It was Valentine’s day today but the early hours of it, Tegan and I were video chatting, I was topless as she wanted to see my back, I did indeed have two broken ribs and I have no idea how I got them, she found it funny as she told me about the multiple times I have broken my ribs.
“So you still a virgin?” she asked and I frown.
“Why do your care so much?”
“Because I want to know when my baby sister has grown up.”
“Im older then you.” She frowns.
“Shut up.” I smile amused.
“And yes I am still a virgin.”
“Is he?” I hesitantly shake my head and her eyes widen.
“Have you talked about it?”
“Kind of.” I shrug, “I learned most of it off Liam.”
“Well what have you done?”
“Tegan I don’t think I should be talking about this.” she shrugs.
“I’ll tell you about me and Jack.” She pauses and I don’t say anything, “Me and jack have fucked so many times I’ve lost count, there now you tell me one thing you and Louis have done.”
“He did oral.” I pause, “On me.” her jaw drops.
“How was it.”
“You asked what we did no for details.”
“Well now im asking for details.” I shrug.
“I can’t really explain it, breathtaking, I literally couldn’t breathe.” She laughed at me.
“And have you done it back?” I shake my head, she frowns, “Are you going to?” I shrug.
“I don’t know.”
“Well its Valentine’s Day now for you right?” I nod, “Do it today.” she shrugs, “His probably going to take you out, give him a blowjob after.”
“I don’t know how.” I admit.
“It’s simple, put the dick in your mouth and-“
“Shut up!” I put my and up, my eyes squeezed closed and head bowed as I shake it.
“Do you want to know or not?”
“I know how a blowjob works I just don’t know how to do it myself.” I frown thinking for a moment, “It’s weird knowing you’ve given Jack a blowjob and you are three months younger than me.”
“Yeah I don’t know what’s wrong with you, waiting till your seventeen to have your first kiss, still hasn’t had a fuck yet, there’s something wrong with you, not me.”
“You do know a lot of people wait till there eighteen to have sex and sometimes married, eighteens when I thought I would but I don’t really know.”
“How far have you gone?”
“We dry humped.” I say blushing.
“Like with clothes?” she was kind of confused and it was amusing.
“Well I had underwear on, he was naked, there was a blanket between us.”
“That sounds-” She pauses, “Did he cum on the sheet?” she asked and I nodded, “Thats discussing.” I laugh.
“Don’t knock it till you try it, it was… romantic.”
“Your so whipt.” I shrug, “He has really changed you.” I smiles, “Have you written lately?” she asked and I know what she was asking.
“No not for a few weeks.”
“When are you going to stop?” I sigh.
“I don’t know, I just feel like she won’t know anything if I don’t do it.”
“Ellen, she’s gone, she can’t read them, you’re doing this to keep her in your memory, she will stay there whether you wright of not.” I look away for a moment and towards the place I store the journal, “Does Louis know?” I shake my head looking at my hands.
“I’ve never told him about her.”
“Promise me something.” I look back at the screen. “Promise you’ll stop, you won’t forget her, I promise you won’t.” I feel tears start to prick my eyes as I nod slowly.
“I’ll stop.” I say softly and I see her smile slightly, “I’ll stop writing her.”
“Louis I want to try something.” I say softly as I guide him towards the opening that leads to my bedroom, I helped him in removing his shirt and I stood in front of him.
“Anything.” He tells me and I watch his deep blue eyes, my mouth had become impossibly dry as I reached out towards his waist, our foreheads pressed together, Louis inhaling my trembling breath, my fingers anxiously fumbled with the button, tugging down the zip. I had a feeling it was blatantly obvious what my intentions were, he guided me and the trousers were clumsily shoved from his hips and he stepped out of them when they hit the wooden floor. My nervousness was clear through my shaking hands as I touched over the smooth skin of Louis’ stomach, he hummed, his fingertips brushing my cheek, thumb sliding over my bottom lip, my eyes desperately found his, blue and sparkling.
