, some of my hopes and dreams will never come true. I will never have him to walk me down the aisle, if I’m ever lucky enough.

June 16th

Where do I begin. It’s been a rough couple of weeks, actually months. My life feels like a ship stuck at sea. There have been these terrible storms, and the waves have been relentless. The ship has taken such a beating, it’s unfair. The ship is supposed to be so strong but slowly, it’s losing the battle to stay afloat. Slowly the crew have to give up on it. So they will either perish with the ship, or bring it back to shore to dock permanently. Seeing as though I’m the ship, I’d rather be let go. At least maybe then, I could find some peace.

I turned to the next page where I had taped something down. It was called, 

An Irish Funeral Prayer

Death is nothing at all.

It does not count.

I have only slipped away into the next room.

Everything remains as it was.

The old life that we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged.

Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.

Call me by the old familiar name.

Speak of me in the easy way which you always used.

Put no sorrow in your tone.

Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes that we enjoyed together

Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.

Let my name be ever the household word that it always was.

Let it be spoken without effort.

Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was.

There is unbroken community.

Why should I be out of my mind because I am out of sight?
I am but waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just around the corner.

All is well. Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost.

One brief moment and all will be as it was before.

How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting, when we meet again.

Author Unknown.

July 16th

It’s been four months. The past four months I’ve been building a wall around my heart. I just want to talk to him. To feel his hug. To feel his warmth. When I realize I’m all alone, my heart aches. I know there are people around me but it’s not the same. I don’t want to admit he’s gone. It’s easier to pretend he’s off fishing on the weekends. I don’t have anything else to write. What’s the point. Nothing’s going to bring him back.

I shut the journal and put it away in my desk. I sat there not sure what I wanted to do. I could easily hear the conversation going on between Billy and my mother. I wondered if Billy was jealous of Charlie and my mom showing an interest in one another. Was he the jealous type like his son. Maybe he had a hope of sneaking in and getting Charlie out of the picture. I was really losing it. All I knew was, I didn’t have it in me to deal with another love triangle. I’ve gone through two already. Being in Jacob’s thoughts was enough to, make us want to scream. Mine, well, I will never stop loving him. The only thing that will change that is, if I imprint, or I die. 

“So how are you and Charlie?” Billy asked.

I cocked my head towards the door and listened.

“We’re good. We are still are getting to know each other. Taking things slow to be safe. I don’t want to rush things. I don’t need the kids feeling like I’m trying to replace Harry.”

Billy looked at her with his dark eyes, “Sue, you deserve to be happy.”

She smiled, “Yes I do. I know Seth would take it easy. That’s just his nature. Leah, well that’s just another ticking time bomb. She’s like a volcano. I don’t know when she’ll explode.”

Billy laughed a little, “She’s quick tempered like, Paul. She’s got a good heart underneath the facade.”

I was bored with this conversation. I tuned out.

I turned my head slightly. That’s when I noticed it. The flicker of light off of the latch. I crawled onto the floor and reached under my bed, retrieving the small wooden box. I leaned against my bed, placing the box in my lap. Inside were a few cards, a couple of notes and a letter from Sam. I felt the rush of emotions take over as I picked up the items. First was a small note. 

Good morning beautiful,

Thank you for being in my life. I love you Leah. 


My heart started to ache. Then next was the card. I remember the conversation so easily.

“Happy Valentines Day, babe.” His warm smile, made me blush and my heart melt.

“You too.” I leaned in to kiss him, as he wrapped his arms around my waist.

“So I got you something small, just a card.”

I smiled, “I feel bad. I didn’t get you anything.”

Sam carefully placed a finger on my lips. “Oh but Leah you did. You gave my your heart. You gave me your trust. You’ve given me your love.”

I started to tear up,

“That’s so sweet.” He chuckled, “Just like you.”

He scooped me up off my feet and carried me along the beach. “So will you promise to be mine, forever?” he asked looking into my eyes.

“Of course. Will you be mine?”

He laughed, “Of course.” he said carefully setting me down at our spot on the beach. He pulled the card out of his back pocket, “Don’t laugh at me because I went all mushy. I love you Leah.”

I smiled, “Mushy is ok.” He sat down pulling me into his lap, wrapping his arms around me. I took the card opening it, 

Sometimes when I look at you,

I can hardly believe you’re mine.

I think about

how attractive you are,

how caring and sensitive,

how interesting and funny,

and I can hardly believe

that out of this whole world of people,

I was lucky enough to find you.

