We got Sam, Calum, and I all got inside of the bus, Ashton with our mums in that bus, but I didn't know where Ashley and Luke were.
Sam pulled out his phone and walked into the back room, and I sat die in the couch with Calum.
"Where's Ashley and Luke?"
"I saw him pull her to the side while we were walki..."
He was cut off as Ashley opened and shut the door.
She had teary eyes.
"What's the matter?"
I said standing up.
"Why aren't I good enough?"
She said now letting a full stream of tears fall from her eyes.
I pulled her into a hug, and squeezed her tightly, still not sure as to what happened.
She cried into my shirt.
"Ashley, your the best person out there, don't put yourself down."
I said kissing the top of her head, she continued crying.
Calum got up and puller her away from me.
He hugged her.
"What's wrong Ashley?"
He said rocking her back and forth.
She just hugged him back, not speaking.
Sam said walking over from the back room.
She gave Calum a tight squeeze then turned to Sam.
He said to her grabbing her hand.
He looked at me and I shrugged, knowing he wanted to know what had happened.
I watched as he walked back into the back room with her, then closed the door.
I sat in sam's embrace,still crying.
"What's wrong. Why are you crying?"
But I didn't want to talk about it.
He's one of my best friends, I've known him my whole life, he's basically another brother to me, and I don't know what I would do without him.
I didn't speak, and he knew I didn't want to talk.
"It's alright.let it out."
He said,rubbing my back.
I don't get why Luke broke up with me, why he would say that.
After about almost ten minutes waiting for Luke, so we could leave, he finally walked in the door.
"You look like shit man."
Calum said as he sat down.
Luke's face was red,his eyes were red, and his cheeks were wet. He was obviously crying.
He didn't say much either, just sat there, starring at the floor.
"Ashton made me break up with her."
He finally said.
He had told me before the show that he had asked her. How the hell did Ashton find out already.
"I had to lie to her."
He said as he started to cry again.
"I told her I changed my mind. I told her I realized I didn't feel about her as I thought I did.that I was wrong."
Calum scooted closer to him and patted his back.
"I lied, I lied,I lied, I lied!!! I'm a horrible person. I told her other stuff,that I can't believe I said.i broke her heart, I broke her beautiful heart."
"Why would Ashton do that!?"
I said moving next to him.
"I don't know, he told me I'd only ruin her, make her worse."
It broke me to see them both crying, to see then both upset.
The bus was about to pull off but I stopped it my walking out.
I walked over to our mums bus where Ashton was sitting outside.
"What the fuck has gotten into you. Where is Ashton?!!!! How could you do that to your little sister.!!"
I said pissed off at him.
"I didn't do anything to her. I'm watching out for her."
I shook my head.
"If you were looking out for her, you would do what was best for her!!"
"REALLY?! And what is best for her, LUKE!!?"
He said standing up In front of me.
"Yea Luke is what's best for her. That boy in there is head over heals in love with your sister,he always has been, and you know it. And you sure as hell know the same about her!!!"
He didn't speak.
"Exactly!! Your sister is a big girl, and can love who she wants, and shouldn't have to run it past you. Your a great older brother to her, but right now your being a really shitty one. Your little sister in the back of that bus balling her eyes out to Sam, and your band mate, your best friend Luke, yea I've never seen him cry that much I my life. And your the reason why!!"
"The world hates me!"
I said, not letting go of Sam.
"Stop it, that's not true,The world loves you."
"Well then everyone in it hates me, I can't be loved."
"Ashley damn it stop! everyone loves you. And right now Your basically saying I don't love you, and I love you more than anything, and you know that, right?"
He said grabbing my face, turning it up to him.
He kissed my cheek.
"Exactly. Now quite saying things like that. Your a blessing to this world. Don't start this again."
"I never stopped, so I can't start what I never stopped."
I told him with my eyes still full of tears.
He sat me down on the couch, and sat next to me.
He grabbed my wrists, sand pushed up my bracelets.
"I haven't done anything since I left to come on tour."
I told him.
A few tears fell down his cheeks.
He ran his hands across my scars.
"They're worse from when I last saw you."
He said, a couple more tears escaping. Him crying made me feel like shit, which made me cry even more.
"Because you've been gone. I need you Sam.What am I supposed to do when I don't have you to stop me."
"Cal me! Ill always talk to you."
He said pulling me back into a hug.
"A call isn't good enough. Your my best friend, and I can't live without you there. I have no one."
"You have your mom Ashley."
He said squeezing me.
"It's not the same. She just thinks I'm a crazy. You don't know how many times she's had me put into the hospital for weeks at a time. Everyone just thinks I'm fucking crazy!!! I can't deal with everyone anymore!. You and the boys are the only ones who treat me like a normal person, and not a mental patient. Ashton doesn't even trust me to cut a goddamn Apple by myself.!! Please Sam, please,come back.I need my best friend back."
I could hear him crying even more now.
"Ashley, I can't just quite college. My parents paid a lot of money for me to go to the school I'm at."
"But I need you,I'm scared."
I said, my tears dropping onto his shirt.
"What are you scared of?"
"Myself...what am I supposed to do when I give up,a call won't bring you to me, to stop me from giving up."
He didn't answer this time, just kept on crying.
"I know I'm slowly giving up on myself, but please don't give up on me, your all I have left."
"I won't, don't worry, I'll always be here for you. I promise."
He said squeezing me one more time before standing up.
"I'll be right back."
He said walking out of the room. Before he shut the door I caught a glimpse of Luke... He looked like he had been crying. But why? He was the one who said Those things.