I didn't know how to tell her. How to say that she would be on her own, no one to protect her. It killed me knowing that she would be on her own, but this was to great of an opportunity. I needed this. X Factor is what I've been waiting for. Tomorrow will be the greatest day, but today will be the worst.
'Meet me at the swings in 10'
I stared at my phone, then realized that I should probably get going.
I got to the swings and saw him sitting there, sad. I was confused. I approached him and hugged him before he could do anything. I could tell he needed it.
"Hey Wind, I missed you" he said.
"You just saw me like an hour ago..." I said
"I know but..."
"Liam, what's wrong."
"Spill the beans, Goofs"
"What??" I was confused. I knew he wouldn't leave me alone in this town. He was kinder than that.
"My X Factor audition is tomorrow." He stared at me through teary eyes. I hated seeing him cry, it made me cry.
"Buhbuhbuh..." I started wheezing, uncontrollably.
"Inhaler!" He said. I whipped it out and puffed. Much better.
I knew that singing was always his dream, but how could he leave me. No, I decided, I wouldn't hold him back.
I watched her cry. I caused it. I spent all these years trying to prevent it, and I just caused it.
Suddenly, she stopped and looked up.
"No, go. Don't let me hold you back. I'll be fine. Just stay in touch, okay?" she whimpered. I couldn't hold back. I got off and hugged her so hard.
"I'm gonna miss you the most, ya know." I said.
"There's something I'm going to tell you now." She said. I was a little scared, "After I say this, I don't want you to hate me. If you don't like it just pretend I never said anything, Okay?"
"Okay...?" I could see her hands shaking, it happened whenever she was nervous. She looked up and took a breath...
I was about to say it. To tell him what I've been trying to say all these years. I took a deep breath.
"Liam, I'm in love with you. Not just the idea of you, but the singing, protective wonderful man you are. And I know that you don't feel the same and I get that. I'm fat and ugly and I wear glasses. You could get any girl, I just want you to know that before you take off and I might never see you again."
I looked at his face...unreadable.
"Shoot I knew I shouldn't have said that. I am sorry, just forget it. I hope you do great there and good luck." I mumbled very fastly. I then ran off. I ran until I got home and into my room, crying into my pillow. I had just ruined the greatest thing that has ever happened to me...
She ran before I could even say anything back. I couldn't tell her that I did love her, that she was beautiful to me. I was a chicken all these years, too scared to tell her. I saw her run and it broke my heart. I cried and cried, then realized texting still existed.
*You don't understand what you mean to me. You are a beautiful girl, the prettiest I have ever seen. I, Liam Payne, am in love with you too, Windsor. I'm just sorry it never worked between us. I will never forget you.*