It's been two months without her.
I haven't been the same.
Almost every night ends with my mother holding me while I cry, or tell her how much as I missed her.
"Luke, you need to do something," Ashley said as I poked at my food during lunch.
"Like what?" I asked sadly.
"Call her or text her. You don't have to tell her that you've been sad or need her, but let her know you're okay...She's worried. She's been texting and calling all of us about you," Calum said.
"But I'm not okay," I sighed. "Look, I'll think about it."
I stood up and walked to the bathroom.
I miss everyone.
I've been doing online school, because I haven't found another high school.
Luke won't answer my calls or texts.
Everyone keeps telling me he's fine.
But why would he ignore me.
I slammed my laptop shut and began crying loudly.
"Ari?" My dad walked in.
I shoved my face into my pillow.
"Are you okay?"
I didn't want to tell him that I lied about wanting to come here.
So I lied, "I just started thinking of mom...Sorry..."
"It's fine," he hugged me and walked back down the hall of the small apartment.
"Nothing's working here!" I yelled as a whisper.
Nothing. I miss everyone.
But for some reason, mostly Luke.
Just then my phone rang.
"Luke?!" I heard her sweet voice yell.
"Hey..." I sniffed.
"Are you crying...?" She became unexcited.
"Maybe," I sighed.
"You rarely cry. How come?" She asked.
"I just miss you. That's all..."
"Why haven't you replied to me then?"
"Because...I don't know. I'll be okay...I have to go, by. Love you Ari."
"Love you too, Luke. Bye..." she said.
I slammed my phone onto my bed in frustration.
Maybe this moving thing was a bad idea.
I sighed. I think Luke lied about being okay.
I called Ashton.
"Tell me the truth. Is Luke really okay?"
"No. Don't be mad. We weren't trying to lie, but he just didn't want you to know."
"I think that's something he should tell you himself. It's not my place to tell you, sorry."
"It's fine. He just won't talk to me. Not for long anyways..."
"It's okay. Thanks though, Ashton."
"You're welcome, bye bye."
Okay, Luke isn't okay. Now I'm extremely worried.
What am I going to do?
I wonder if he really didn't want me to go.
"Dad?" I knocked on his door.
I walked into his office, "Can I go to see my friends?"
"Um, when, exactly?"
"Maybe tomorrow?" I sighed.
"You're lucky I have SkyMiles. Take this card."
"Okay, Ari, be safe. I love you," my dad hugged me.
"I'll be back Thursday," I nodded, "I love you too."
Today's Monday. Four days to fix things.
The plane landed and hour ago.
Ms. Hemmings took me back to her house.
Luke was at school. It was 1:00PM.
"Their lunch break will start soon, do you want to go visit them there?" She asked me.
I thought about it. I do want to see everyone else too.
I told her I did and she drove me to school, "See you tonight. Bye!"
"Bye!" I smiled and walked into the school.
I walked into the lunch room.
Ashton and Ashley saw me.
I put my finger to my mouth.
I put my hands on Mikey and Calum's shoulder and said loudly, "Heyo!"
"Hey!" They said in sync and hugged me.
"Hey!" I smiled big. I walked over and hugged Ashton and Ashley.
"What are you doing here?" Calum asked.
"I missed you guys," I shrugged and sat down next to him.
"You also came for Luke, didn't you?" He asked again.
They all leaned in and eyed me.
"Okay, yes, but I swear I also came to see you all. Can we hang tomorrow? All of us? I have to talk to Luke..."
They all nodded.
"Thanks...Where is he?" I asked.
"Science lab," Calum said.
"See you tomorrow! Bye guys!" I smiled and left.
I walked to the Science lab and peeked through the small window.
Luke was in the back corner at a table. He was on his phone.
"Come in," he said not looking up.
I tip-toed in and sat at the teacher's desk.
"You're not supposed to be in here," I said, like a teacher.
His head shot up, "Ari?"
A smile plastered across his face.
"Yes," I squealed.
He threw his phone on the table and darted to me.
"I missed you so much!" He said loudly and gave me a huge hug.
By huge, I mean huge.
"I missed you so much too!" I laughed.
He started crying.
I pulled away and looked at him, "Luke? Why are you crying?"
"I've been really sad. I'm sure one of them told you...But I'm just different when you aren't here, so I'm just happy."
I smiled, "Awe, Luke. I love you. I've been a little sad myself."
He smiled back.
We hugged again and didn't let go.
"The bell will ring soon, I'll head back to your house," I stated.
"I'm coming with you," he said and grabbed his bag and phone.
"Okay," I laughed.
I went up to my old room at his house.
"Sit," I pointed at my bed.
He did so.
"Luke, what did you mean by different when I'm not here?" I huffed and stood in front of him.
"Ari, I'm just too sad to do anything right. My mom always has to hug me for hours until I calm down. I just kind of didn't realize how much I needed you..."
"Why did you let me leave then?"
"Honestly, none of us wanted you to, but we knew that was best for you and your dad. I didn't want to hold you back, and I thought I would be okay, but I was completely wrong. If it weren't for you helping me out with my mom, no one would've been there to hug me while I cried, missing you. That would've been worse."
I let it all out. If she stays, and they all hate me for my uncontrollable feelings and making her stay, so be it.
"Luke," she looked down.
"Yes?" I tried not to cry.
"This is between you and me right now. Do you want me to stay?"
"Yes," I nearly didn't let her finish, "I can't do it without you by my side anymore..."
"That's all you had to say. Come here," she said with her arms out.
I stood up and hugged her.
Again, we didn't let go.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you...You were just so sad the first night you stayed here. Remember how much you missed your dad? Well you were in tears, and that's all that was rushing through my head when I saw you board that plane.
"It's okay, Luke," she rubbed my back.
"Seeing you cry hurt me, and I couldn't let that happen...That's why I told you to go."
"I'd rather cry and miss my dad, than hear that you've been crying every single night in pain, and that I can't be there to hold you."
I still didn't let go of her.