Fuck You Over

*Said I was a douche bag won't call back, worst hangover you ever had. Felt so good at first but you knew it would never last.*
I stared at the girl in the front seat. Was that really my only competition? I had to be up against something better than that, something more classy and less trashy perhaps?
"This is Violet, she goes to the high school down the road from ours." Ashton said smirking at me. I smiled and shook her hand.
"Hey, I'm Hunter. It's a pleasure to meet you." I said sitting back in my seat. Ashton stared at me questioningly before turning the car on.
"We're gonna make one more stop at my friend Luke's house real quick." He said to Violet. She nodded. Oh no, he knew he was on to me. I sighed heavily and did breathing exercises. I forgot about Luke's part in my plan. Pretend I wasn't madly in love with him… seems easy enough.
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11. 9- Make-outs and Mistakes

Ashton's POV

9- Make-outs and Mistakes

"Who was your first kiss?" Hunter asked watching as I plopped a skittle into my mouth. We were sitting on her bed playing twenty one questions to get to know one another better. After today's lunch I realized that there was a Hunter before me. One who was wild and crazy but kept it a secret.

"Violet." I responded. She took a handful of skittles and nodded. I knew she was pissed about Violet and I. Even if there was no more us now that I was with Hunter.

"What's your favorite place in the entire world?" I asked. Hunter played so that only the person being asked had to answer. Honestly my favorite place was wherever she was. She was the sun and the moon to me. When she smiled or laughed at me I felt like she really saw me as me.

"Here." She said pointing to her bed. I couldn't help but roll my eyes. Of course she'd say here this is the only place she ever goes. I ran my fingers through her hair stopping at where the blond reached her natural brown hair. She smelled sweet like strawberries and chocolate. Weird mix.

"Are you going to let me finish what I was going to say earlier about how you aren't the same as my past girlfriends?" I asked her cocking an eyebrow. She was chewing her skittles but even then her eyes didn't reach mine. She was looking away probably making up an excuse.

"No, I don't want to hear it." She said. I wrapped my arm around her and pulled her close to me. She laid her head back so that it was touching my chest. My heart was pounding from such a subtle touch. I bit my lip and wrapped her hand in mine.

"I was going to say that you're stronger and more independent and you really don't care what I do. And your beautiful and smart and funny. You are the best person to talk to and you are..." I couldn't finish. She was my everything and whether I could act on it or not wasn't my business. I looked down and her eyes were filled with tears.

"Don't cry." I whispered in her ear. She chuckled as I wiped her eyes.

"Sorry, I- uh thank you." She smiled flustered. I smiled at her and then the rest of my confession fell in.

"You. That's what I meant to say. You're you and that is my favorite part about you." I said. "Aside from your smile." I added. She stood up and walked to the bathroom. I sighed I couldn't believe that there was a girl who made me feel like this. Like everything I did was wrong and that everything about me wasn't right. I watched as she came back in and wrapped my flannel around her body. She looked so small in my clothes. So fragile and vulnerable. She cuddled beside me and sighed content. I wrapped my hand behind her knees and sighed happily.

"So Ally's your best friend?" I asked making conversation. I had to admit that tidbit threw me off. They were polar opposites. Alyson was a conniving, cold hearted slut and Hunter was a sweet, strong, loving sass master of life

"Yeah, pretty isn't she?" She asked as though it was the most normal thing in the world. I rolled my eyes internally. Ally wasn't pretty she was fortunately attractive. In other words her personality and her looks didn't match.

"Sure, she seems pretty distant from you." I point out.

"Yeah, she's not herself lately. Some pictures of her got around." She said. I was shocked. The only pictures Ally said she's ever sent were to me. I sighed.

"That's dangerous. Sending explicit photographs." I informed. I hoped, no prayed that if there was anything Hunter wanted to show me that she would do it in person. So much could go wrong with a text.

"Can we talk about something else?"

"Like what?" I asked rubbing circles in her palm.

"Nothing specific just anything." She lied as a tint rose on her cheeks. Sometimes I wish I could read her mind and see what she thought about everything. I didn't want to call her out on whatever she was thinking because most likely it was a thousand times more embarrassing for her to think about.

"Sorry about earlier at the mall." I said sincerely. I've never wanted to kiss someone so much. I wasn't going to just kiss her though. I wanted to show her how special she was and how important she was to me. She was important to me.

"When you didn't kiss me?" She asked staring at my shirt. I sighed. I could never make her happy.