Sometimes when I look at you,

I remember what it was like

in the beginning, when we were just

getting to know each other

I’ll never forget

the nervous excitement

I used to feel every time I saw you...

and I smile every time

I relieve the tenderness

of our very first kiss

Sometimes when I look at you

I get lost in memories

of special times

we’ve shared,

in daydreams of the happiness

we’ve yet to discover together.

Every time I look at you,

I realize how much I love

the love we share

and how very much

I love you

Renee Duvall

Sorry I couldn’t put it into my own words Leah, but you make my head detach from brain. This is truly how I feel. I love you baby. Happy Valentines Day. You’ll always hold a special place in my heart.


I carefully slid the card back in the envelope and kissed him. 

“Earth to Leah. Come in Leah.” My mom was standing there,

“Huh?” I looked up quickly putting the card back in it’s envelope, and shoved it back in the box.

“Billy and I are going to head to get some ice cream. We were wondering if you might want to tag along?”

I looked at her, “No I will pass. Sorry. Just tired.”

She nodded, “I’ll be back in a little bit.” She was out of my doorway and heading out the door with Billy.

I pushed the box back under my bed, along with my heart. As badly as I wanted to be over Sam, I couldn’t be. I had given him my everything. He took my heart and smashed it against the cold hard ground.

My mom came home a little bit later. Charlie was over like usual. We quietly ate dinner. Had to pretend like we, were some happy family. Well the three of them were. I hated the whole acting thing. I didn’t like the idea of my mom moving on so suddenly. I thought she was supposed to miss my dad so much. Take her time finding someone new to fill the void in her life. Were we not enough? I was being selfish. My whole world had been turned upside down within months. Now I was supposed to just, deal with it, move on. It wasn’t happening. I was angry and I needed answers.

Weeks were passing and the days moved quicker. Every time I went into the kitchen I saw the calendar marked, WEDDING on August 13th. I was not going to attend that show. I’m all set with being vampire bate. What happened if the leeches got thirsty at the party? Would the guests become an appetizing drink?

Seth nudged me a little, “Leah I want to get something out of the fridge.”

I shook my head and walked into the living room. I sat down and looked out the window. the warm breeze blew through the open window.

“That feels so nice, doesn’t it?” My mom smiled sitting down on the couch.

“Yeah just wonderful.” I was polite enough to hide the sarcasm.

Seth came out after finishing a carton of orange juice. “Mom we need more juice.” Seth said flopping his long gangly body on the couch.

“Seth come on. I just bought that two days ago.”

I looked over at both of them, “He drank it in the past two days. Brat hasn’t shared it at all.”

Seth smirked, “I’m a growing boy mom.”

He nudged my mom and she laughed. I got up and walked out the front door.

“One of her moods again?” Seth asked.

My mom shook her head, “No hun. She seemed to have something on her mind. Distracted.”

Seth nodded.

I walked down to the beach and kicked off my flip flops. I walked right into the water and started swimming around. It felt so nice to be in the water. I swam through the waves and smiled. I actually laughed when I got hit by a wave. I realized I wasn’t alone. Someone was standing on the beach looking at me. Then I saw him walking into the water.

“Wow. Wish I had a camera for this. Leah Clearwater, laughing.” Embry smiled.

I shook my head and smiled, “I do have a fun side. Just felt the need to go swimming.”

Embry laughed, “Clothes and all. You picked a good time to come. Not a lot of people around. It’s like your own private beach.”

I nodded, “So what brought you down here? On the hunt to find your, “Imprint.” I smiled.

Embry shook his head, “Nah. Just needed to get away from home for a bit. Just doing a lot of thinking.” He waded until the water was up to his waist and looked at me.

“What?” I laughed.

He shrugged, “Nothing.”

We swam quietly within the waves for some time until time told us we should head home.

A couple of weeks passed with no action, and I was thankful. It was August 12th and I was bored, “Mom want me to go do some grocery shopping?” I asked her grabbing the keys to my dad’s truck.

“Yeah that would be great if you don’t mind.”

I smiled and was out the door and on my way down the road before she could say goodbye. I spent my time thinking when I drove. I wondered who would be next to imprint. I pulled into the parking lot and hopped out and retrieved a cart and started shopping. I walked up and down the aisle’s picking things up I knew we needed. I got to the orange juice I bought several cartons. So help, if Seth drank all these in two days, I’d kill him. I finished up shopping and checked out. I put the groceries in the truck and drove home.

