As Melissa told me about Liam I began to sob. I never wanted to see him get hurt. Even before when I was only just another fan in the crowd, I would have seen red at the mention of Liam getting hurt. Everyone knows that as a directioner if anyone brings harm to the boys it means war. I couldn’t be mad, instead I was trembling with sadness. I would do anything to apologize to Liam, but I am afraid that I might be too late to do that.
I imagined his perfect face laughing and smiling at we rode those rollercoasters at Thorpe Park. He was so care-free. Liam was laughing so hard that his eyes squinted and his head tilted back. Oh how I would give anything to just take that moment back. I would have never left his side and I would have made sure that he was safe, but I didn’t. I ran off to the bathroom, and I left Liam alone. Melissa told me they didn’t find who took Liam, but they suspected it was a white male in his early twenties. I would bet everything I own that it was my ex-boyfriend Kyle. I wish Kyle would have known just how Liam meant to so many people. Liam was the biggest motivator. Liam was the sweetheart that knew what to say to someone to make them feel better. Liam was the reason for so many people’s smiles. Liam was the reason people stopped using spoons. Most importantly Liam was everything to girls like me. He was that prince charming that we had been dreaming of all our lives. And most importantly Liam was mine.
I shook my head and sobbed harder as Melissa continued. Aiden tried consoling me, but there wasn’t anything they could do. How can anyone mend a broken heart that has been shattered to bits and pieces? Every time I closed my eyes I saw Liam’s smiling face, and it broke me even more. I finally saw what all the fans had been telling me since day one. I never deserved Liam and I was a fucking idiot to believe that I did. I was stupid to ever think that I was worthy of being loved by someone as sweet and amazing as Liam James Payne.
My sobbing continued into the night, even after Aiden and Melissa left. Every time I felt like I was consoled I taught about Liam telling me that he loved me. I tried wiping my tears away as I grabbed my cellphone and dialed the one person I needed to talk to the most right now. It felt like my heart stopped when they actually answered.
“Rian” the familiar voice asked.
“L-ou-is” I stuttered over my tears.
“Oh Rian. Don’t cry love” Louis sighed. I could tell by his voice that he was on the verge of tears as well.
“Tell me it isn’t true Louis” I cried.
“Rian I can’t” Louis said softly, his voice thick with tears.
“Oh Louis. I never wanted this to happen” I sobbed.
“I know Rian. Trust me, I know”
“I wish I could tell him I am so sorry”
“Tell him Rian”
“Liam probably hates me”
“I’ll get him right now, okay?”
“Okay” I squeaked.
I was waiting for Louis to give the phone to Liam, but instead I was met with another voice that I easily recognized as well. He was one of the last one’s that I thought would turn on me, but then again I am a terrible judge of character.
“Rian” he asked.
“Zayn? I am so sor-“ I said before Zayn cut me off.
“Rian, leave Liam alone. Okay? You know that it is the best for both of you, because he will forever view you as the bitch that had all this happen to him. Honestly you better hope Modest and his family doesn’t sue you” Zayn said heartlessly.
“But Zayn. I didn’t know”
“Rian, Liam doesn’t have time for your games. Get over it, you lost. Leave him alone or else” Zayn yelled.
Before Zayn could hand the phone back to Louis I hung up the phone and cried even harder. Why did my parents tell me that I had so much to live for? As of this moment I have nothing and it pained me to the core. My phone began to vibrate and I saw it was Louis. I quickly sent him to voicemail. I couldn’t deal with even more pain tonight. I turned my phone of and called the nurse in. Earlier the nurse promised to give me sleeping pills when I was ready to fall asleep. Since my life was falling apart by the seams while I was awake I wanted to escape to the dreamland. And that’s just what I did.