"Yeah, I didn't mean to make you upset with me I just want you to... I'm not going to let the first time I kiss you be in an empty department store." I chuckled. I was really building up a lot of self control dating Hunter. There were times where the only acceptable thing to do was to make out with her and feel her and touch her. But I couldn't do that. I had to slow down and be gentle. I could lose her just as fast as I got her and I wasn't doing that.

"I don't care where it happens. I-I don't know." She said staring at me. I sat staring at her. She wanted me just as badly as I needed her. Maybe not as much but pretty close. Her eyes were glowing the way that only her gray eyes could. I had nothing to lose anymore if I kissed her now and nothing happened then we'd probably just end up breaking it off. Deep inside myself I knew I would feel something. I felt something when someone said her name so touching her lips and feeling here so close would do a lot of damage. I wrapped my arm around her waist and pulled her closer pressing my lips to hers. They were smooth and sweet tasting. Just kissing made me crazy for her. I was slowly losing sanity. My hands were on her hips pulling her closer and closer even though there wasn't much closer. She was already pressed up against me which made me even crazier. I pulled away reluctantly and watched her reaction. She was dazed and looked so much more vibrant.

If that makes sense.

My fingers trailed along her lips and cheeks. She was so beautiful and she was mine. Her eyes were floating around in relaxation.

"I should've done that sooner." I mumbled to myself. She breathed out a laugh.

"I feel high." She blurted out. I burst into laughter. She was trying to say something but looked as though she couldn't find the right words.

"You aren't high. You're beautiful." She smiled at me and sighed. There was so much I could say but I feel like we covered enough stuff already.

"Can we do that again?" She asked wrapping herself around my body. Was she really asking that question?

"Later. Your equilibrium isn't at its best. But we will do that again." I smirked at her. She smiled sleepily. I wouldn't give up a chance to be so close to her. I wanted to be next to her at all times.

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I woke up to an empty bed. Hunter must have gotten out while I was sleeping. I sat up and leaned back on the headboard.

"Hunter?" I called. I looked around the room for the girl.

"I'm coming." She said from the connected bathroom.

"Hey beautiful." I smiled as she walked back into the room. She sat next to me and squeezed herself against the wall. "Tomorrow's Christmas." I said playing with her hair.

"The dinner." She said biting her lip. God, she was killing me on purpose.

"I think you're stressing to much."

"I know." She said. I moved so I could brush my lips over hers. She hummed softly.

"That was a horrible kiss." I frowned.

"Mostly on your part." She smirked at me.

"I refuse to accept that." I said shaking my head.

"Hmm, I think we should try again." She smiled pressing her lips to mine. I moaned involuntarily as her hand stroked my face. I moved her so her body was on top of mine was. My lips roamed down her neck. She pulled her bottom lip between her teeth. I pulled her underneath me so I was hovering over her. My hand slid up her leg and to the hem of her shirt. Her phone started ringing. She groaned loudly still inthralled in me.

"Answer it." I said kissing her neck one last time

"Ignore it." She whined pulling my shirt down.

"What if it's important?"

"It's not." She said. I sat up and picked up the phone.

"Hunter's phone." I announced.

"Um hello? I'm looking for Hunter." A female voice said.

"Who is this?"

"Melody."

"Melody?"

"Melody?" Hunter asked.

"Is she there? Can I talk to her? Could you give her the phone?"

"Melody, are you sure this is the right number? Hunter is here. Ok." I said handing the phone to Hunter. She talked to the lady quietly. I watched as her expressions changed over and over from confused to weirded out.

"What did she say?" I asked.

"Merry Christmas and happy new year." She replied pulling the phone away from her ear.

"That was weird." I mused.

"I should ask my dad."

"Your dad might have a friend that just wanted to say 'hi' or something."

"My dad only has a few female friends. I've met them all." She said honestly. I could tell this was bothering her. I really wanted to tell her about Ally and I. Not as though we currently were but that we used to be. I had a feeling she didn't know.

"You want to go for a walk?" She blurted out. I didn't reply. I pulled my shoes on and walked out the door.

We walked down to the snow covered streets and over to a park that was located close by. She was looking at me trying to get me to say something. How was I supposed to tell her that I was secretly hooking up with her best friend before her. What if she connected me to the pictures and blamed me? What if she blamed me and never talked to me ever again? I wouldn't be able to live with myself.

"What's wrong?" She asked me. I was sitting on the opposite side of the bench from her.

