14. Chapter 14
So just friends. I could work with that, at least Niall will still be in my life. My beautiful little Niall.
He doesn't deserve Harry. He deserves a loving and caring man, which I could be for him.
But I can't let these feelings develop further or it could just ruin our friendship. If it develops into a relationship, then perfect. All I've ever wanted and needed will be real.
I was soon brought out of my thoughts with my phone ringing on my bedside table. I hesitantly picked it up and answered it without looking at the caller ID.
Her voice started to speak. What did she want from me. Why did she ring me now when my life seemed to be at an okay stage?
I knew something had changed. Niall seemed more happy within himself but more distant from me.
I swear if Zayn had corrupted him again, he won't know what's coming.
I can't lose Niall.
He's my world and my baby.
He saved me from my dangerous thoughts and my hideous past. I will never be able to repay him for the way he's helped and changed me.
I probably don't show it a lot, but I love him more than anything. Knowing that he doesn't remember me or any of our memories, breaks me. I can't remind him of the bad times, I can't even speak of it without tears in my eyes. If he doesn't remember that, then fine. He will just have to live the rest of his life with a constant nagging in his head to remember with no help from me.
It's for the best. I can't put his fragile heart through all that again.
He doesn't deserve me.
He deserves Zayn.