After Sam left he went down to the beach for a while. He found himself at our old spot. His fingers ran through the sand. The moon was lighting the waves as they crashed onto the shore. “What have I done?” he looked out across the water.
The pain Sam had caused me weighing heavily on his conscious. “It’s my fault. Emily’s face. God I’m a monster.” He looked down beside him on the sand, and there sat the letter. I wrote the letter back when we broke up, when he left me for Emily. Tonight he finally had it. It had been sitting in my journal with his name on it. When I threw my journal it fell out. He slowly opened the paper and read it.
Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark,
I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were, what happened?
You were a priority, was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
He just looked at the paper. “Leah I’m so sorry. I couldn’t help it.” he said out loud.
Emily was at home and just finished folding laundry and had put it away. She sat down on the couch waiting for Sam to come home. Finally the clock was reading 12:44am. “Goodnight Sam. Hope your okay?” She got up and turned off the lights and went to bed.
Sam sat on the beach until the sun started to rise behind the clouds. He grabbed the letter and headed back to Emily’s. When he arrived at the house the sky was still covered with clouds. He slowly made his way inside and laid down on the couch and fell asleep. The letter fell to the floor.
Emily woke up a little later. The clock read 8:00am. She rolled out of bed and pulled on her bathrobe and made her way to the living room. There she found Sam sound asleep. She went to cover him up when she noticed the letter. She picked it up and sat down at the kitchen table and read it. She sat there for a while then folded it back up and placed it on the table.
Hours past and Sam finally woke up to find Emily sitting quietly in the living room reading. “Emily.”
She set down her book, “Hello. So what time did you come home at?” she looked at Sam as he sat up.
“Sometime this morning towards sun rise. I had a lot on my mind.”
Emily nodded, “So we need to talk.”
Sam became a little concerned, “What’s wrong? Are you ok?” he started to stand up.
“Sam I’m ok. Just sit please.” he slowly moved back. “What’s going on with you and Leah? I understand if you want to be with her. I will move back to the Makah reservation. I can start a new life.”
Sam quickly interrupted, “Whoa, wait up. You're not going any where. I don’t want to be with her. You're my imprint. I love you Emily. I don’t think I could go on without you. What brought all this on?”
Emily looked down at her hands, “Leah told me yesterday about her, pregnancy scare with you. I didn’t realize you two had been together in that manner. I thought I knew everything. Then I found the letter she wrote to you. Sam, I...” Emily just stopped talking.
Sam walked over to her and squatted in-front of her. He carefully took her scarred face in his large warm hands, “Emily, I’m sorry. I love you and I am with you. I will never leave you. I didn’t think it was important for me to tell you.”
Emily looked at him, “Sam she’s my cousin. She was like my sister. She gave you EVERYTHING! Everything that was important to her.” Her hands begin to tremble.
Sam let out a sigh and looked down, “I’ve tried to apologize countless times. She just doesn’t accept it. I know what I did was wrong. I’m sorry.” Sam was in pain and Emily could see that.
She pulled his hands from her face and hugged him, “Promise me anything else, you’ll tell me?!”
Sam nodded, “I promise Emily.”
He stood up, “I need to take a shower. Give me 10 minutes.” he kissed Emily on the top of her head and was off.
Emily sat quietly and looked out the window. She watched two birds fly with one another so gracefully. She wondered if they mated for life. There seemed to be such a bond between the two of them. There was warmth embracing her and a kiss on her cheek,
“I’m back.” Sam spoke softly. She smiled faintly.
“So what happened between Sue and Leah? She was very, and I mean very upset when she came here. I think it was a last resort for her.” Emily turned around to look at him.
Sam nodded and sat down on the floor in-front of her.
She looked at him, “I’ve only seen Leah cry twice like she did yesterday. What’s going on? I guess Leah tried talking to Sue. I heard it had a much different outcome then Leah had expected.”
