Fuck You Over

*Said I was a douche bag won't call back, worst hangover you ever had. Felt so good at first but you knew it would never last.*
I stared at the girl in the front seat. Was that really my only competition? I had to be up against something better than that, something more classy and less trashy perhaps?
"This is Violet, she goes to the high school down the road from ours." Ashton said smirking at me. I smiled and shook her hand.
"Hey, I'm Hunter. It's a pleasure to meet you." I said sitting back in my seat. Ashton stared at me questioningly before turning the car on.
"We're gonna make one more stop at my friend Luke's house real quick." He said to Violet. She nodded. Oh no, he knew he was on to me. I sighed heavily and did breathing exercises. I forgot about Luke's part in my plan. Pretend I wasn't madly in love with him… seems easy enough.
Hunter Masters is your regular high school teenager. She tutors for extra credit and sh


12. 10- Intrusions and Interruptions

10- Intrusions and Interruptions

I woke up with a killer headache the next day. Welcoming a hangover and a broken heart isn't the best. I had driven myself home last night grateful that I didn't crash or harm anybody else. When I woke up my phone was blown up with texts and missed calls from Ashton. I deleted each one. I wasn't ready to hear his excuses. Not yet at least. I looked at the rising sun. Whether I wanted to or not I gave Ashton my word that I'd be there today. I'd be at his dinner. I'd be his girlfriend. Maybe I'm not anymore. Maybe that was his way of breaking up with me. By sleeping with Violet. I walked downstairs to the kitchen annoyed by the mere sight of Alyson. She didn't deserve to be called Ally anymore. She was just Alyson. A stranger.

"What are you doing here?" I sneered at her.

"Whether you want to admit it or not we are best friends. Anyways I was on my way home from Luke's." She said. I rummaged through my fridge looking for food.

"We are not friends. My friends don't do shit like this." I growled at her. She looked taken aback by my outburst.

"I'm the only real friend you have in this world. I was there before Michael and Cassie and Calum. And look whose here now." She pointed out. I couldn't believe her. She was just like Stephanie. Full of self hate and ugliness.

"I can't believe this. I don't need you. Without me you'd have nothing. I was the one who helped you pass all those tests and who gave you all the clothes you have and who is so stupid that I believed that Ashton leaked your fucking nudes!" I screamed at her.

"You're assuming I did it myself?"

"No, but it wasn't Ashton because you know that he wasn't the only guy you sent them too. Just the only one you have the guts to admit you sent them too. You think you're cool because you ruin peoples lives? You're not. You make everybody you meet so damn miserable that it's almost sickening. You make me sick Alyson, you have no clue." I said. She stared at me bored.

"You done? Now, I've nominated you and Ashton for prom king and queen,"

"You don't get it!?" I shouted. She raised her hand.

"Uh uh, interrupting is rude." I rolled my eyes. "By then Ashton would have said he loves you. And on stage when you make your speech you're going to announce in front of the entire student body that you were faking it. That you didn't love him and that it was all a joke."

"And if I don't?"

"Ha, oh please. You honestly think I'm going to force you to say something you don't want? By then you'll have two choices. Ashton or Luke."

"Luke isn't even an option anymore."

"Yeah, but if I tell all your little friends what you did and how they were just key parts in your big game. I'll bust out the water works and blame the entire plan on you." She smirked.

"You are honestly the worst person I've ever met." I laugh.

"Nice doing business with you." She smiled standing up and walking away. I watched as she walked out the door and to her car. Inside I was broken. Broken physically and mentally. Ashton was my everything. Maybe I didn't have to go to prom. Maybe I could just run away with him. Take an early walk and summer vacation in the Bahamas. I laid on the kitchen floor and let my head drop to the kitchen tiles. The cool smooth stone made it even worse. I couldn't believe what was happening. It was like hell had transformed into a person and was having war with Satan.

"Hunter?" I heard. I curled my body into a ball and closed my eyes. If I didn't know I existed then I didn't. I didn't exist. I wasn't real.

"Hunter, what's wrong?" He asked kneeling on to the floor beside me. All I could do was cry. Cry and mumble and breakdown. I was broken. I had nothing left. When my dad went to work. I couldn't even trust my best friend of nine years. She was a backstabber and so was Ashton and Luke and my mother and Stephanie. I was alone in a world where being alone was laughed upon.

