3. Taking Jace to school
I'm taking Jace to school today before going to hang out with a friend and Kaiser. He started a few weeks ago and me, my mom and Nathan watched proudly as he strided into his classroom and sat down next to a friend he knew from daycare. I'm meeting my friend Lauren who also has a child herself who is younger than Jace by a year. I haven't seen her in a long time and she hasn't met Kaiser yet so it'll be their first meeting. I take Jace to his classroom and stay talking to some of the other moms who are cooing over Kaiser who's smiling and laughing at them. I think I've made it work 2nd time around and I wish that I had done it this was with Jace so when I get custody one day, I'm going to make it work again. I meet Lauren at around 12 as I had some errands to run for Nathan, who's working today as he has a new job and my mom. We have a good catch up about what we've been getting up to recently and about how Jace and Kaiser are doing. I leave at around 1:30 and head over to my moms so she can see Kaiser for a few hours and look after him so I can go and pick up Jace from school. My mom says she'll take Kaiser off my hands so I can have a nap before picking up Jace. I know my mom did the best she could have ever done caring for Jace for me, but I'm hoping that she will understand when I tell her about wanting to get him back in the future and I will do whatever I can to repay her for all that she's done for me. I never show my feelings towards her, meaning that I haven't really ever said thank you to her for looking after her own baby's baby for 5 years. I'm hoping that if I decide to try soon, our relationship will get stronger and better and she will understand that I need to prove myself a better mother than I did when he was born.