These past few weeks I've been soo busy with the boys. We've been promoting our album by going to interviews, playing shows all over the US. Lindsey hasn't been answering or returning my calls and I honestly don't know how to feel. I'm staring at a picture of me and Lindsey from my phone when Niall walks in. "So that's what has been getting you down.... what happened between you 2?"
"I don't mate..., I call her, text her and she doesn't answer! I miss her like crazy" I'm angry... I'm trying to make this work and it just seems like Lindsey doesn't want to put in the effort.
"We can tell... you can barely remember your lyrics at rehearsals. Maybe something has been bothering her... I mean all this fame stuff has to be overwhelming"
"Yea well I'm supposed to be her boyfriend... the one she comes to for help"
"Go see her mate... we have the weekend off in Miami so just have our manager book you a flight and fly back by Monday."
"Good idea... thanks lad"
"Anytime" Niall pats me on the back and leaves the room.
I call Paul right after Niall leaves the room. Within 4 hours I'm boarded first class on a flight to Toronto.
**4 HOURS LATER**
I arrive in Toronto and quickly catch a cab back to Lindsey's. Since we live next door to each other I call my parents and tell them I'm dropping by.
I ring the doorbell and the door opens... and there she stands the beautiful face I've been missing.
"Lindsey! Oh baby I missed you so much!" I say embracing her in a hug that she doesn't return. Instead she starts crying and I become very concerned.
"What's wrong babe... what did I do" Looking into her teary eyes.
"Liam I think it's best we go our separate ways... It's not you..It's me"
"No.. Lindsey baby tell me whats wrong... let me make it right"
"There's nothing you can do... sorry Liam"
that's when I lose it... I came all the way from Miami to see her and when she tells me she wants to end us she can't even tell me why?!
"What more do you want from me Lindsey?! I came from Miami to see you... the least you owe me is an explanation! I'm your boyfriend! I'm supposed to be the one you're honest with... you can't put walls around yourself and expect others to just stand outside of them!" She seemed really upset and started crying harder but she too seemed mad.
"No one asked you to fly here to see me... most guys would take a hint"
With that I just left and stormed off to my house to see my parents.
I closed the door crying. I felt so angry with myself. I should've let him in... open up to him but instead I shut him out. But then I think to myself it's only a matter of time until he sees what the rest of the world sees.... he deserves much more than me. I will never be good enough for him and that's just reality.