"Hunter, I know you feel like you can't tell me. But you can. You know I'll try to help as best as I can." He said. I sniffed up whatever mucus and tears I had left and stared at him. How would he look at me if he knew? He would hate me too. I definitely already do.


The music at the Irwin's house was loud. It probably wasn't but when you're still kinda drunk it sounds like you're standing next to a movie theater speaker. I avoided Ashton everywhere I went but made sure I introduced myself as his girlfriend when people asked. I made empty promises to take a picture with him and whoever asked. I walked around smiling at all the family. I probably looked dead. I was dead. Inside. I walked to the food table where appetizers were being served. I saw Ashton talking to a few other guys and I saw Michael on his side. Michael excused himself from the group and walked to me. I hid my face in the long sleeves of Ashton's shirt. It still remotely smelled similar to him.

"How long have you been here?" He asks pulling me away from the crowd.

"Hours. I've just been roaming around lifelessly. I'm pretty sure Aunt Marge has asked me like seven thousand questions." I chuckled.

"He said you weren't coming."

"But I'm here."

"Yeah, that's relevant to the story about you spending Christmas with your grandma." He laughed.

"I don't have anybody other than my dad and Lola." I said.

"You've got me." He smiled. I looked at the ground and walked away. Michael grabbed my arm and pulled me up the stairs to Ashton's room. He looked at me.

"What happened? Ashton isn't saying anything and you guys aren't being grossly lovey dovey.

"Oh well that's what happens when you find out you've been cheated on." I spit out angrily.

"Michael, you know you aren't allowed to sleep with- oh." I heard Ashton say from behind me. I could feel the tears forming in my eyes as he closed the door behind him. The walls were closing in and I felt like I was stuck. He was so close.

"I need to leave." I said shaking my head.

"Wait! Hunter please!" He shouted out to me. I was frozen. It was though his words actually froze me.

"I'll be downstairs." Michael says to me walking past us and to the door. I look down at my shoes as Ashton walks closer to me.

"Don't." I whispered closing my eyes.

"Hunter it isn't what you think." He says.

"Did you sleep with Violet?" He didn't say anything. He was just quiet. "Then it's exactly what I thought and it always will be. It will always be me crying my eyes out while you booze it up and run to Violet. You wanna know the real reason you and Violet aren't together?" I asked. I could feel the tears burning in my eyes. They were falling as I picked my head up to look at the boy.

"It's because you both couldn't even commit to a goldfish." I said walking past him. He didn't make any move to stop me. I walked to the closest bathroom and leaned against the door. I was going to finish this dinner. Whether Ashton liked it or not. And I was going to do it without crying and looking more alive. I sucked in my hurt and stood up walking down the stairs smiling. The room was buzzing. Cassie and Calum were walking around holding hands and I was walking alone avoiding my boyfriend.

"So, wanna tell me what Ashton did to make you so spaced out?" An older woman asked. She was smiling at me in a sweet old lady way.

"Uh- ha, um we are kinda upset with one another at the moment." I said wrapping my arms around myself.

"Oh, well if I can tell you anything about Ashton it's that he's gonna try and make it better." She said.

I wish that was true.

"I know. I know he will." I said.

"He barely brings friends around let alone a girl he likes. Well he says like but I've heard him describe you and well he didn't miss a beat." She smiles looking at me. I blushed and smiled at the lady.

"He exaggerates some details." I joked. She laughed and then noticed something.

"Ooh, there he is. Ashton! Come over here!" She said. Ashton looked up from the ground and walked over forcefully to where the lady and I were standing.

"Hey, Grammy." He smiled hugging the lady. She smiled and leaned into Ashton's hug.

"Ashton. I was telling your lovely girlfriend about all the lovely things you've said about her." Grammy said.

"Well that's nice of you." Ashton says smiling at her. I felt a sharp pain hit my stomach so I excused myself and walked to the bathroom. I prayed that it wasn't what I thought it was. I pulled my underwear down in the bathroom only to see a big red spot on the side. Goddamit!

