I woke up feeling like i'd been feeling for last 6 months.
I had to get this to go away.
I couldnt be hooked up on Cameron all my life.
I had to find a way to move on.
I went on Twitter.
Cameron had retweeted something 3 minutes ago.
"Seeing CAM today :3 Gonna be fun! xxx" It was from some Acaica.
I went into her profile and looked at her pictures.
She was beautiful.
I quickly got out of Twitter, locked my phone and threw it on my bed.
I walked towards my closet to look for some clothes, but it felt like the box with all my memories in were haunting me.
I looked down at it and quickly looked up at my clothes again.
I pulled a long t shirt out of the closet and pulled it on.
it ended a few inches under my ass, so i didnt look like a whore.
I pulled my black knee socks on and walked towards my mirror.
I looked at myself in the mirror.
My nose were too big.
I wasnt as beautiful as that Acacia girl....
This just ruinted my day even more.
I walked to see him.
No wait, i needed to see him.
I had to go back to LA.
Maybe Cameron and Acacia were just friends, and he was still inlove with me.
In my dreams....
I sat down on bed again, and called my mom.
She ran upstairs towards me and looked worried.
"Whats wrong Ava?" I sneezed.
"I dont feel well" She smiled and got inside.
"Well honey, its okay. Stay home today"
She smiled again and walked out of my room.
Yes i just faked being sick, so i could lay here thinking about how i would surprise Cameron tomorrow when i was visiting him. Without him knowing it ofcourse.
I couldnt wait to see the smile on his face again, i could already feel him hugging and kissing me.
Acacia and i had already gotten pretty close.
She was the only girl i'd really gotten close to since Ava moved away.
I guess it was finally time to move on.
Im sure she moved on a long time ago, i wanted her to.
Acaica walked into my room and smiled at me.
"Hey Cam" Her smile was amazing.
"Hey A" I got out of my bed, walked towards Acacia and hugged her.
She looked at me and kept smiling.
"I have something to tell you" I smiled at her and sat down in my bed while still having eyecontact with her.
"I made a song for you" I looked down and then up at her again.
"Really?" She nodded and smiled.
"Its called Stick around" I looked up at her.
"Oh ive heard that one" She blushed.
"Wait, that is about me?" She walked towards me and took my hand.
"Yes, did you hear the lyrics?" I smiled at her.
She slowly sat down on top of me while smiling.
"sing it for me" She smiled.
"Everybody says we're so messed up
But nobody knows I'm so in love with you
And all you do
All that really matters is
When we are together my heart's on fire
Breathing you in, you take me higher
And I'm never coming down
I really hope you stick around"
I looked at her and smiled.
"Youre inlove with me?" She blushed and nodded.
I just smiled at her.
She moved closer and pressed her lips against mine.
She pushed me down and kept kissing me while running her fingers through my hair.
Suddently it felt like i has kissing Ava again.
I closed my eyes, and the first thing that popped into my head while kissing Acacia, was Ava.
I imagined it being Ava kissing me, without noticing and just kept kissing.
It felt like being back in the old days, when Ava was my girlfriend and she didnt move away yet.
This new friendship might have started to become my way into the good old days with the love of my life.
and it was bad.