"Nothing." I lied. I couldn't help but feel like a douche bag. I couldn't find a way to tell her without her feeling like there was a chance my feelings for her weren't real. There wasn't. My feelings for her were most likely the realest thing in my life.

"Ashton, if there's something you want to talk about. Please let me know. I just want to help." You can't help. She tried to make eye contact with me and I just dropped my eyes to the floor. I couldn't imagine what she'd see. I stared at the snow listening to her fidget around and rustle with her pockets. Eventually she got up and walked away. I didn't look up to see if she looked back. Something inside me said she didn't. I hoped that wasn't true. But I knew it was. I listened to her footsteps until they weren't audible any longer. I raised my head looking around the empty park. It was deserted and lonely. Like how I felt inside. I knew she probably thinks I'm mad at her of angry about something. I wish I could just tell her and make it all better for the both of us. Maybe she would understand. Understand that I would never intentionally put her in any pain. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I closed my eyes in hope that it was Hunter.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Hey, it's Violet. I was wondering if you wanted to hang out."

"Um, sure." Disappointment struck me hard. I put all my eggs in one basket and sold them to the love doctor.

"Ok, come over soon." She purred. I hung up and slid my phone back into my pocket. What was I doing? I knew what Violet's version of hanging out was. Her version was probably not what Hunter wanted me doing with her. Maybe I didn't have feelings for Hunter. Maybe I just liked how nice and innocent she was. Maybe I was supposed to be with Violet. Maybe all of this was just some sort of twisted reality. Twisted reality that I liked living in. I stood up and made my way down the white street. I felt like an idiot but that didn't stop me from walking on. I continued to walk on and on down the street. I mentally apologized to Hunter. She had to know I didn't want this. That if it was my choice if be with her talking about philosophy and making out and eating candy. Violet stood in her doorway waiting for me. She didn't look as sexy as she usually did. She didn't look different just not as appealing. Hunter changed my definition of sexy when she implanted herself in my brain. Violet's black hair was laying over her shoulders restlessly. I sighed. Why didn't I want to fuck her? Why didn't I want her to seduce me? Because I only wanted Hunter. I don't know why I'm here. Maybe to feel something other than the numbing regret I have. I regret answering my phone and I regret being here. I'm going to regret lying to her when this is over.

"Hey Ash Ash." She smiled kissing me on my cheek.

"Hey, do you have any beer?" I asked walking up to her bedroom. She giggled and walked the opposite way to the kitchen. This was going to be a long night.

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Violet was dancing around her room in her bra and underwear. She didn't listen to anything that Hunter did. Everything she listened to was about sex and drinking and drugs. She didn't feel nearly as good as Hunter did of ever would in technical terms. She had went quick and the only way I could have even begun to climax was thinking about Hunter. That's bad, thinking about one girl while you're fucking the other.

"Are you staying over? Luke and his new girlfriend are coming over." She said smiling at me.

"Ugh, sure." I agreed. My head was spinning by now. I couldn't help but think about what Hunter was doing. Was she lying on her bed waiting for me to call? Was she at Cassie's house talking about me? Was she smiling? Was she happy in any way?

"I heard Ally is a slut bag and that she's only dating Luke to get even with Hunter." Violet said running her hands down my leg. I rolled my eyes. I didn't care what Luke or Alyson did. They weren't my concern.

"I've got to pee." I said standing up. I walked down the hallway instead of going in Violet's bathroom. The hallway felt long and strenuous. I felt like crying. I felt like everything that was happening was only happening because I was doing it. I leaned on the door and let a tear fall. I should've been with Hunter. I was doing everything wrong. She deserved so much more. I walked back into the room and saw Violet on the phone.

"Is that my phone?" I asked her

"Yeah, ash ash." She said. I snatched the phone out of her hand and looked at the called ID

Hunter.

"Hello?" I asked. There wasn't a respond. The phone disconnected and I was left to the tone. I called back and then again when that didn't work. I sent her texts and tried to FaceTime her. No reply. Goddamit Hunter! I knew I was last person she wanted to see but I needed to talk to her. T apologize and hope she'd accept my flaws. I needed her because.... Because I loved her.

A||N

I internally love Ashton's POV more than anything. If anybody has any questions about the book or about me in general I'll be willing to answer them and maybe I'll do an q&a video and post it in the multimedia version.

Fave quote from chapter: 'Ally wasn't pretty she was fortunately attractive. In other words her personality and her looks didn't match.'

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