A/N - Thought I'd update because I can't sign up on the Derp Con website because it keeps crashing :( BUT WHAT AN AWESOME IDEA!!
Why did I up and leave?
Why did I even ask if she wanted to be with me. Of course she does.
My fist collided with the nearest wall.
I fucked this up again.
As much as her words sting, I know they’re true.
Maybe I should leave her alone, to get on with her life, find a good career choice and a man who can give her stability – someone that has the option of settling down and giving her a family.
If I didn’t love her so much I probably would.
I picked up the nearest pen and some paper, whenever I get emotional I’ll write lyrics, it’s the best way to vent. Better than previous ways.
I take my mind back to our Skype conversation turning it into a lyrics.
‘Telling you I haven’t seen your face in ages, it feels like we’re as close as strangers’
‘Late night calls and another text, is this as good as we’re gonna get? Another time zone taking me away from you, living dreams in fluorescent lights while you and I are running out of time, but you know that I’ll always wait for you.’
I finish writing the chorus when I realise there are tears falling from my eyes, growing up I always thought that true love was red roses, dates on a Saturday nights, little black boxes that held expensive things and always knowing what to say, but now that I’ve been through it, she has showed me that true love is the ugly snapchat pictures we both send to one another at 4am, never running out of things to talk about even if the conversation turns stupid, it’s singing at the top of our lungs and getting mad at each other for no apparent reason. That’s love.
And I really love Alexa.