I looked in my purse and in the cabinets of the sink. Nothing. No tampon, no pads and no liners. Kill me now. I would be the girl who started bleeding at a family Christmas dinner. I ran the water and started to take deep breaths. Now, there was no way to act like it didn't happen. A knock tapped the door and I mentally cussed myself for not being prepared.

"Hey, my grandmother wants to know if you're ok?"

"Yeah, um, I'm fine. Just leave me alone for a while ok?"

"What happened?" He asked automatically concerned.

"Nothing serious. I just need you to get Cassie." I said.

"What is gong on? Let me help you." He demanded.

"You can't."

"I'm pretty sure I can." He said. I sighed and opened the bathroom door. He walked in and closed the door behind him.

"I'm bleeding... Down there." I said. Ashton tried to act unaffected by my announcement. He glanced down and then back up to my eyes.

"And you didn't bring anything?"

"I didn't know."

"You don't have a timer?" He asked.

"It's not holiday. It doesn't come on the same day every month. It varies." I explained.

"Oh, I'll be right back." He said sliding out of the bathroom door. I ran a hand through my hair. This day was going so great. I'm in something close to love with a boy who cheated on me and may have leaked my best friend's, scratch that ex- best friend's nudes. How did this even happen? What led up to this horrible moment in my life where I was actually physically hung up on someone I had a chance with. My whole life came crumbling down that night. Alyson sitting on my front porch crying her eyes out and lying to me with no guilt. Maybe she thought she wasn't lying. Maybe she didn't know who sent them but assumed it was Ashton. Maybe I was being to harsh on her and on Ashton. Maybe I should just leave this party and run away and save up money and invite Ashton with me and tell him. I need to tell him. I was knocked out of my thoughts when I heard the door knob rattle.

"Hunter!? It's me! Ashton!" He whisper shouted. I unlocked the door and made room for him. He slid in and handed me two pads and a tampon. I waited for him to leave or kiss me or something but he just stood there.

"Um, could you at least turn around?" I asked. He blushed slightly turning himself away from me. I held in a laugh as he covered his eyes and sighed. I quickly unwrapped the tampon and did my business. I fixed my clothes and mentally cussed at myself for still having on bloody underwear.

"Is everything ok?" He asked.

"I need to go home." I said. THe turned around cautiously and looked at the pads in my hand.

"Are you hurt?" He asked

"I'm just not as fresh as I should be. But it was fun." I said collecting whatever I had in the bathroom with me.

"I'm not letting you leave here alone." He said sternly. I rolled my eyes.

"I'm serious. You obviously don't feel well. I'm going to take care of you." He said. We walked out of the bathroom catching the eye of a few family members. He led me to the door and then stopped.

"I've gotta run upstairs for a second." He said. I nodded and idled with my hair as I waited. My eye caught a quiff of blonde hair and my whole body tensed. On his arm was a beautiful blonde girl with blue eyes and a gold wrap around dress.

She has got to be kidding me.

I looked down hiding my face from them only to be seen by both of them.

"Hey, Hunter." Alyson smiled elongating the 'aye' part. I stopped myself from cringing at the sight of the two together. Best friends don't pull this shit on each other.

"Hi." I said weakly. I could feel the emotion filling up in my cheeks and my eyes. I just hoped that Ashton would hurry.

"Hunter, it's been awhile." Luke said trying to smile at me.


"Are you leaving? So soon? The party hasn't even begun." Alyson says smiling.

"She doesn't feel well. I was taking her home." I heard Ashton's voice say. I closed my eyes in relief and I hid behind Ashton's body.

"Hey, Ashton. Having fun?" Alyson asked smirking.

"Come on." He said pulling me away with him. I felt so much better when the cold winter air hit my face. It was like a refreshing wave. We walked slowly to his car and when we were there we didn't even talk. The drive to my house wasn't far but it was far enough for us to feel the uncomfortable silence.

"I shouldn't have said that thing about you and Violet. It was way out of line." I apologized.

"God, thanks for making me feel like an even bigger douche bag. Really? I fuck up and you blame yourself for the one thing you did about it?" He asks laughing humorlessly.

"I'm sorry." I apologize again.