Seth was on the phone with Bella,

“Tell Edward I said hi, ‘kay?”

“Sure thing.”
“Ah,” Seth said, his voice cracking up an octave. 
“Er, Leah’s home.”


“Oh! Bye!”

I pulled into the driveway and parked.

Seth came out and helped me, “Billy’s visiting.”

I nodded, “Drink all the orange juice, and you’ll be a fur rug.” #

Seth laughed, “I won’t promise. I’ll make it last 3 days.”

I just shook my head and eyed him.

He looked nervous, “Everything ok?” He shook his head,

“Yeah.” I went inside and noticed the phone was about to fall off the table. She had called. Seth was afraid of me getting upset.

“Hello Leah.” Billy smiled.

“Hey Billy.” I put away the groceries and went to my room.

“Thank you Leah.” My mom called out.

“Yeah whatever.” I flopped on my bed and wondered, was Billy was trying to win my mom over. Maybe he had a hope of sneaking her away from Charlie. In all honesty I couldn’t deal with another love triangle. I might just kill myself. I laid down and fell asleep.

I woke up the next day and it was later in the day already. The sun had already made it’s way to the western sky. I looked at my calendar, August 13th.

“Mom, I’m ready.” Seth called out.

I sat up rubbing my eyes, “Damn what time is it?”

My mom was in my door way, “Time for you, to wake up. Seth and I will be heading out soon.”

I looked at the clock, “Oh man it’s 3:45pm. Why’d you let me sleep so late.”

Seth piped up as usual, “Because the house was quiet while your dead to the world.”

I shook my head and pulled myself off the bed and poked my head in my mom’s room, “You look nice mom.”

She smiled, “Thank you.”

The last time I saw her dressed up was at my dad’s funeral. She was wearing a light purple summery dress. It was loose fitting. She had on some lilac colored flats. She was wearing a pair of small pearl earrings, my dad bought her. She smiled softly. She didn’t need any makeup. She had the most beautiful complexion.

She looked at me, “Are you ok?”

I nodded, “Yeah. I’m going to get something to eat.” I left her to finish getting ready and went to the kitchen.

I opened the fridge and pulled out stuff to make a sandwich.

Seth appeared, “Are you sure you won’t come? The invitation was for all of us.” Seth spoke rather softly compared to normal.

I shook my head, “Nope! I’d rather be stung multiple times by Jellyfish than attend that wedding. Please tell her I couldn’t get her a wedding gift. I’m having trouble picking up the piece’s of Jacob’s broken heart. He’s run away, and refuses to come back home.”

Seth glared at me, “You’re such a jerk.”

My mom walked out before I could say anything, “Seth let’s get going. Leah we’ll see you in a little bit.”

I smiled a little and muttered, “As long as you’re not an appetizer.”

Seth heard me and growled and walked out the door.

I quietly made my sandwich and ate it. 

I had time to kill and a house to myself. I lounged around and watched a movie. It was eerily quiet. I wondered what was going on at the “wedding”. I felt bad for my mom. She didn’t want to go. She refused to let Seth venture into a vampire wedding alone. Plus Billy needed a ride there. I fought to keep my eyes open until the sandman won once again. I was sprawled across the couch. I slept until the front door flung open.

“Seth what’s going on? Please talk to me.” My mom was pleading.

“Leave me alone ok.” He stormed off to his room slamming the door.

I startled awake and sat up, “What happened? What’s going on?”

My mom looked at me, “I’m not sure. Your brother is quite upset. Maybe you can talk to him.”

I nodded, “I will try.” I got up and knocked on his door, “Seth?”

There was a growl, “Just go away Leah.”

I knocked again, “Seth what happened?”

His door flung open, “What didn’t happen Leah? I had to pull Jacob away from Bella. He snapped. Then it get’s better Sam was in the woods, with Quil and Embry babysitting me. They hung out there in wolf form. I can’t go to my friends wedding without being watched.”

I sighed, “I’m sorry. He doesn’t trust the Cullen’s like you do. I don’t either.”

Seth got angrier, “Go away.” He slammed the door again in my face and locked it and turned on music.

I peeked in on my mom. She had fallen asleep in her room. I shut off the television in her room, and shut the door. I laid on my bed for a while. I didn’t know what to do. I was angry at Sam for not trusting my brother. But then I understood that Seth was to comfortable with believing the Cullen’s wouldn’t hurt him. I finally fell asleep while thinking.

