As Elysian and myself made our way into the airport and passed security I sensed someone following me, actually a couple people.
I grabbed Elysians hand as I made my way towards the gate, I quickly picked up the pace as my breathing increased. It can't be them, it can't.
I turned around causing Elysian to jolt forward at my sudden stop. I came face to face with the boys who kinda ruined my life as I ruined theirs.
"Were you guys following us?" I asked as I looked at them with confusion as they nodded. Elysians hand left mine as she went and hugged Luke. I smiled at her and noticed Luke was saddened by this hug, knowing it would be their last hug before they met in a couple years.
I looked at the rest of the boys as they all looked at me intently. I felt my face and noticed I had let some tears fall. Fuck I'm a wreck.
"Courts?" I looked up at Calum as I fiddled with my fingers.
"Y-yeah?" I said back as he interlocked our fingers. I looked down at our hands and felt that same happiness and the security I felt before Elysian was born.
"Can we talk?" He asked, he looked really vulnerable. I looked towards the gate then at him.
"Our flight is about to leave Cal" I answered back shakily.
"Please?" He begged as I sighed and nodded towards him.
He continued to hold my hand as we wandered throughout the airport to a quiet place to talk.
It was silent as we stood in a corner and stared at eachother waiting for someone to speak.
"I try so much to put two and two together and I want to know why you keep avoiding us" he says as I looked at him confused.
"That sentence made absolutely no sense cal" I chuckled as I rubbed my thumb up and down his hand.
"You told me before you left us all behind you'd give us at least a thought about in trying again, I've forgiven you Courts and I really want to try again" he said as I noticed he was being honest and wanted this whole conversation to be serious.
"I have thought about us quite a bit Cal" I said honestly. "I just don't want to hurt you again and I'm afraid that we will fight and we both will do something stupid and I don't want that risk." I said looking right into his eyes.
"We won't and you won't and I won't" he said reassuring me.
"But how do you know?" I said back quickly as he bit his lip. "How can you possibly know Calum?" I asked.
"I don't Courtney but I want us to at least try. We can't even look at eachother without being afraid to hurt one another. And I want to be in your life and Elysians" he said raising his voice a little bit.
"I want that too Calum but"
"But what?" He asked back.
I sighed looking towards Elysian and Luke. "What about Luke? That's his daughter for christs sake" I said as I looked Calum in the eyes.
"He'll be able to see her Courts, and knowing Luke and his many promises I highly doubt he'll be there for her every step of her life." He spoke out harshly as I bit my lip. I shook my head.
"It also depends who Elysian would rather have in her life, I can't be selfish Cal" I said back holding in my tears.
He looked at me intently before running a hand through his hair. He looked towards Luke and Elysian, then back down at me.
"Well I guess you'll have to pick who you'd rather have in your life Courts. It's either me or Luke. Pick one." He said back snippy before pushing past me and walking away.
I looked at him as he walked away balling his fists and I looked towards Luke who held Elysian tightly.
Fuck this will be tough.