26. Chapter 15
"Boss I'm gonna have to talk to McCann one last time before court. I would like that to be today as in now because I have to finish my reports" I smiled. "You do that Smith" he smiled back. "David would you please get McCann?" I asked David. "Of cause ma'am" he said and walked away. I went to my office and took a deep breath. I was gonna tell him. Or not. I was gonna cut him off. I was gonna end it. I couldn't make myself do that. I knew it. But what do then? I couldn't wait for him for a year.
"Smith" I heard David's voice. I looked up and saw Justin and David. "Thank you David" I smiled, "McCann please sit down." "It's not my name lady!" he exclaimed frustrated and sat down. David closed the door and I apologized to Justin. I took off his handcuffs. "So Cameron" he said, "this is it." "This is it Justin" I looked into his eyes, "I've been wanting to tell you something." "Okay?" he smiled, "go on." I tried my best to say something but I couldn't. I couldn't end it. "I can't tell you" I mumbled. "What is wrong?" he asked worriedly. I opened my mouth to say something but I couldn't. I just really couldn't. Then I suddenly cried out, "I'm scared! I'm so freaking scared! I know I'll run away. I've never ever been in love before and there you are! I keep thinking that I'm crazy and that you're just playing me! I can't commit. I'm scared of commitment! I know I'll hurt you! Or you'll hurt me! So therefore I wanted to end this before it got too serious but I couldn't make myself do it! I can't let you go Justin! I'm so confused!" "Don't be scared Cameron" he said, "it'll be- wait did you say you're in love with me?" "No? Did I?" I mumbled, "that must've been a mistake because I'm not-" he cut me off by kissing me. "Shut up" he chuckled, "you just said that you are in love with me.. Then I don't care about the other things you said. Because it'll be an honor to get my heart broken by you Cameron!" "You're in love with me?" I asked. He stayed quiet. "Justin?" "Fine" he groaned, "yeah I'm differently in love with you!" "But Justin we have to be away from each- you what?!" "You're in love with me?! How can you be in love with such a wreck? That is incapable of commitment?" I asked. "How can you be in love with such a wreck? That is incapable of commitment? And is accused of murder?" he asked. "Don't ask me" I mumbled. "Exactly" he smiled, "don't ask me." I smiled at him. He kissed me gently.
I teared up when we had to say goodbye. Justin looked at me and I could clearly see that he was on the edge of tears. "Well then goodbye beautiful" he mumbled as he stroked my cheek. "Goodbye handsome" I murmured and looked into his eyes. A tear made its way down his cheek I wiped it away. I tried my best not to cry. But. When he hugged me I couldn't hold it back. I let it all out. "Honestly I'm gonna miss you like crazy" I sniffled. "I'm gonna miss you too.. I don't know how I'm gonna survive but I will do I can see you again" he smiled. I giggled and sniffled. "Well I love you?" he asked kinda asking. "Love you too" I smiled. My heart hurt. My stomach hurt. "I love you Cameron.. Just remember that.. And remember the good times we've had.. Remember that you love me and that I love you" he sniffled. "You too Justin.. And I will" I stroked his cheek wiping away the tears.
We had gotten ourselves free from tears and looking decent then David picked him up. "Nice working with you Smith" Justin said. "Nice working with you too McCann" I smiled and closed the door. Then I sat down against the wall and started crying. I missed him already.