“Shh, it’s alright, Baby.” Louis whispered, my eyelashes fluttered as he softly nudged my head with his, larger hands placed on top of my trembling ones, guiding them to the band of his briefs, he helped me in slipping them down his hips. My gaze still locked on Louis’ as his underwear dropped around his feet, I wasn’t really sure what to do, but I forced myself to make the first move, pushing my uncertainty to the back of my mind. Louis’ lips parted as I blindly cupped my small hand underneath his already throbbing erection, the thick length was hard and heavy resting in my palm, the soft silky feeling of his skin surprised me, a vast contrast to the rigid shaft, he groaned lightly at my touch before placing his hand undermine, encouraging me to curl my fingers round him. “Pump.” He whispered breathlessly.
I slowly moved my wrist back and forth, Louis stayed speechless apart from a few soft moans. His hair tickled at my forehead as hot breath puffed over my face, I felt his hand briefly graze mine a few times as my touch neared the tip. His arm was moving and I found myself curious, Louis’ lips pressed a kiss to mine before I looked down, I took in a shaky breath, my eyes widening at his size, Louis’ thumb was gently rubbing circles into the swollen head. “Let me.” I whispered.
He removed his hand as I carefully replicated his actions with my thumb, the sounds he made against the crook of my neck told me I was doing it right, after a few more minutes I noticed Louis’ breathing pick up considerably, bare chest rising and falling quickly. He desperately grabbed my hands, pinning them to my sides, I was about to apologise for doing something wrong before he smiled. “I don’t want to come yet.” He grinned, I couldn’t believe I had brought him close to orgasm in such a short period of time, before I could sink down to the wooden floor he caught hold of my hips. “Kiss me first.” Louis whispered.
I eagerly complied, kissing was one of the things I was accustomed to with Louis, his warm tongue quickly slipped into my mouth, invading my senses, my hands clasped around his neck, allowing me to lean up to him. I jumped slightly, feeling his erection brush my stomach, but he was too lost in me to notice my apprehension, wet kisses were left down my neck as I pressed my fingertips into his nape, soon slipping my touch into his locks, when he drew back he had a smile spread over his lips. “Are you sure?” I nodded before he sweetly kissed my cheek.
I got down on my knees in front of him, breathing picking up as I was intimidated by his size, the thick length stood away from his body, my thumb carefully rubbed over the swollen head, receiving a deep moan from Louis, I glanced up to see his eyes squeezed closed, bottom lip taken harshly between his teeth. When my focus fell back to eye level my fingers traced down the soft skin of the stiff shaft, but before I could touch him further, Louis caught hold of my hands, tugging me up, I felt his tip brush against my clothed stomach a second time as the distance between us decreased. “W-What’s wrong?” I stuttered.
“Let’s go over to the bed.” He spoke softly, I agreed before he guided me to the mattress, where he took a seat on the end, my body knelt down in front of him once more; Louis took my chin in his hand, tilting it up to him. “We don’t have to.”
“I want to.” My words are less than a whisper but he hears them, he smiled as his touch dropped away, my hands rested on his knees, Louis’ eyes fluttering closed as my touch carefully ran up and down his thighs whilst I repositioned myself closer, my left kept its place on Louis’ leg, my right bravely taking hold of his erection, he observed intently through hooded eyes as I placed small kisses up the hard shaft, my tongue leaving a bold stripe on the underside, his orbs sparkled as I peered up to him.
“It’s alright.” He breathed, my tongue soon enveloped the throbbing head in warmth, Louis’ hips shifted on the mattress in response, a groan falling from his lips, but I noticed he made an effort to keep still, not wishing to push me further. My focus trained on his face as I tried to concentrate on providing him with pleasure, wanting to hear the throaty sound again, I immediately pulled back when a wince sharply sucked through his pursed lips.
“Sorry, sorry.” I gushed, he shook his head, smiling down at me, his hair tousled around his face. Louis’ touch warmed through my body as he traced over my lips with his thumb, he knew the action comforted me.