The next day I woke up as the sun for once broke through the grey sky. I decided to make breakfast for everyone. The coffee pot was already brewing. I pulled out mugs, glasses and plates. Charlie was already lightly knocking on the door at 6:45am.

“Morning Charlie.” I smiled opening the door.

“Hey Leah. Everyone asleep?”

I shrugged, “Seth probably is. He was angry last night. My mom fell asleep just after she got home.”

He nodded, “Any coffee yet?” He smiled gently.

“I can have some ready. Come sit down and relax.” He sat down at the table as the coffee just finished brewing. I poured him a cup and set it down in front of him. “Thanks Leah.” He smiled and looked at the paper.

I went back to making breakfast. My mom walked out smiling still in her pajama’s. “This is a nice treat. Thank you Leah.” She walked over and kissed Charlie on the cheek. He wrapped an arm around her waist pulling her closer.

“So you’re all mine today?” He smiled.

She giggled softly, and I laughed.

“Bella looked beautiful yesterday. That was a gorgeous dress. The whole whole wedding was beautiful.”

Charlie nodded, “Yeah. Alice worked very hard on all of that. I just can’t believe my little girl is married now. Bella Cullen. Sounds so strange to me.”

My mom smiled, “I can imagine.”

Charlie smiled, “As long as they are both happy that’s what matters. As long as he treats her well and keeps her safe that’s what’s important.”

I stayed quiet knowing what was going to happen to her. I’d wondered if she was already being turned as they spoke. I finished making breakfast and put it on the plates. I set down two plates by Charlie and my mom. I also brought over a cup of coffee for her as well.

My mom sat down beside Charlie and started eating. I left a plate for Seth at his seat if he ever came out. I took my usual seat and dove into my food. Seth came out a few minutes later. Seth was never angry. His face was showing a mix of emotions, angry, hurt, confused but most of all, vulnerable. I never knew one’s persons face could show so many emotions. Mom and Charlie talked quietly. I looked at Seth, as he kept his head down eating. Once he finished, he pushed away from the table and went back to his room.

My mom looked at me, “Has he spoken to you?”

I shook my head, “Not really.” I lied. Last night I felt so bad for Seth.

“Let him cool off. He’s a boy.” Charlie smiled and finished his coffee.

After breakfast, I showered and got dressed. I decided to go for a walk. Like usual I ended up at the beach. I sat down in the sand and just looked up. The beach was rather quiet for a weekend.

Some time later Jacob found, “I need to talk to you. I owe Seth an apology.”

I looked up at him. “So go apologize to him. He’s at home.”

Jacob growled, “Do you ever shut up Leah?”

I stood up and looked at him, “Do you ever stop chasing other guys girls?”

He snarled then, “Listen I screwed up bad ok. Your brother pulled me away from killing Cullen last night. Then Sam had to get involved.”

I looked at him, “Seth pulled you away. Wow.”

Jacob nodded, “Just tell him I’m sorry when you see him.” I nodded and watched him take off for the woods. Now I was very curious to know what happened. I would have paid to see Jacob kill a leech.

I finally came back home just before dinner.

My mom smiled, “Sam wants you to call him.”

I raised an eyebrow, “Did he say why?”

She shook her head, “It sounded important. Just call.”

I stood up and walked out of the room. I went to my room and sat on the bed, and called Sam at Emily’s house.

“Hello.” Emily answered,

“Sam called.” I spoke keeping my voice monotone. I heard the rustle of her handing him the phone.

“Hello Leah.” His voice caused my heart to speed up a little.

“You called my mom said.” I tried to act like, talking to him didn’t bother me. It was hard.

“Yes I did. So Jacob had a small incident at the wedding. I listened, “I caught part of it. What exactly happened. All I know is Jacob and Seth are both pissed.” I waited to hear the story of the night. “Jacob grabbed Bella last night. He’s angry because of a choice she is making. Seth pulled him off.”

I rolled my eyes. “Yeah I heard all that. So what’s this about you babysitting Seth? My mom was there with him.”

Sam sighed, “Leah we couldn’t take any chances. Plus Jacob was going to be there. We needed to make sure nobody would get hurt.”


I was aggravated now, “Dammit Sam just chill. You’ve pissed off Seth. So you better tell him you were there just for Jacob.”

Sam became angrier, “Leah, it was for his protection. For your mothers.”

I growled, “Still lying I see.”

Sam piped up, “I’m not lying. I couldn’t trust Jacob alone there. He almost hurt Bella.” 


I scoffed, “Oh well.”

Sam was pissed now, “Leah stop it.” So I did. Click! I hung up the phone.