"Stop apologizing." He groans. I close my eyes and sigh.

"We aren't as broken as we should be. I'm not mad at you. I'm sad. But Violet had you first." I said honestly. Truthfully I was mad at myself. It was me who pushed him away in the first place.

"I'm so sorry. You were right. I shouldn't have done what I did. Violet is my past and I'm trying to move forward with you." He said.

"I feel like you go to her when you don't want me." I said looking at my hands. I felt the car pull over and I heard the engine die. Ashton picked up my chin using his fingers and pulled it up so my eyes met his.

"Don't ever think that again. Don't ever say it either. I don't want you to think or say that or anything like that again. Do you understand?" He asked sternly. I nodded slowly watching as his caramel colored eyes melted in my gray ones. He turned away to his steering wheel. I looked down at my lap. I heard him sigh loudly and then he placed his hand on top of mine. My breathing caught and I was in a frenzy.

We sat together in complete silence as our fingers laid on my lap entangled together. Questions were jumbled all inside my brain. Questions I probably shouldn't bring up while I'm in good terms with Ashton.

"Tell me what you're thinking about." He demands.

"I don't want to upset you again." I said

"You never upset me. Well not intentionally."

"I don't understand what I do. Is it the questions?"

"It isn't you, exactly." He said rubbing my thigh.

"Then what is it?"

"I don't want you to get upset."

"Just say it. If I do then hell."

"That's not how I see it."

"How do you see it?"

"If I lose you that's it. You're all that matters to me. All last night don't be totally grossed out but I couldn't stop thinking about you. Even when I was -"

"I get it." I said smiling in disgust.

"I can't lose you. Whenever I even feel close to losing you I feel like I've lost the biggest race ever. I was so close. And I fucked it up over the fact that I was kind of secretly dating Alyson." He said staring at me. I stared at him blankly.

He didn't know I knew.

I faked a surprised face. Too late.

"You seem informed."

"It isn't surprising. She goes after every guy I like." I muttered truthfully.

"Oh." He said. I immediately connected the dots.

"Not Luke. Never again Luke." I promised. His eyes were stuck on the road.

"Do you still like anyone else?" He asks.

"It's only you bud. You're stuck with me." I smiled at him. He continues to drive down the street and I can feel him relax. It's been a long day.

"I will never be able to forgive myself for hurting you." He says.

"I'm better now. It's ok I'm not hurting anymore." I said. He groaned.

"That's not the point. The point is there was a point in time that still exists that your pain was caused because of my stupidity." He says. We pull up to my house and he stops the car. I don't want to get out. If I get out he leaves. If he leaves I'm broken all over again.

"Well come on. I'll make you something to eat." He says getting out of the car.

"What about the party?" I ask

"They'll be here until New Years." He said rolling his eyes. Something in me sparked at the thought of getting Ashton alone. And then I remembered.

My dad was home.

We walked into the house only to see my dad cooking in the kitchen. I forgot I hadn't told him about the dinner party.

"I didn't know we were having guests." He says looking at Ashton.

"It's ok right?" I ask him. He nods and smiles at the boy.

"Nice to see you again. Bedroom door needs to be open. Never thought I'd have to say that." He said smiling.

"Neither did I." I smiled. I pulled Ashton up the stairs to my room. To be honest I just wanted to kiss him all day and night and talk about everything. And-

"I'll be out here when you're done." He says laying on my bed. I nod and hurry to the closet to pick out different clothes and then walk quickly into the shower. I couldn't even imagine what was going to happen after today. I was being blackmailed and constantly teased. I couldn't talk to anyone and even better, the icing on the cake... I couldn't stop feeling in love with Ashton. I needed to try and stop. If I stopped then it wouldn't hurt so bad when we broke up and he was over me. Over me. It just didn't sound right. It didn't even look right. Me without Ashton. Ashton with someone else. Complete strangers. I shivered at the thought. Maybe if I killed Alyson she'd never tell. No duh she'd be dead.

Something inside me said she'd haunt her way into the picture.


Ashton stayed for our family dinner which was just eating around the Christmas tree watching Charlie Brown. My dad turned the tv off and started handing me presents to open and I did likewise with him. Ashton watched as we both gave a new dog house to Lola.

