Dying Wish

People say cancer makes you depressed, makes you want to give up, there's nothing that can make you feel stronger or alive. Maybe that's true, maybe its not. For me its not true. Sometimes you have that one special thing that helps you. That you get excited to see, to watch, to listen. Sometimes its just a tv show maybe a toy or your phone. One Direction is what has helped keep me alive. I have cancer. Its called Melanoma and its a skin cancer that can be cured unless it spreads to much. Every patient is part of The Wish Foundation we get a wish. All I can think about is that one girl that got to meet Kim Kardashian, if she could meet her then maybe I have a small chance of meeting One Direction.


18. Chapter: 17- Goodbye



     "Payton! I bought pizza!" Payton's mom set the box down and made her way upstairs. 


     "Where is that girl?" Payton's door was closed which made her mom kind of suspicious but because of Payton going through a ruff time it wasn't super unnatural. 


     "Pay- PAYTON!" There on the floor was Payton curled up on her bathroom floor knife a few feet away and a pool of blood around her. A not lay neatly on the counter. 



Dear Mom,

If your reading this then you have already found me. I'm sorry. 


I'm sorry for not being a healthy daughter.


I'm sorry for making money tight. And I'm really sorry for not 


being able to grow up and live. I remember all the stories you use to tell me about the Princess and their princes


and how you hoped that you would one day see me walk down the aisle. See my surrounded by my children-you


r grandchildren- but I won't. I will be dead before it will be possible. I know what your probably thinking


why would I do this to you, Why would I kill myself. But theres been a voice in my head sense the surgery fail 


and I couldn't get rid of it. I use to ignore it thought it was nothing. But I really listened to it today, it reminded me that


I am going to die. There is no way to stop it. why wait for me to die in some hospital.


Why cause you the pain to be holding my hand while I give my last breath. Why die in a hospital that I can't stand. 


I'm so sorry. But I know I probably shouldn't ask for anything because you have done so much for me. 


But all I'm asking is for you to call the boys. Call them and tell them that because of them I didn't give up. 


Even know right before I'm going to kill myself, I haven't given up. No matter if it seems like that.


I'm saving the person I love the most (you) from more pain. And I know it will hurt.


But mom, your strong. The time you broke your wrist you did not cry, the time I was diagnosed with cancer 


you did not cry in front of me. But now mom your strong, but its okay. Its okay to cry. 


You can only be so strong for so long. Remember I love you. 


No matter what. Thank you for being an amazing mom and I'm


sorry I couldn't be the daughter that every mother wants.


I love you. I know its going to be hard but remember that no matter


what I'll still be here even if it isn't in person.


I love you mom. I always will.


Tell the boys that I love them and that I'll miss them and thanks


for everything that they have done.









 Yes, this is the end. The last chapter of Dying Wish. It was honestly really hard to write.

Thanks for reading!!


-Imperfect Dreamer

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