I lay back down on my bed and try to keep it together. I can't take it anymore, I scream in frustration. Sam comes in looking concerned.
"Does anyone in this house knock anymore!" I yell "or are you hear to scream at me to? Because you know what? I am done hearing about what a horrible person I am so if connor sent you hear you can just go tell him that I get it, okay?" I finish, a single tear leaking out my eye.
"Um, I was just wondering if you wanted dinner? But if you're not hungry than I can leave." Sam says looking slightly scared.
"Oh. I'm sorry Sam. I'm just having a lot of drama. And yes, I would love some food. Thank you" I say trying to smile.
"Okay then" he says and leaves my room.
I here the front door open and close. Alex, my best friend, knocks on my door. At least she understands the importance of privacy.
"Come in!" I say. She walks in and hugs me.
"Hey girl! How are you?" She asks.
"Not good actually." I say "Connor asked Samantha out, kian kissed me, connor saw and got angry at me, and I yelled at Sam for no reason." I say. Alex is Sam's girlfriend. She is also my most trusted friend.
"That sucks. Are you going to say something to Connor?" She asks.
"Probably. I just don't know what to say." I reply unsure.
"Leave it to me." She says winking. Oh Alex. Always has a crazy idea.
"Okay. But I'm gonna play some music." I reach for my phone and turn on my favorite song; Remember the Tin Man by Tracy Chapman. Alex leaves the room.
I am in my room thinking about Ella. I probably shouldn't have yelled at her. Just then someone knocks on my door.
"Come in!" I yell. Alex walks into my room. Just great. She is probably here to scold me.
"Yes?" I say expecting a long explanation of what a horrible person I am.
"Go talk to Ella" she says. Well that was straight to the point.
"Fine" I say. Getting up slowly.
"Now!" She says, flicking me on the forehead.
"Ouch!" I say. Oh Alex. I get up and head towards Ella's room. I get to the door and hear Ella singing.
"Who stole your heart, the smile from your face, the innocence the light from your eyes, who stole your heart or did you give it away" her voice was beautiful and matches perfectly with the song. This made me feel even worse. We used to listen to this song all the time when we were little. Our parents would set up a stage and we would sing it in front of our families. I knock on Ella's door and I hear the music pause. Her bed creaks and she opens the door. Ella looks up at me as if she is afraid of me. As if I am going to start yelling at her.
"Can I come in?" I ask.
"Sure" I walk into her room and close the door. She sits down on her bed and I sit next to her.
"Ella, I am really sorry about yelling at you, I'm sorry I ignored you when I was with Samantha, I'm sorry I-" I start. "Connor, it's okay." She says looking at me. She is still unsure to trust me but she is going to anyway.
"So you're okay?" I ask surprised
"Yes. I didn't mean to kiss kian. It just sort of happened" she says to me. Thank goodness. I would be a little weirded out if Ella got serious with Kian.
Okay good. I guess I'll talk to you later?" I say getting up. As I stand up Ella grabs my hand.
"I'm okay Connor, really" she says. She knows me well enough to guess that I don't believe her. I look at her and then leave.