She loved it.

"Ok, Ashton I wish I would've gotten you something since you're here and all but here's $60 go out to a movie or something." My dad laughed handing him the money. Ashton chuckled and stuffed the money in his pocket.

"Well, it's my shift at the hospital merry Christmas, Hunts." My dad said kissing my forehead. He hopped up and ran to the door. Ashton looked at the makeup and shirts I got and laughed.

"Christmas for one is so weird. No wrapping paper everywhere just the stuff." He said.

"Dad has the afternoon shift every Christmas. He wasn't here to clean up paper." I said folding shirts.

"Is it lonely? With your dad gone all the time?" He asked.

"You get use to it." I shrugged. It was lonely.

"That seems unfair."

"That's life. The pretty blonde gets the big family and I get the dog. Not that Lola isn't awesome." I said rubbing my puppy.

"That isn't necessarily true."

"Yeah, it isn't." I lied. I didn't care what he said. Blondes were fucking up my life.

"Anyways I got you something." He smiled. I frowned at him.

"I thought we weren't doing that." I said.

"No, you said you didn't know what to get me. I said to come to the party. You did. Now it's my turn." He says.


"Shhh close your eyes and hold out your arm." He said. I sighed and closed my eyes. I felt the soft pressure to my lips and then it was gone. A smile broke out on my face and then there was rattling. I felt a cool piece of metal on my wrist. Ashton's touch no matter how small still excited so many nerves in my body.

"Open your eyes." I obeyed blinking my eyes and focusing them on the small chain on my wrist. It had a lot of small chains. I didn't touch it. I was afraid to break it.

"What do they stand for?" I asked implying the charms

"Well, the shirt is for your love of plaid shirts. The heart was just because green is your favorite color um the A is for Ashton so that you can remember me and shit. The two birds are you and I. See they are in," he trailed off for a moment and then turned to look the other way. "Very strong feelings of like." He smiled.

"It's beautiful. I've never had anything like it." I said turning the charms in my hand.

"Are you sure you like it? I mean honestly you can take it back," he said rubbing his neck.

"Stop it, I just wish I would've gotten you something." I said blushing.

"You forgiving me is enough of a relief. Best gift I could've asked for." He smiled. His smile was momentarily killing every brain cell I had. I bit my lip as I looked to what he was wearing. I actually didn't notice how good he looked. He was wearing his usual ripped jeans and shirt outfit. Instead he was wearing black dress pants and a red button down shirt with a white tie. My hand trailed to the tail of his tie.

Goddamit hormones!

Ashton's eyes never left my hand as it went up his chest and around his neck. I had pulled myself into his lap his lips were directly in front of mine. His lips lowered on to mine and I moaned before the contact was even made. I couldn't believe he was all mine. He was stupid and impulsive and I hated how much I craved him. But I needed him. I needed to be close to him. And he intoxicated me. My fingers untangled the tie and I pulled open the buttons on his shirt. He sighed as my hands pushed his shirt off revealing just a white teeshirt. My hands greedily lifted his shirt off and over his head in a single motion. I should've told him everything. But while his hands were so slowly scaling up my body I saw it hard to tell him anything. Well anything other than 'Ashton'. My fingers played with his belt buckle and he mumbled something into my lips.

"No, baby." He moaned catching my hand as my fingers had tried to pull open the belt buckle. I couldn't wipe the look of disappointment off my face.

"Not tonight, soon though. I promise." He whispered in my ear.

"I want you." I said softly my voice raspy.

"And you think I don't? Just not all at once." He compromised. I felt his arm wrap around me and then I was pulled into his warm body. I ran a hand through my hair and stood up.

"I've gotta pee." I lied standing up.

"I'm sorry Hunter." He said before I was gone.

"What?" I asked pretending I was shocked.

"Every time I do something to make you angry you just leave." He says grabbing his shirt. I realized that I didn't really understand how this dating thing worked. It's not just me, me, me. It was both of us. I sat down and sat down next to him. I really needed to get my shit together. Soon.


Fave Quote: "That's not the point. The point is there was a point in time that still exists that your pain was caused because of my stupidity." -Ashton

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