I heard Ashley was going to the bowling alley with Emma and decided to do it then. I waited for Ashley to be alone and followed her to the bathroom.
I caught her by the waist and started kissing her. She started kissing back being the secret slut she actually was instead of what Ashley sees her.
After playing with her for a while, I heard some footsteps. Knowing it was Ashley. " Moan for me baby... " I whispered into Emma's ears and she did it.
I asked her to be louder and she did saw, I put my hand son her ass to make it more realistic. Suddenly, the door banged open and I knew it was Ashley.
Seeing her face made me want to put the slut down and run towards her, telling her the truth, but I couldn't.
" Wh-what are you guys doing? " she asked, pain can be heard from her voice, breaking my own heart.
" Isn't it obvious enough bitch? "Emma asked and I wanted to slap her hard on her ugly face.
" Emma..w-what... " she stuttered, lost in words.
" Poor bitch don't even know what to say! " Emma laughed and I forced a chuckle.
" W-what are you guys.. " It was obvious she was so shocked and I knew what she was feeling, I wanted to hug her and just comfort her but being the asshole I was, I couldn't.
" What do you think Ashley? " I asked sounding mean and annoyed, but that was like a stab to my own heart, treating her this way.
" Zach I thought...I-I... " she couldn't say anything and I knew if she doesn't leave I can't complete this 'mission'.
" Ashley, we're f*cking here so get out. " I said harshly, my heart was hurting like shit.
" Zach Clayton. You're cheating on me. " she finally said it out loud. I wanted to explain everyting to her but I couldn't. My own heart was breaking and I could sense hers too.
" I do that to every girl Ashley.. Gosh, did you really think you were special, you're just like the others, you think to highly of yourself. " I said, trying my best to sound like I hated her.
" You said you loved me. " she said, tears pouring down her face, making me want to go and wipe them clean and kiss her.
" I said that to everyone, see, I love you Emma. " I said and pecked Emma on the lips, feeling disgusted.
" Is there something wrong Zach? " she asked, her voice cracking.
" Nothing, you're the one that expected too much, " I said. " Will you just leave? " I knew if she doesn't I will run towards her now, like seriously and try to make her forgive me.
" O-okay... then. W-whatever. " she stuttered, closing the door with a loud bang. And almost immediately, I dropped Emma.
" Get out. " I said at her harshly.
" But baby -" she tried but I glared at her.
" GET OUT NOW! " I shouted, I've never been so angry. She jumped in shock and quickly got out of the toilet. I walked out slowly and got into my car.
I could feel my own tears pouring out of my face. " I'm so sorry Ashley... " I cried as my heart burn. It feels like it's been town apart. " I'm so so sorry.... " I said but she wouldn't know the truth, I rather she hate me then get hurt even more.
I knew she would never forgive me after what I've said. " I'm so sorry.... " I kept on apologizing as I put my hands on the steering wheel and cry my eyes out. My eyes were red and the tears hurt my eyes, my vision was blurry and the only thing I can think off is Ashley now.
So this is what a heartbreak feels like. The Heartbreaker broke his own heart.
News really do spread fast around the school. They knew what Zach did to me and as I walk around the school, some people gave me pitiful looks that I despise.
I didn't want them to pity me. I walked into the cafeteria and bought a sandwich. I saw a redhead sitting on Zach's lap and she was giggling while he was smirking.
He looked in my direction but I gave him a blank look and got out of the place. I look like I wasn't hurt, like nothing mattered but deep in my heart, I was broken. Completely broken. All that was left of him in me was hatred.
I hated him despite what he's even done, anything nice, I will forget what he said, what he did, and I will bring myself back to reality.
Time to study hard and get my mind off things.
For the rest of the weeks, I ignored him, ignored all the pitiful looks people gave me and the ' are you ok?'s.
I need to set a new target for myself. I need to get my mind off him. Off Zach Clayton.
Whenever I'm in school, I try to let a girl be with me although none of them were as good as Ashley. She's been ignoring me and when I look at her, all I see is a blank face of clear of emotions.
I was hoping that she will at least hate me, or kick me or hit me but all she did was leave me alone with my life.
I couldn't take that but I knew I brought this to myself. It's been 2 months and she's been like this for 2 months.
My heart wasn't healed at all, it was still broken and it only gets worst when I see her. She barely smiles and even if she did, it was forced, the smile never reached her eyes.
She would spend her time studying hard and being alone all the time. I even broke her trust for anyone after what had happened between her and Emma.
I felt so bad, I wouldn't move on. My heart was left on her the say I broke hers. Our hearts were shattered together but she didn't know what I felt.
Every time I see her, a new pain is set. No one can ever replace her.
It's been so long and I couldn't stand it anymore. I want to tell her. Tell her everything and hope for her forgiveness.
I am going to tell her the truth, to tell her who I really am.
My own heart is broken.... *cries* I feel sad too....
But don't worry more is to come and well just a reminder, you might wanna prepare some tissues and put a shield on your heart...
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xoxo ~ Staying_Alive