I dont know what to do anymore.
I havent anwsered Acaica for 2 days.
She keeps texting me and calling, but i dont care right now.
She is a good girl and i like her, but she isnt Ava.
Today i was on the way to the airport.
I was going with Nash to New York.
You know, to meet fans and stuff.
I sure wished that i could actually smile for real.
I got on the plane, and looked besides me at Nash.
He smiled at me, and punshed me on the shoulder.
"Smile a bit bro, there is a lot of hot chicks in New York" I starred at him.
"But they arent Ava" Nash rolled his eyes.
"Listen dude, i know that you have a lot of love problems right now, but will you please smile and act nice to our fans?"
I rolled my eyes. "I always do, and i still will even tho Ava hates me"
Nash punshed me on the shoulder again, and smiled. "Thats all im asking for"
I looked out the window and put in my headphones.
Before i knew it, we were landing in New York.
We got out of the plane and found our suitcases.
Nash kept smiling at me, but i just starred at him with a mad face.
"Dude, smile" He punshed my shoulder and smiled like an idiot.
We got to our hotel room, and unpacked.
"Dude, there is only 30 minutes until we're meeting the fans, smile" He looked at Nash, and smiled.
"That's better" I looked away again.
We got ready, and walked towards time square, where we were suppose to meet the fans.
Before i knew it, about 100 girls ran towards us.
In a way, i wanted them to think i was a happy person. But then again. I didnt care right now.
"Dude, remember to smile" Nash whispered in my ear, as the girls were near us.
I hugged all the girls that wanted to hug me and i smiled on the pictures as well.
At a moment, i really needed to be alone, so i want to sit down a bench a few meters away from Nash and the others.
I thought about Ava.
About what a duce, i'd been.
About her face, when she looked at me just before she had to leave.
About her face, when she saw me with Acacia.
She was broken.
I thought about her words, when she yelled at me.
and when she ran away and didnt look back.
A girl walked towards me, and sat down next to me.
She looked at me and smiled. I tried to smile back.
"Cameron?" I looked at the girl and kept smiling.
"Yes" She took my hand and looked serious at me.
"Are you okay?" I looked down at her hand wrapped around mine and smiled again.
"I dont know" She moved closer.
"Do you miss Ava?" I looked weird at her.
"How do you know her?" She smiled.
"i was at the magcon meetup when you told everyone that she was your girlfriend" I smiled and remembered.
"She isnt my girlfriend, anymore" The girl smiled and held tighter around my hand.
"Why not?" I looked down.
"Because i made a terrible mistake, and now she wont talk to me"
The girl giggled.
"How did you get her in the first place?" I thought about it.
"I kissed her" The girl smiled and let go of my hand.
"You need to go and do that again"
The girl was right! I HAD TO GO KISS HER AND TELL HER HOW MUCH SHE MENT TO ME!
I felt to empty.
I didnt even leave Erika's house for days.
She had school and stuff, but she let me stay.
I didnt know what i should have done without her, at this point of my life.
My phone vibrated on the table next to Erika's bed.
I lifted my arm and grapped my phone.
I looked at the screen, for the first time in 2 days.
My twitter was blowning up.
I opened up the app and went through all the tweets until i saw that Cameron had tweeted for like 20 minutes ago.
"I know where im suppose to be, and who im suppose to be with"
I looked through the anwsers from his fans, and felt the tears coming.
This one girl, uploaded a picture of me and Cameron and wrote "Youre suppose to be with the love of your life"
Almost all the other tweets were about Cameron being with the other girl Acacia or themselfs.
My heart had been broken enough for now, so i locked my phone and let it fall back on the table.
After a few hours or something, i disited to go for a walk, to clear the air.
I took on some messy clothes and walked outside.
I started walking, when i saw Cameron at the end of the road.
He smiled and started running towards me.
I looked at him, and ran the other way.
I ran, and ran and ran.
I wasnt ready for the lets be friends talk. Cus i didnt want to be his friend.
"Ava! Wait!" I heard him screaming my name, but i kept running.
I finally got to Erika's house, and almost reached opened the frontdoor, when Cameron ran up at me.
"Ava" I took a deep breath and turned around. So i was facing him.
"Ava, im sorry" I shoke my head.
"God, why cant you leave me alone?!" He walked closer.
"Because i love you" He smiled.
Suddently it started rainning.
"I dont believe you anymore Cameron, you can go have sex with that Acacia girl, if you want to. I dont care anymore" We both were starting to get soaked. But i was to angry to care.
"Ava, i cant live without you. Im sorry" He tried to take my hand, when i pulled away.
"GOD. NO YOURE NOT. OTHER WISE YOU WOULDNT HAVE DONE THOSE THINGS WITH THAT BITCH"
I felt the tears coming.
"WHAT YOU DID CAN NEVER BE FORGOTTEN." I felt the tears running slowly down my cheeks.
"Ava, i dont..." He didnt get to say the rest before i interuppted him.
"You dont really want me back. youre just filled with guilt" He shoke his head. "Thats not true"
We were both soaked.
You could see through his white t-shirt.
"I let you take my virginity, i trusted you. I let you do things to me that no one has ever done before"
I shoke my head. "I want you Ava, only you. I love you" He took my hand and held it for a few seconds before i pulled it away again.
"See thats the problem. Cus i dont want you, i dont love you anymore. youre done messing with my head. what we had. Is already gone. Just leave me alone Cameron. Its the best for both of us"
I qucikly got inside and looked at him. "Ava, wait"
He was walking towards the door, when i closed it in his face.
He hammered his hands on the door and kept yelling my name.
I stood up against the door, and slowly slided down to side on the floor, as i starred into the air.
Suddently the hammering stopped.
I felt like my heart was laying in a million pieces all over the floor.
I broke. and the tears kept coming as i thought about him walking away.
But maybe, this was for the best.