“No teeth.” He chuckled, I shyly nodded in response, a heated blush glowing in my cheeks. I felt like my nerves were getting the better of me, but I proceeded to start again with Louis’ instructions, I knew my first time giving oral wouldn’t be perfect. Thoughts of how experienced Louis was floated through my already uneasy mind, I frowned, he probably thought I was such a klutz, my lips made a popping sound as I drew back, swallowing anxiously. “Take your time.” He encouraged quietly, his hand was placed over my own which rested on his leg, it surprised me as Louis leant down, pressing his soft lips to mine reassuringly. He flashed me a smile, drawing back as I settled again, I whimpered holding his base and rolling my tongue around what I could fit in my mouth. Louis was cautiously observing me as strained moans fell from his parted lips, I struggled to take him deeper, my eyes screwing closed, his hand pressed to my shoulder, carefully pushing me away. “Don’t force yourself.” He worriedly spoke.
I decided to use my hand to pump his length, my mouth taking in what was comfortable, he smiled, seemly happier with my actions, the muscles in his tensed thighs relaxing, small droplets of sweat glistened on his forehead, brown hair sticking to the glittering perspiration. I couldn’t help but notice how much hotter it had grown in my room, wishing we had opened the window before we had begun. I had thought his hand was coming down to tangle into my hair, but he happily shocked me, Louis’ larger span resting against my neck as he brushed his fingers gently over my skin, my movements became faster, pumping him up and down quickly, fingertips pressed deeply into his thigh as I watched Louis’ eyes squeeze closed, lips parting. When he focused back on me his breathing was heavy, his hand taking my chin, thumb rubbing over my cheek. “Slow, Baby, slow it down.” He pleaded.
My pace changed to accommodate Louis’ request, I pulled back, the length slipping from my mouth as I licked the small slit, the substance tasted salty. I continued to take Louis past my lips his hand pried my fingers from his thigh, guiding me to his balls which hung down at the base. “S-Squeeze.” He stuttered, I complied, loving the sight of him close to falling apart above me, my fingertips teased gently at the new area before Louis’ deeply moaned. “T-There Ellen, do that again.” He gushed.
I carefully dug my tips into the back of his balls, Louis’ head rolled back in response, gasping for air, when he looked back down at me the blue of his eyes had grown darker, long fingers softly swept my hair from my face, tucking it behind my ear. My tongue glided over his tip, taking in the bead that had leaked from his slit. “Take your top off for me.” Louis instructed breathlessly, drawing back I was aided in removing my shirt, the fabric dropped, joining Louis’ carelessly discarded clothing I didn’t think twice about it. I immediately returned to my previous actions, recognising the look on his beautiful face, he was close, my movements continued until Louis gripped my shoulder. “Ellen.” He strained.
He gently pushed me away, his length slipping from my warm mouth, Louis reached down to touch himself but I stopped him, my small hand wrapping around him instead as I pumped, my name left his lips in breathy gasps and seconds later a sticky white liquid shot out from the head. I flinched as it squirted onto my chest, the warmth dripped down my skin as another wave of pleasure rolled through, Louis groaned, his breathing erratic as he flopped back on the bed. “Oh my god.” He mumbled, his length gradually softened in my hand as I carefully traced my fingertips along the warm skin and protruding veins. Louis hissed when my thumb gently rolled over the sensitive swollen head, my lips trailed kisses up his right thigh, feeling the dark hair before I stood from the floor, laying on the bed beside him, Louis looked exhausted, chest rising and falling at an alarming rate.
“Was it alright?” I whispered, he rolled his head to the side, grinning as he nodded, I think he may have lost his voice, we remained quiet for a few more minutes, but Louis caught my arm just as I was getting up to open the window. My left hand travelled up, brushing damp strands of hair from his sweaty forehead as he lazily smiled, I watched as he reached out, long fingers taking some of the white substance from my chest. He curiously peered at me, offering the tips of his fingers to my mouth, I should have asked Tegan about this, I look from Louis’ finger to his eyes then back again, I’ve heard and seen stories saying it’s discussing and I’ve heard and seen stories saying it’s nice.
“Taste?” I take the tips of his fingers into my mouth and suck lightly, it wasn’t terrible, bitter but not bad.