I got up off my bed, and knocked on Seth’s door. 


“Go away.” Seth grumbled.

“Just listen. Jacob wanted to apologize to you. He said he’s sorry ok.”

There was no answer. I was just about to turn around and head back to my room.

The door unlocked, “Come in.”

I slowly turned the handle opening the the door slightly. I slid in quietly looking around the room. Seth was laying on his bed. I sat down at the foot of the bed. “I’m sorry I snapped at you last night. I let them get to me. Just Jacob almost snapped. He grabbed Bella by her arms, and was so angry. I know you don’t like her. She’s my friend and he almost hurt her.”

A small sigh escaped me, “I understand she’s your friend.”

Seth look so hurt, “You all hate her. This animosity is ridiculous Leah. She’s an adult. She can make her own decisions. I don’t care what some treaty says.”

I looked at him, “Seth we phase to protect the land. The treaty was put in place by our ancestors.”

Seth sat up quickly and looked at me, “For someone you hate so much, you act just like him.”

I looked at Seth.

“Leah don’t play the confused card. You’re just like Sam. Your a bruiting, angry, crazy wolf. You think you know everything. Guess what? News flash. You don’t. The Cullen’s aren’t bad at all. Nobody wants to give them a chance. I did. So deal with it. I understand what Bella wants. She’s going to have a real honeymoon with her husband. It pissed Jacob off. You all need to mind your own business.”

I looked at Seth a bit shocked, “Whoa. He’ll...”

Seth cut me off, “Shut up Leah. I don’t need to hear Jacob’s word’s come out of your mouth. Remember you don’t care about her or what happens to her.” Seth was off the bed and out of his room.

“Seth where are you going?” My mom called out.

The front door slammed shut. I got up and followed after him. “What is going on?” My mom asked me,

“Don’t worry about it. I’ve got it.”

Charlie looked at my mom, “Teenagers?” She smiled.

I chased Seth down the road, “Get back here.”

Seth clenched his fists, “Get the hell away from me.”

I grabbed him by his shoulder, “Will you chill out.”

Seth whipped around and shoved me off of him, “Don’t touch me you crazy wolf.” He turned around and stomped off down the road.

I stood there and watched him take off. He continued to the tree line and slipped inside. I heard a growl come from the woods and then the thudding of his heavy paws running through the woods. I wasn’t going to alert Sam. I blame him for all of this. I finally walked back to the house and walked inside.

My mom looked up at me, as Charlie kept an arm wrapped around her, “Can I please ask what’s going on?”

I looked at her. “Go ahead and ask. I can’t provide any answers.” I walked off to my room and shut the door.

Charlie kissed my mom gently on her forehead, “Don’t worry about it Sue. Things will work them self out.”

She smiled and leaned up kissing him. It was getting later in the afternoon. Charlie and my mom were laughing and talking. Then they moved into my mom’s room. I heard some music come on a little louder than normal. I cringed only imaging what they might be doing. I just heard giggling and some laughter before I put my headphones on. Dinner time passed and I was on my own. I think my mom and Charlie fell asleep. I waited up, until my eyelids were dead weights. I decided to give up on Seth. He would be home in a little bit.

I dragged myself to bed and passed out. I tossed and turned and got up check several times in the night to see if, he might have come home. His bed was still empty. I was rather concerned. It was unlike Seth to take off like this. I finally went back to bed and slept until sometime in the late morning. I got up and checked Seth’s room. Sleeping quietly there we was sprawled across his bed. I quietly slipped out and walked into the kitchen. Charlie and my mom were sitting there and talking.

“Good morning Leah.” My mom smiled.

I smirked, “I think I should be saying GOOD morning to you two.” I grabbed a bowl pouring some cereal and then grabbed the milk.

Charlie turned a shade of red I’ve never seen before. “That’s my cue to leave.” I took my bowl of cereal back to my room and ate at my desk.

“Well Sue. I should get home. I need to do a few things and take a shower. I will call you in a little bit.” Charlie stood up and kissed my mom.

My mom smiled, “Ok. I will walk you out.” They quietly headed outside. Charlie pulled my mom close and kissed her gently. He held her face ever so gently in his hands. She wrapped her arms around his waist, “I love you.”

He smiled, “I love you too.”

I heard it all happen. I couldn’t help but see it. I felt my heart slide out of my chest and into my throat. The tears slid down my cheeks. I just wanted to feel what they were having, I wanted to feel - Love. 




























































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