- Autumn's POV -
I had grabbed the knife from his boot and wanted to get him. I wasn't going to let him win. As I hugged him I gripped the knife tighter in my hand, it left a small cut.
"Sorry James, I don't love you. You hurt me too much. You broke me down. I won't let you win!" I said as I placed the knife against his neck. The point of the knife slowly cutting in his skin. I pulled bag and with a quick slice I slid his throat. The skin parted and blood started to ooze out of the cut. I pulled back as far as I could. My stomach turned in disgust. I could feel the bile rise. I turned to a tree and threw up. That was it for me. I blacked out from fear, exhaustion and disgust.
When I woke up I was back in the hospital, for the, what is it like forth time since I know Dean and since James had found me again. I saw a doctor next to me doing some things.
"Doctor?" I asked him.
"Oh hey you're awake, good! How are you feeling?"
"Just a little nauseous. Did I really kill him? Is my nightmare finally over?" I asked as I remembered cutting James' throat.
"Yes he is dead, but I think your nightmare has only just begun. You're pregnant from him."
"I know doctor, I found out that day I ran from him."
"What do you want to do with the baby?" He asked.
"I don't know yet. I need to think about it."
"Oh well, there is a young man waiting outside to speak to you."
"His name is Dean. Should I let him know you're awake?"
"Yes please, send him in."
"Okay, I will send him in, just so you know you can get discharged this afternoon as you're not seriously hurt and we already performed all the necessary tests on you."
"Thank you doctor." He left the room and not soon after Dean entered. He had tears in his eyes and looked like he hadn't slept in years. The bags under his eyes were large, deep and a very bluish color. His hair was ruffled and looked like he hadn't combed it in forever, nor cut it to think of it. He had a more shade on his chin that was more than a five o 'clock one.
"Hey." He said with a crack in his voice. It sounded like he had been crying for a long time, but his eyes had no redness so it would have been a long while ago.
"Hey." I said, no idea about what to say to him. We were strangers for each other. A tear slipped from his eye and I signaled him to get closer. He came closer and I engulfed him in a hug. He buried his eyes in the crook of my neck and shoulder and hugged my body close to him.
"I was s-so a-afraid that I-I had l-l-lost you. T-that I-I wouldn't have t-the chance to t-tell you t-that I l-l-love y-you."He stuttered against me. He loves me? He just said he loves me. A tear of happiness fell down my cheek. I slid my hand up and down his back.
"You love me?" I asked him. Needing to be sure he loves me. I needed to know before I took a jump in the deep end.
"Yes, I love you Autumn, or do you prefer being called April?"
"Autumn is good, I have lived with it for a long time now and I have bad memories about April. I love you too Dean."
"Y-You l-love me?" He said pulling back from me looking very shocked. Is it so surprising I love him too?
"Yes, but Dean. I need to talk to you about something." I said, sounding very serious.
"What is it?" He said as he placed my head beneath his chin.
"James he uh he did something I didn't like and now I'm pregnant."
"He fucking raped you?!"
"Yeah." I trailed off feeling very small. I was a bit shocked by his anger.
"What are you going to do with the baby?" He asked.
"I don't know, I'm almost three months along so I have to choose pretty fast, but I would feel bad knowing I killed a life, but I can't raise the baby, it would remind me of him."
"And what about adoption? That way you won't kill it, but you also won't have to raise it."
"But wouldn't I wonder what would become of it. Wouldn't I wonder if it has got a good home, if it isn't following in its fathers' footsteps?"
"Maybe you can go through an open adoption. That way you would be able to ask for updates about it, but you wouldn't have to see it and you still would know if it would be okay."
"That sounds like an okay idea. I'll think about it and when I decide I'll tell you. Now I am going to be discharged in 5 minutes so could you please take me to your home? I need to be at a safe place."
"Okay my Darling. We can go home together." He said as he walked out of the room to the reception. He got a wheelchair and we were good to leave. I sat down and we went to the car. I got in the car and we drove off in silence. We came to a stop at his house. It looked perfect. It was my safe haven. The familiarity placed me at peace and I slowly walked to the front door. I felt some tugging on my back but didn't think anything of it. I opened the door and walked in. Dean was right behind me.
"SURPRISE." Sounded through the room as I entered. I looked around to see all of my new friends. Lacey with some flowers and a teddy bear. Marcus with some chocolates. Connor with a bag from my own bakery, I laughed at that. Michael just stood there. He hadn't really gotten to know me. I hugged them all close to me and then went to sit down. The whole ordeal had exhausted me a bit.