I try on another form fitting dress, it just doesn't feel right. I don't feel like I should wear these outfits.
I look at my nice cozy, loose pink night gown I have waiting for me. I throw it on and run downstairs . I cook a small pasta and sit down.
I can't stop thinking about what everyone was saying about my body. I shouldn't feel insecure about this but I do.
I wish the boys were here to keep me feeling good. I look around and notice a picture of my mum holding an infant me.
I knew if she were here she would tell me I'm perfect , but I'm not.
I start to cry. I'm stronger than this. Darcy, you are 16, you are a strong young woman. Get a grip, girl!
The front door open and in walks Justin. He looks at me and grumbles.
"What's your problem Justin?" I ask him rather roughly.
"You." He spats
"What did I do to you?!"
"Ever since Ryan and Chaz saw you they would not stop talking about how hot you are." Justin says and I stiffen.
"How hot I am? I'm not hot at all!"
"That's what I said." Justin says sitting down across from me
I finish my pasta and set it in the sink. Justin keeps watching me but I don't care.
"What are you wearing?" He asks
"A night gown, got a problem?" I ask sweetly
"Um yeah, why would you not want to show off your body?" He answers
Great, a question for a question.
"Because it's just you and me here, why would I. ?"
"I don't know, to be normal." He answers and I start to feel my blood boil.
"Normal! I am normal!" I yell
"Since when were old lady gowns normal?" He yells back at me.
"Since I started wearing them, Justin! You can't come into my house and tell me what's normal! You idiot!" I yelled at him.
He gets up and looks me in the eyes, I glare at him.
"This is my house now, not yours. Now get out of my face you little brat." He whispers meanly .
"Well, your an A**! I yell in his face and he slaps me.
I was surprised by what I said more than the slap. I have never cussed in my life.
I run up to my room and look at the mark, great another bruise on my face.
I wish Harry was here. I wish my boys were here right now .
I start to cry. No one under stands me.
Why am I so misunderstood ?!