Sam cleared his throat, “Remember when Sue called here and, asked me to come over?” Emily nodded. “Leah phased on Sue. Leah went to take off and Sue followed. Sue wasn’t physically hurt. She couldn’t believe Leah did that. Well after I found Leah and she came back home, her attitude came out.” Emily inched close to the edge of her seat. “Billy told Leah she needed to show more respect. Well that’s when it started. I said to Leah she can’t phase on people. That’s when the gasoline hit the fire. Leah turned to look at me and said, “If I remember correctly Emily was conveniently mauled by a bear. Sam don’t try and pretend like I don’t know. I hear your thoughts. Don’t forget that. You were angry and you phased. You mauled her face.” She was so nasty about it. Sue snapped at her and yelled at her to stop. She said, “I want the old Leah back.” Sue was practically in tears. That’s when Leah turned and looked at her and said, “The old Leah died. Her heart was broken. She was betrayed by her own blood. Nothing will ever bring her back. You can thank those filthy blood suckers for that. Now if you don’t mind I’m done with this little pow wow. The concern is getting old. Move on because I have. Worry about Seth not me. I’m lost and there’s no coming back.”
Emilys mouth fell open. “How was Sue when you left her last night?” Emily looked really upset.
Sam shrugged, “She looked like she had gone through Harry’s funeral again. She looked so lost.”
Emily swallowed hard, “I feel so bad for Leah. She’s gone through so much. I know she’s angry at me, but I still love her like my sister. I worry about her.”
Sam let it slip, “The girl is damaged. There’s no fixing her.”
Emily’s head snapped up and locked eyes with Sam. “What did you say about my cousin?”
Sam backed up a little, “Emily it’s the truth. She’s not capable of being fixed if she doesn’t want to be.”
Emily stood up, “Sam Uley, how dare you. You jerk. You took her virginity then broke her heart. Your supposed to be her alpha. This is how you talk about her behind her back. Your supposed to guide her. Get out now.”
Sam stood up, “Excuse me. I’m not the jerk. I’m just saying how I feel. She constantly reminds me of what I’ve done to her. She doesn’t ease up. She makes everyone know how angry she is with me. It’s not fair. She uses her telepathy when we phase as a weapon.”
Emily snapped, “Good you deserve it you jerk.” she turned and walked into the bedroom and slammed the door shut behind her.
Sam growled and left the house and started running and phased and took off.
Days passed and it was Saturday evening when Jacob and Billy came over for dinner. There was a knock on the door,
“Leah please get the door.” my mom asked as she was finishing up dinner.
“Yep.” I walked over and opened it slightly, “Nobody’s home.” I smirked.
Jacob laughed and Billy looked surprised, “Wow, are you the ghost of the house.” he smiled.
I opened the door so they could come in.
“Hey boys.” my mom called out.
Billy rolled himself into the kitchen.
“So can we talk?” I asked Jacob.
“Yeah.” he smiled and we went to my room and shut the door. “So what’s up?” he asked.
“I assume your dad told you about my little outburst a few nights ago?” Jacob nodded. “I snapped at Sam that night and I haven’t heard from him or seen him.”
Jacob raised an eyebrow, “I don’t wanna know what you said to him.” he smirked a little.
I rolled my eyes, “Trust me it wasn’t nice. I used Emily’s scar’s as a weapon.”
Jacob cringed, “Ouch.”
I shook my head, “Yeah. He just had to add his input.” Jake nodded. “Well I threw my journal on the couch and I had a letter in there for Sam. When I came home I grabbed my journal out of the living room. Well the letter isn’t in there. I think it fell out and he found it.”
Jake took a deep breath, “How bad was it?” he asked.
“I just wrote how I truly felt.” he just nodded.
“So I was hanging out with Bella and I, sort of filled Bella in on some of the love triangle with,” Jake paused and I looked at him. “I must say Bella feels bad for what happened to you. She think’s Sam is well she thought he was a jerk. She sort of understood the imprinting thing.” I listened and sighed, “Leah what was I supposed to do. She’s my best friend. I can’t hide everything from her.”
