When I got home from taking Nick Back to his place, I just sat around the pond. I thought about Daniel and I and all the good times. Now everything has gone down hill. "Why did you leave me? Why did you break your promise?" I whispered to the air. Then I went back inside. I tried to fight off the bad thoughts. I tried to think of something good instead of that my boyfriend had kill himself a wee before. I just couldn't. I walked into my room and grabbed my blade, Then I went to the bathroom and locked the door. I turned on the bath and filled the tub. I didn't know what I was doing but whatever it was, something was telling me to stop. I sat in the bath, "Is this how you felt?" I whispered. Then I cut into my wrist. Blood flowed out. It was more than normal. I started to panic. I quickly dropped the blade in the water. I got up and put a towel on. Then I took another one and placed it to my wrist. It wouldn't stop bleeding. "Mom!" I yelled. She ran in to see me. "Mom I'm sorry, help me. Please." I pleaded. My face was wet with tears. She grabbed the towel and put pressure on my arm. "lets get into the car," she said calmly. I hurried to the car. She sped to the hospital. We ran into the emergency room. By this time I was feeling light headed. "Mommy, I need to-" then I passed out.
I woke up in a white room. I heard beeping. Where was I? I felt sleepy, I looked at my hands. My left wrist had bandages on them. "You're awake." I heard a familiar voice say. I looked towards the voice. "Mom?" I asked. "Yes honey." she said. "I'm so sorry." I said before I fell asleep. I zoned in and out. I woke up once to see my mom talking to the doctor. I acted like I was asleep so I could here what they would say about me. "But, she has never done anything like this before." my mom said. "She has chronic depression ma'am. We have a support group on Wednesdays that she should attend. But other than that, I think you should keep her out of school for a while." My mom didn't say anything. When I heard the door shut, I opened my eyes. "Chronic depression huh?" I said. "I guess. Oh Maggie if you where thinking about those things again you should have told me." She said disappointed that I had done what I done. I couldn't believe I did what I did. I really messed up. "Im going to take you out of school for a while. I'll have the school send the homework to us." she said. I nodded. "When do I go home?" I asked. "In a few days." Then the conversation stopped.
After a day in the hospital and mom and dad walking in and out of my room, I got a visitor. "Knock,Knock" he said. I looked over to him. "Nick, hi." I said sitting up straighter. "Maggie, hi," he smiled at me. "Here, sit." I said patting the spot next to my on my bed. He sat down and looked at me. "You okay?" I asked. "Yeah, sorry, I didn't mean to stare." He said, looing away. "Its okay, everyone stares at me now. Its like, they can't see how sad I could have been. I didn't know what I was thinking. I wasn't thinking. I guess my mind thought that if I wanted to see him again I had to end it." I felt tears in my eyes. I didn't want to die. "I understand. When my mom died I wanted to see her again, I never went that far, but I did cut. I remember that when I got hurt before she died, she would always kiss it. All moms have done that for their kids, but my mom she made it a huge deal even if it was just a little bump. I guess when I was in pain from the cuts, my mind played a trick and I felt like she kissed the cuts. Its crazy." Nick said. It wasn't crazy. I felt like Daniel was with me while I was panicking. It was a rush of him.
"I promise." He said. "Promise? We're making promises now?" I asked. "I promise that I will be with you no matter what. I promise that You will be my only love. If we ever break up, Id go to the ends of the earth to get you back. Only because you're the love of my life." he said. "And if I die?" I asked. "Ill never love another. And if I die, ill die in love with you." he said looking at his comic. "Daniel, we aren't gonna die anytime soon." I said. "Death has no warning." he stated.
After a week in the hospital I finally got to go home. I went to my room and laid on my bed. After a while mom came in for her hourly check up. She brought my homework. "Here sweetheart, Nick brought it over. He is in the living room. Do you want to see him?" mom asked. "Yeah, send him in." mom said. She walked out and in a few seconds Nick walked in. "Hey, I just wanted to give you help on your homework. Chemistry was kind of hard for everyone." Then he pulled out his Chemistry book out of his bag. We worked on it till mom called us for supper. I ate in silence, mom and dad where having a blast talking with Nick.
"So Daniel, What do you plan to do when you get out of high school?" my dad asked. "Im going to go to college for something related to music. I want to work with the sound board at recording studios." he answered. "Daniel has a mix tape of dubstep dad. Remember when I showed you Skrillex? He makes music like that." I said. "Why don't you just get a producer to produce it?" mom asked. "I don't think making music would be a good way to support myself and my future family." Daniel said glancing at me. "I think that if I do that, I wont have time to do anything else that's all." I looked at him and smiled.