I stayed focused, “Anything else I should know about. Did you tell her my bra size while you were at it?” I let a small smirk appear.
“No even I don’t know that.” Jacob laughed. I was sitting there when Jake leaned in, “So get this, the leech didn’t tell her about our run in with the red head.” I was a bit puzzled, “Yeah he took her away to see her mom. See one of the small Cullen’s who looks like a pixie, Alice I think. Well she can see the future I guess. She saw her coming and Edward saw her thoughts. He used the excuse to take Bella to Florida to see her mom. She was never in any danger.”
I shook my head, “Real nice. We put our necks on the line to protect her and she’s not even here.”
Jacob gave a grin, “Oh don’t worry. I let him pick apart my thoughts. I purposely thought about when he left her. How she looked when Sam found her and the weeks following. Payback to that stupid leech.”
I was curious, “How did you get to see her if he’s keeping her away from here?”
Jake smiled, “She left work early and appeared down here without him knowing. I just hope she’s ok. She said she’d try and come back soon.”
My mom called out from the kitchen, “Dinner.”
Jacob was to his feet in seconds. There was a sound of elephants running through the house. By the time I got out to the kitchen Jacob and Seth had already finished everything on their plates and were going for seconds. I sat down and quietly ate my dinner.
My mom and Billy quietly spoke. “So how are things going on here at the house?” Billy smiled.
“There actually really good.” my mom smiled.
I stayed quiet and finished eating. “May I be excused?”
Mom looked at Billy a little shocked then at me. “That would be fine Leah.” she smiled and I went to the living room and sat down and watched tv quietly.
“She was very polite. Sue I know your a nurse but you can’t drug your kid.” Billy laughed.
My mom shook her head, “I don’t know what happened. It’s like she’s a new kid.” she smiled.
Jacob and Seth finished and headed to his room and started talking and listening to music. I laid on the couch and watched Girl Interrupted. Billy and my mom just talked for a while until it was time to go home. I finished my movie and said goodnight. Jake and Billy left. Seth was quiet in his room and my mom was reading in the living room. I was tired and decided to shut off the light and get some sleep.
The week passed and it was rather uneventful. It was Friday afternoon when there was a knock on the door.
“I’m coming hold on.” I called rolling myself off the couch. I got up and there was jake his hair was soaking wet and he came in furious.
“She’s dead. She’s dead to me. I hate her so much and him. GOD!”
I shut the door and grabbed a towel for Jake to dry off a little.
“She’s so stupid. So blind.” he was yelling.
“Jake calm down. What’s going on?”
He took the towel and dried his hair and wiped off his face and arms. “She’s going to be one of them in weeks. WEEKS LEAH! I can’t get her to realize what a stupid thing she’s doing. I told her about the treaty and that by doing such an act the treaty would be broken They changed another person to be like them. I told her, “You’d be better off dead. I rather you were.” She snapped back at me and said, “Maybe I’d get lucky. Maybe she’d get hit by a truck on her way back.” She took off on her motorcycle and that’s it. I haven’t heard from her.” he let his body collapse onto the couch.
“Jake you need to let her go. I know she’s your friend but it’s not worth it. She wants to turning into one of those things, let her. She’s going to get them all killed. Sam won’t stand for it.”
Jacob sighed and I could see his eyes were red and watery. I felt bad for him. Personally if I could I would love to show her the pain she was putting Jake through.
The phone rang, “Hello?”
Emily’s voice was on the other end, “Um hey Leah have you seen Sam?”
I was confused, “Uh no why?”
There was a pause, “We got into a huge fight and he took off. Thanks. I will talk to you later.” the phone went dead. I sat there in disbelief.
The letter is a song by the band Across Five Aprils and the song is A Year From Now.
There were some things taken from Stephanie Meyers Eclipse.